New York
.
Carnegie Hall
.
I miss who I thought he was
.
I am odd and whimsical
.
Why is it right around this time--right before I'm the happiest, that I remember the ones I loved that made me cry?
.
Sad watermelons
.
Friendiversary
.
Rest in peace Sergio
.
Pushing away my birthday
.
Best friend
.
Losing my beeb
.
"May your coffin be made of one hundred year old wood that I plant tomorrow"
.
He smells like salty sweat and hair and cologne
.
Antique store heaven
.
Please don't take
.
Scuffed shoes
.
Mutt
.
Bubblegum and carmex
.
Enrolled
.
Tattoo
.
He replied, "crazy...would you like to come with me?"
.

Adaptation is a superpower
.
He cares about me
.
Not enough
.
I don't really think I can ever go again, but I will
.
I don't know, that's just how I feel
.
Ignored
.
I'm a mental astronaut
.
The good dream
.
"You've done yourself proud, haven't you?"
.
Be a friend
.
Small talk and I have a hate-hate relationship
.
I love you, friend rainbow
.
Handwritten Harvard
.
Not stepping on them is not enough
.
I love him more than me
.
Is it such a bad thing to want to feel wanted?
.
This too shall pass
.
"Work with purpose and intention"
.
Genuine
.
We broke up
.
I stumble and I fall
.
Light footsteps
.
Shaking like a leaf
.
I love our friendship
.
Blacking out
.
SoMEtiMEs I can wash My hands twEnty tiMEs and still feel like I'M not clEan
.
I need to save myself
.
"A broken clock is right two times a day"
.
Mind's eye
.
Help me procrastinate
.
Screech
.
Fries fried in a different fry
.
"It is the vision of far off things seen for the silence they hold"
.
We're still new
.
I saw geese playing on a rooftop
.
"He's a dolphin"
.
Dripping with diamonds
.
Hypnosis
.
Heavy footsteps
.
Onto a wooden skewer
.
My cat and I are exclusive
.

Skin pulled tight over nimble fingers
Light playing over moving knuckles it's
Euphoric and I
Moan at the ache
In my abused hands

Dry and begging
To be put under the scalding water and
Massaged with soft soap
Frothing and slipping through each
Fold and unfold

Prayer hands come and go for
Minutes until
The water runs cold and I
Dry off and watch and feel again
But I want more and more

I want to do this all night until I bleed and

I might.