is just a
way of saying
"Show me that you care enough to stay"
some slash their wrist,
ingest a bottle of pills,
jump off a high rise building,
hang themselves, or
blow their brain off.
and in that moment,
when they are bleeding to death,
closing their eyes for the last time,
hanging loose in the air,
about to let their weight drop
and let that
bullet pierce through their skull
are moments, they fell the most alive
is meant for that
so very "special moment",
to feel alive
just once before
you cease to exist
I'm fine = I'm not fine. Please help me.
I'm just tired = I can't take this anymore.
I already ate = I starve myself.
Go away = Show me you care enough to stay.
I'm just cold = I don't want you to see my scars.
I'm better, I promise = I've never been this bad.
I'm okay = I just want to die.
I can relate so much that it is sad
Even if you
can not hear
I'll be right
this is for you- XII - V - MMXVII, I should have saved you
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night to sleep
I was so young
You should have known
Better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same **** thing
No one suspected it...
the smile on her lips
her big heart
those beautiful eyes...
Were there to hide her darkest secrets
She's gone too far deep that
No one can save her
All you see left
A shell of the independent girl
that is now scarred with
invisible and visible