I want to take pictures with you
I want to capture all the moments
The moments worth remembering
But if it's you, every second's worth the lingering
You see I only want the photographs
If you are in them with me
To capture the entire past
We have yet to live or laugh
I'm hoping you will want to take them
Display them on your shelf
Cause I will do the same with mine
To inspire me with all my rhymes
Displaying something is a statement
Meaning that you care
Enough to show the passers-by
The things that make you, you and why.
If someone where to ask "who's that?"
Would you tell them all about me
Would your eyes glow as you spoke
Like something inside you just awoke
I know if someone asked me the same
My heart would swell 3 sizes
One for your eyes, one for your heart
One for all the memories we had apart
I want to take pictures with you
Images so that we won't forget
What love looks like when we want to quit.

Maybe if I go to sleep,
then my mind will rest.
It's wide awake and won't shut up,
though I've tried my best.
To silence thoughts inside my head
is harder than it should be.
My emotions drown my logic out,
oh, dark rest come quickly.
Close my eyes and tuck me in,
wrap me in the night.
Filter through the loudest thoughts,
let quiet win the fight.
Once the night is tangled up
inside my weary head,
maybe then I'll get some sleep
and wake up in a silent bed.

Hope- be the anchor in my soul
I'll tie me to you and never cut the rope

Trust- be the thing that I know best
With the enemy and his tests,  
I'll stand up strong

Burdens- I will lay them at your feet
Cause my strength can't compete
With your mighty power

Fear- be of my ancient past
With this flame I won't look back
Into the darkness

Love- It is something I can do
Because you did it first and I'm forgiven

Praise- I will praise your holy name
Cause your eternal flame
has put the enemy to shame

This is it I'm out of breath
You took my last one from me
And in my peak of diziness
My heart becomes decieving
I'm in more anguish than you know
I can't remember silence
My fingers struggle to let go
My chest still beats with violence
Even as I'm writing this
The page is getting blurry
Sadness writes these words
But left unrestrained it's fury
I'm not so sure it's rage towards you
But anger towards condition
You say in your "current state"
You wouldn't be my best addition
Give it up already!!!
I'm so tired of pretense
I catch a glimpse of soul
So now you've put up your defense
The days drag on longer, still
And life is ever-changing
I seek distraction for hours fill
But to you I'm always revolving
With distraction comes destruction
And I'm writhing in my flesh
I know you aren't my Savior
And my Savior doesn't test
It's reality, exhibit A
Of my own desire
I feel it now conceiving
Giving birth to a stone cold liar
All that being said
I'm now dragging on my pen
I love you, I miss you
And I wish I didn't have to pretend

Reach for me-
Even if it's too far...
I still feel the current in the wind
As you lift your arm.

Short and sweet
But you aren't short
And life's not sweet
But I'll try to be:
I miss you
Wish you
Missed me too

You don't want to love me
I'm hung up on someone else
My heart is in his closet
Hanging on the shelf

I wanna love you back
But I can't without my heart
The closet door is locked
And i've turned pining into art

Your eyes are filled with hope
Your intentions don't seem bad
I want to know your soul
But I don't want to make you sad

So keep your laugh away
Because I love the way it sounds
And Keep your heart inside
Because my love won't come around

You don't want to love me
Because I want to love you back
But my mind's hung up on fiction
And my heart's under attack

Be still my beating heart
Shut out all the noise
My head's so full it cannot think
But it's not like it has a choice

7 hours in the car
All the time went backwards
"Many the Miles" Sara sang
Now I'm living in the afterward

Café au Lait that's in my cup
Has never tasted more endearing
Maybe it's cause this is your town
And I associate it with a feeling

In 20 minutes I'll see your face
That's why this ink is smeared
My hands are shaking with my heart
How can I love so much, what I also fear?

Every word has always been about you
And now my poetry has lost it's subject.
But you cannot be completely gone,
My head knows, but my heart only objects.
Cause I'm still writing, and you're still breathing,
You just aren't breathing close to me.
I used to write with solid lines,
Now the rhymes don't come so quick.
My meanings once were more defined,
And now these words just make me sick.

The truth is I think about you more than I should. You run through my mind like a never- ending song. It’s a funny thing though, because I have never met you. How can a stranger penetrate every daydream? I think about us holding hands and your smile. How you will be taller than me. Your laugh. The same laugh that will try not to shine through when I get angry. Because some times I will get angry. I think about us holding hands and your gentle touch. The same touch that will show my kids kindness. The hands that will guide and grow my kids with my help. I think about how much passion and perseverance you will have when it comes to supporting and leading our family. I think about how that passion will come from the first true love of your life: Jesus Christ. I think about how the love Of God will be like a fire caught up in your bones. How it would make you weary to hold it in, so you don’t.  You bless everyone who comes in contact with you with the light of Christ. I think about how I will be the second love of your life and you will love me with all that you have. You will not be perfect, but neither will I. I think about how my life right now, needs to be worthy of yours one day. I think about how God has designed you to fit perfectly to me like a missing puzzle piece. I also know that it’s not time for the puzzle to be completed yet. But until that day, I wonder if you think about me too.

To say that there is nothingness
behind your deep blue eyes
Is like saying nothing lies
Beneath the ocean's tide
But you and I both know
That the vast blue forever
Is more than just a moving floor
The see-through layer holds so much more
There are secrets undiscovered
There is unmarked terrain
There are deep dark caverns
There is joy and there is pain.
Am I speaking of the ocean still?
Perhaps I never was.
I look into your eyes and feel
Something more exists, it does
You may deny my current thoughts
And that's ok, you know
But i'm aware your topaz eyes
Are the windows to your soul.

Feeling wanted is like a drug
It gets in your veins and you can't get enough
The problem is the wanter could be wrong
And he wants you and you want him to belong
In your life so that you stay satisfied
With that drug that he has supplied
But after grasping at handfuls of air
You look down and realize nothing is there
He is like trying to fill a bottomless pail
With a water of emotions, it fails
So after all the trial and error you see
The pail won't fill cause he doesn't own keys
To happiness living deep in your soul
He is the wrong wanter and won't make you whole

The nights are getting lonelier
I get all in my head
Sometimes I feel my body
sometimes the weight's just dead.

I wish that he would miss me
I wish I could be fine
I wish I could convince myself
he's not where freedom lies.

The days are getting colder now
Yet I lay here alone
Wrapped in a blanket made
with something far from home.

Thanks for being there
In the fall your trees bring color
In the winter they are bare
In the spring cherry blossoms float by in the air
You're constant always constant
You fill my room with light
I'm glad I have this window

Your glory brings me life ~

I used to be a better writer
maybe cause i had more to give
You

I think your soul walked in one day,
he walked into my heart.
Way back in the summer haze,
when we strolled around the park.
Normally I'd make him leave,
my ribs are not hospitable.
But he was no guest at all, you see,
he made himself so comfortable.
Stranger still, he found my soul
even in her hiding.
As if he knew right where to look,
and she put up no fighting.
Instead she made a place for him
and wanted him to stay.
Because she knew that day they met,
she'd never want him far away.