These were things you would never remember
As these were the memories I would never forget.

We were alone
Just you and me
There in your room
We fell silent
As we felt the freedom
In ourselves.

Your stare was cold
And I felt puzzled
I tried to put together
The reasons why
I was there in the first place.

Just two weeks ago
In the night of our lives
We professed our feelings
For each other
The first time
I had cried for you
And the very first time
You shed tears for me too.

It was magical
So golden, almost unreal
In the middle of the crowd
We danced like we knew
Our lives would never
Ever be the same.

That was the first time
I had stepped out of my border
Where I ignored the cautions
And I fell for you.

The receding nights were
Bitter sweet,
The strings had worn out
And we exposed ourselves
To each other
You told me your secrets
And I told mine

Everyday we argued
About where we stand
And if this was really love
It was crazy because everytime
We'd apologize,
And then again
We would tell our love
So ardent and passionate
To each other.

It came too fast
And I felt dizzy in the
Roller coaster kind of rush
You made me feel
I was so overwhelmed
And so head over heels
That I felt unusually happy
With our secret relationship.

Our secret affair
That lead us here
In your own space
With our minds still confused
With our love burning bright;
Even we know for a fact that
What we had
would soon end.

'We would never make it'.
You said.
We're star-crossed
And everything in us
Would be tragic.
But we're young
And madly in love
We don't give a ****
The world is too insignificant
To come between us.

Fearless, I heaved closer
And you whispered
To my ear
'I love you
And I would marry you
Someday dear.'

Smiling, we stepped out
Of your door
And I had once again felt
That this would never
Happen once again
That was the last time
We had spent together
As lovers
And we would never
Ever be the same.

I wrote a poem for you when you were gone
It was everyone's darling; I found it feeble.

About how the leagues between diminished
when I stared up at the same stars that lit
the night where you walked. How the Earth
still revolves but we cannot feel it and we
look up, unknowing if anything looks back down.

You returned to me and I collected the pieces of your
heart, gained sight of salt leaking luscious from places
whose ignorance of existence naively I was blessed
heard words I would rather have remained unspoken.

Loathed speech fell like cumbersome bricks from
my tongue to yours, decisions took in absence
causing tectonic plates to clash and tremors be to
felt, further and wider than your eyes when I spoke.

I am sorry is a meaningless phrase. It changes
nothing and I try never to speak it, rather avoid
its crashes of consequence, freeze substance before
the impacted have little cause to celebrate
its colourless intonation.

I am sorry for saying I am sorry, but that which I am not
is for the needed swelling waves which set you far from my shore.

I wonder if you hurt like me
I wonder if you cry like me
I wonder if you go through each day with this pain
Cutting through your flesh and running through your vein.

I wonder if you hurt like me
I wonder if you cry like me
I wonder if you go through each night in despair
With our memories haunting you like a sweet nightmare.

I wonder if you dream of me too
Coz honey, I can't escape the thoughts of you
I could feel our love hanging in the air
It controls me and it's just so unfair.

I know what we had has come and gone
But I couldn't convince myself that we're done
I ceaselessly hang on every word you said to me
In hope that someday you'd realize that we're meant to be.

I wonder if you hurt like me
I wonder if you cry like me
I wonder if you know that I'm still in love with you
I wonder if you feel the same way too.