Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Alone with a shot of liquor,
Wishing for the time to pass quicker.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Staring at a clock,
Hoping these thoughts I could block.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Watching hours tick by,
Trying to believe my own formulated lie.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
I wonder what I did to deserve this,
Wondering what did I miss,
Or why I care so much for a single kiss.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Seems like it's been years since I here I sat,
With too many shots; head pounding, after that.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
People tell me to get a grip,
Telling me my sanity's in a constant slip.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
My friends want me sober,
I only wish it to be over.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
I've gone through a lot,
Most of it smudged, more of a blot.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Stains on my conscience,
Tears in my heart,
Waiting for a single correspondence,
Before I rip myself apart.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Left me torn,
Alone to mourn.

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
Whose mistake am I,
And why are these tears leaking from my eyes?

Mistakes,
Heartaches,
I'm reaching for the next shot of liquor,
Wishing for the time to pass quicker.

Tears,
Fears,
You disable my stability,
Exploit my fragility,
Destroy my credibility,
Hinder my capability.

Tears,
Fears,
Bind me to a wall of pain,
Strangling, chafing, the strongest chain.

Tears,
Fears,
If you were a person,
You'd shoot me for poor versing.

Tears,
Fears,
So numerous,
Nothing about you humorous.

Tears,
Fears,
A weight in my step,
A world on my shoulders,
A snapping of my honor as I fail to find my misstep,
Nothing to keep me warm as it all grows colder.

Tears,
Fears,
Someone's crying over this,
I know it was my words, frigid as the abyss.

Tears,
Fears,
Not really my own,
They're telling me to get off this throne,
It's made of broken hearts; that's well known.

Tears,
Fears,
My jar of hopeless souls,
Filled with gaping holes.

Tears,
Fears,
You tear apart my connections,
Confuse their directions,
Prevent all corrections.

Tears,
Fears,
I must be cruel,
A true heart breaker,
Playing the game like they're all fools,
Quite the faker.

Trying,
Dying,
Their eyes brimming with tears,
Every sob a torment to my ears.

Trying,
Dying,
So bitter,
They say to me,
For a love counterfeiter,
And what can I do but agree?

Trying,
Dying,
If I let go of their image of my heart,
It would likely tear people apart.

Trying,
Dying,
Wouldn't believe that I can love,
Wouldn't think I was sane,
If I professed that it was the image I was sick of,
Would say that there's been damage to my brain.

Trying,
Dying,
I would love to scream that the damage is to my soul,
But they all say it's as filthy as coal,
And they'd say it's non-existent if there was an opinion-poll.

Trying,
Dying,
I wish to be seen,
Not for what I seem,
Though I won't say that I'm completely clean,
Maybe someone could see, in my eyes, a dream.

Trying,
Dying,
I'm having more luck drowning in the wishes,
And giving heartless kisses.

Trying for something that will only end in Dying.