I am fragile today
And my skin sparkles with sweat
The odor follows me around like a shadow
And I am left in the hallway with little more to say.

Sunlight sprinkles through the leaves of cedar trees
And we scatter like ripples
Upon a stagnant shore
Betrayal marks the embodiment of humankind

Torn paper to lace your lungs in tar
Your existentialism runs to a close
As your mind hollows, and your eyes begin to cloud
The angels above scream for you to stay.

Silhouettes of organisms lost at sea,
An ocean of shame
Skeletons of dignity
Line the shore

You broke the bones
Of a hundred gleaming soldiers
Fighting for peace and hating for love
Keep your eyes closed.

The winter solstice went as soon as it came
With startled stunned eyes it raced back to its corner
When you came into my life
And the sun hasn't stopped shining since.
There are sixty-five hundred ways one can say the same thing
And I'd happily say them all
Every language and every day
I would learn it all for you
History repeats itself in meaningful ways
But in the priceless moment of change
There is absolute harmony
You and I are two collisions in perspectives that
Mingle together like reeds in the sea
The once bitter taste of dawn has turned to
Sweet- reality is better now than I can dream
I want my atoms to know yours better than themselves
And in my words there will be no end
As infinity knows time I will know your pain
Soft as a ravens feather I will brush it away
With a smile solely for you

take a deep one
before you try again
smile to yourself as you
break the walls that have a clue
as to why you have no more muse

now have some fun
as you meet your heaven
and remember all you can do
when even your lungs have failed you
fight what the tide of life ensues

only you need to hold your hair back,
when you spew up all the words you never could say
and don't you depend on anyone whose soul fades to black
when you talk about the things you went through the other day

you just dont want to, simple as that
when you pretend that maybe you may
forget her and all of that past
the pursuit of love is senseless at this age

maybe honesty isn't always best
when the heart could break into such a mess
it always takes so long to clean
refresh, make yourself free
better than you were before the greed

sometimes i think it's better to forget
and pretend they did exist, you never met
say they weren't a major piece
of your life, your internal peace
straighten out that crease
he left inside you.

you threw me away
wish i could do the same
cause baby you'll never hate me
the way i do

ocean shores are begging for me
to come and drown at sea
don't really care what comes as eternity
how bout you?

you told me not to hate it
just go ahead and change it
well babe i've sure been trying to tame it
could you do the same?

watch me as i go
down a loophole, i'll put on a show
you are my high, you are my low
i'll go away now

please,
please just give me a line
something to say
some words to speak
leave,
leave me a sign
that everything is okay
that i am not truly
this weak

where are my words,
dear god, they've vanished.
the panic one experiences
when they've lost all they've got

i thought i learned
i thought i'd manage
a string of disappearances
sickened by writers block

why didnt i **** me
when i had the chance
bottles upon bottles
of ****** weapons
to ruin a life
or take it all away
why didnt i **** me
when i had the chance

i hope these pills take it all away
one for you, one for me, the other 33
for all the words i couldn't say
here is my epilogue, i hope
you read it

maybe they should have put me in the hospital
when they had the chance
maybe i'm just meant to be a patient
sleeping in the morgue
disembowel me with your finest of tools
i'm not sure my organs
are quite worth it
anymore

I got him by my side
going down the road
but he's not really there, no,
he's got someone else on his mind

and it's got me feelin kinda blue, you know?
when the man you love
just can't love you,
no hope.

but kiss me hard before you go
and hold me tighter than ever before
it's because of you, now i know
i've become a sick and twisted little *****.

but this isn't me, you see
the past few months
can't show
my true colors.

but i've said it more than once
and he don't trust me, no
no more.

the lights go out
when you
walk away

for you, i hold nothing but contempt;
full of lies and hateful words.
i regret every single day i spent
every single voice of yours i heard.

it might as well be ******
in an oasis of *** and fantasy
and you didn't listen when i'd murmur
at your hand, i lost all sanity.

my prime weakness,
my ultimate curse
the karma, it seeks us
leads us to our hearse.

Life's a masterpiece with you in it
And I never had a lover more dear than death
But it seems I want you more than I ever did that darkness
That silence
But there is something to be said for
The tight grip of your arms and
The lines left on your back
Those lines are my best poetry.
I would like to make you ethereal in writing
The way my mother did my widowed step father
But softer, much softer this time around
She always said I was her replacement in the world
And I was to be the better side of her
A second chance at success, or so I thought
A second chance at love, is what I think she meant
Should the dreams of night grasp me again
Remember that I always prefer the reality of you

your eyes are a mirror to mine
a simple spell of love or lust
we will know the difference in time
we can share the pillows and keep the door shut
we can bathe each other and maybe fall in love

the breeze comes to cool you when you get too warm
let me be your wind
to carry you gently, embracing your full form
you look right through my faults and sins

you are tender and intoxicating,
alive and thriving,
in your own world, that you'd love to share
i'm hoping that maybe you'll be the one to care
about all my dreams and inquisitions
for more than a body and ****** positions

i'll tell you my secrets and all the fleeting stories
you'll listen with brown eyes closed
while we lay together in your bed under crisp sheets
the summer air is humid and greeted us as we rose

smoke in our lungs and beer down our throats
this is the place that i love the most
here with you, sincere and true
doubting you is something i'd never do

so miles apart and roads stretched wide
we link our hearts and pocket our pride
turns out you're the only thing on my mind
falling for you like the rain from the sky.

am i your curse
or just steps to rehearse
for the girl who will sweep your heart away
i guess i lie when i say "i'm okay"

because its hard to live life on the edge
where i'm falling faster,
my arms outstretched
were you the wrong heart to go after?

all i want is to be the wings
to keep your heart in the clouds
to be the one to set you free
from all the pain you've been bound.

but am i the cancer,
the shackles on your ankles?
love has so many answers
from each different angle.

i want to be
your only
key.

with your hands between my thighs,
and your eyes on mine,
i do not see the past.
i see a future that we could have.

but this future is dead and gone,
i guess you could say it's all my fault.
when i say i'm confused,
it's because i don't know if i'm now losing
all that's left to lose.

it's fleeting

i'm trying to settle down but
bugs keep crawling over me
like your words

or so the story goes,
its ink is dropping onto the bedroom floor.
where we drop our clothes
and where our skin meets,
i'm yours.

some sorta gift you've been asking for
all along
but too much for you to comprehend
i wish i could
sing you songs
for when you're lying in bed
those little thoughts buzzing around your head.

and my chest is hollow
when you're not here
my words flow
much better
after a few beers

your absence creeps
all around me
when i fell to the ground
you did not help me to my feet

i should have known it
the first time around
aware by the original sound
of her name leaving your lips;
while i was the one you were sleeping with

this is how the truth will hit
home, it shatters your dreams
so lie down, try to forget about it
because loves like this
are never as they seem.

I'm just a girl who writes, then and there,
If you put a pen in front of her.
If you pulled the plug from her,
Unwind and fade away,
There she goes again.
Where's the new sentence?
Where's the new presence?
It never changes and I thought
all that was constant was change.
How many brain cells does it take
To change your mind?
Don't be scared of your fear anymore.
This time embrace the fact
That words can't always rhyme and
We don't always have enough time.
My mother was bohemian
She was more than the world could handle.
In 50 years it had torn her to shreds
She had me to be her medium.
And in this world, we all crumble,
From stardust we were built and to stardust
We shall return.
Use your soul for purity,
And let your ashes become anew.

no no, you don't get it
i am in love with you
i cannot tear apart from you
and you missed it
i just want you
to love me too.

you've broken the seal
all the walls i kept held high
like the head i thought i had kept
eat me up like your favorite meal,
i cant help but to sigh
your name, it's all i have left

he says one day but
no, he does not know the way
to steal me away from you.
you are my love,
my perfect night and day.
i just want you to love me too

so here is my message
to you
you've got me,
enthralled me
captured me
break me or hold me
the choice is yours.

i just want you
to love me too.

You are bound by frayed strings
Latched onto my heart
Rip them out and I'll feel the sting
Of the end replacing a start.

I'm sorry I'm so fragile
And for the way I wither without you
My heart sings for you still
But I know your chest is mute.

The past is a mirror
We look in to find
Whether you are gone or here,
You are always on my mind.