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 Aug 2018 Barker
Nevaeh Lynn
Sos
 Aug 2018 Barker
Nevaeh Lynn
Sos
You say do better
But in doing my best
You say try harder
Dont you see im in distress
Im drowning in my thoughts
I cant catch my breath
Your making it seem like my lifes a quiz
And im not passing the test
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
I walk down the street
late at night
a sense of paranoia
mixes with fright

I hear footsteps behind me
voices whisper in my head

I look back
all that's there
is a stray cat

it runs into the distance
I'm anxious to get home
each passing minute
feels endless
I wish I was safe at home

I pass a beggar
throw some change into a cup
but he gets up
and starts following me
block after block

I'm starting to get scared
as I walk down a dark street
three right turns
and he's still there
behind me

I hurry, and pick up my feet
but he simply walks faster
matching my beat

he starts talking
asking me questions
where I'm going
if I'm single
if I'm interested in a bargain

I ignore him
keep walking
he's still there, right behind me

I finally reach home
turn onto my cul de sac
check the locks three times over
make sure they're intact

go upstairs
shaking with what could've been
pondering why
this always seems to happen
to me
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
I can’t eat
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
I stare down
At the food in front of me
My hands shake
As I pick up my cutlery
My family is watching
Ever so carefully

Cut the smallest bite
Chew forever
I feel sick while eating
Every bite feels like a failure
Everyone watching me eat
Gives me so much anxiety
Telling me to eat more
But I can’t
Because my stomach is so full of butterflies
I can’t eat
I feel disgusted with myself
I go upstairs
And I cry
Because I can’t believe
That I just ate a meal
I hate myself
The thought makes me sick
I can’t
I just can’t eat
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
music
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
music runs through my veins
notes and lyrics take shape on my page
an exposition
of my emotions
available
and on display

my pain and my love
everything inside me
poured out into these
ill made recordings
of my singing late at night
half crying
with messy background music
but it's okay

because my music is a part of me
nobody can take away
no matter what they say
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
Motorcycle
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
I climb on the back of his motorcycle
And he looks back at me, and says
“Hold on tight”
Suddenly I’m flying through the city
I feel so alive
Why can’t I always feel this free?
It felt good, while it lasted
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
parking lot
 Jul 2018 Barker
kyss
Sitting in a parking lot
Listening to a playlist about heartbreak
Birds flutter around me
One lands near my feet
Chirps about
Everything is so peaceful
Why can’t I just stay here forever?
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