Death takes the beautiful ones

The ones with the purest souls

The ones who aren’t quite done living

The ones who didn’t deserve it

Death takes without remorse

Death doesn’t leave a note

An explanation

He takes

And never gives

Death has taken from me

Many times

This time

It’s too many

Too many gone

In a short time period

She was so young

So excited for the future

And now...

She’s gone.

Death took her like he took the rest

Suddenly and without warning

And her...

She’s ready to give up the fight

To let death win

Let him win the race of life

The race that not only leaves you breathless

But with a tight feeling in your chest

One that never leaves.

Death inevitably wins

As this is one race, that humans have no chance in winning.

i'm scared

scared of the could-be's

scared of what could happen

not to me

but to them

the ones i love

the ones i need to protect

the ones who can't protect themselves

if they end up on the wrong side of the barrell

i'll never forgive myself

so yeah

i'm scared

they found a tumor

after months of pain and questions

i'm in shock

how could this happen to me?

why?

isn't there supposed to be some higher power looking over us?

what did i do?

all that awaits me now is hospital beds and needles

i have a long road ahead of me

all because of this tumor.

my mom placed me on suicide watch last night

she said that she's scared of what i'll do

what i'll do if i'm pushed too far

she told me that she's concerned

for my well-being

that i have too much on my plate

i told her that she was wrong

that i'm fine

no need to worry

but

as the day goes on

i'm starting to worry too.

today i put myself on suicide watch

because who knows what i'll do

when i'm pushed to the edge