There are layers existing deep
in you,
parts long forgotten,
parts yet to be found,
they call, but you have never known
how to listen.

They can no longer wait.
The Gods make sure of this.

Someone or something will come
and burn you down to nothing.
Burn down your faulty armor.

It will hurt. And it should.

On the other side of this hurt,
who will be there, but the charred seeds
of your soul.

Find them. Only you can replant them.

Only when you have stopped looking for yourself
in the hands and at the feet of shallow statues,
look down to the soil at your own feet, that ground
you walk upon, there,
plant those seeds, and begin again.
Grow stronger.
Grow wiser.
Reborn.

With a smile on your face,
but a tear in the pocket.
You face the world daily,
not cracking the mask.
Leaving the true face of you,
only for those that can see.
Blessing those fair few,
not just with the pocket tear.
But with the love held by you,
that is held in the other pocket.

I'm losing myself
I'm losing my mind
I’ve lost all the memories
I'm left behind
I knew where I stood
Now I feel blind
I can't keep anything
I put in my mind
I've lost who I was
I've lost who I am
Surrounded by loss
That's where I am
I've been beaten
And broken
I can barely stand
I wonder if I'll
Ever be put together again.

memories fade as new ones come
and still the old ones soldier on
swinging at recess and kissing a boy
losing your heart when you hear his voice
finding true love and giving your all
losing this love, and with it all hope
bitter, contemptuous, driven by hate
flash to being wiser, yet stooped with age,
children and marriage and glory days
football with the kids every sunday
memories flash in  front of your face
and you think of the things you wish you could change
but they are only the past
the future is here
and as your memories die with you
hold onto the fact that you remain here on earth
living in the hearts of those you leave behind,
those who you loved with all your heart
they will remember you

I know you don’t want me to go,
I’m afraid too you know,
It feels like I am leaving you alone,
Don’t weep after me,
You make me cry too,
If it helps to know,
I’m not afraid of dying,
Just afraid of losing you,
I can’t shake off that feeling of regret,
One where I wish to give you more time,
May be, just one more day,
One more life,
So we can do all the things we promised ourselves,
To be together, so I can say I all I ever wanted,
You know I can never leave you when you need me,
Call out to me so I can stay,
All the things that hurt now don’t mean a thing,
But it’s just the nature of things,
Never wonder what is on the other side,
It is irrelevant without you,
I hope you won’t feel the same about life,
When I’m there missing you,
I will still be with you,
Right here in memory,
I will still fly with the birds,
When they feed off the earth that once made me,
It’s not the same, I know,
I’ll wait for you to come join me,
Hold my hand till then,
When I fly I’ll take you with me.
Goodbye my love, please don’t forget me,
Forever together we will exist in death,
When I am stranded alone I know,
You will come rescue me.

I can’t stop thinking about you. You. God, even when I just say that word, off I go, smiling like an idiot. When I’m with you, I can be me. I feel comfortable around you. I may not have known you long, and you may have heard things about me, but I’m not the same me I was a month ago. When we touch all I feel is warmth. When we kiss all I see is joy. When you hold me all I feel is happiness. Please, don’t be afraid of my past. Of the ghosts that follow me. And don’t be afraid of losing me because of something you might do. It takes a lot to scare me off. Just trust me. Please, know how I feel. Don’t be the one I lost.

She left.....
am depressed for
few days
Then
I understood  
I have enough memory
of her
to live
rest of my life....