Love was a snake when you brought it down from the mountain ..... Yet still your confused as to why you've been bitten ?

You may find this funny but I once had a dream about pay toilets. I walked up, handed my root clod to God, the door came open and then closed behind me. I sat down and began to read the graffiti; "Em all" said one and "Maelstrom chronicles" another, "Introspect the bottomless key" and "Will this all come up again tomorrow?" This last was written on the handle which when depressed revealed another little sign which said "NO!"

"Thank you God" I said as I left the stall. "Your welcome Buckwheat" he replied. The words echoed.

As I was waking from this dream I found myself wondering whether it was a reminiscent image of the midnight diaper change or the real thing. Maybe I'll be more like the trees tomorrow and live on sunlight I pondered. Just then I heard my mother's kind voice. "Time to wake up" she said. "I'm already awake" I said as I got out of bed.

Tell them you are okay
Tell them.
You look at withered flowers
you are not them
Tell them.
pull your shirt down over your head
and tie your shoelaces
walk out the doors of safety
drive through roads not meant for you
but tell them you like the noise
that it doesn't scare you
Tell them the days aren't useless
and fall asleep
knock at your skull
stretch out your eyes
wake up and brush your teeth
talk to the people
nice and clean
slip on your socks and shoes
no bare feet
and you will tell them
okay.

Here we go again, the earth pulls us down.
Roots snatched our arms, pushed us through the rabbit hole and we spun like tops.
I tumbled to the ground and you toppled on me, but the demons grabbed you again throwing you far into the dirt. I watched you diminish until you were fully gone.
The monsters made me see you leave
my breathing went heavy
my heart wept
i laid inside the world as it heated me up
burning my skin off, i saw it melt
my nails slid off
my bones depleted
and i blew up in flames
until I was fully gone

Your words shaped who you are
actions soon made their way
The tide came in and formed you
as we once stood together,
alone on the rocky sand
hand in hand
in silence we stared
Creating a shallow beast the waves did
but I will always remember who you were
Found a place for yourself
where you can swallow your guilt
behind the wreckage
that place you built
I will still watch you
crying inside
as you left me now
...to stand alone
while I repeatedly catch your fall
You couldn't care less
You don't care after all