I deleted you.
Backspaced your name.
Unfollowed your face.
Closed your window to me.
Shut down your connection.
Cut the cord that bound us.

It felt good for a minute...
Then I wanted to add you.
Follow you again. Snap back.
But it's too late.

Your memory is corrupt.

I can't fix you.
God knows I've tried.
Nothing I say makes it past the veil.

Fading hope and drooping demeanor.
I've given up on you.

Heart burst to cinder.
Tears dried to dust.

I've let you drown me.
You've boarded my ship and sunk it.

I followed you home yesterday
Right into your back door.
I went into your living room
Sat down on the floor.

I watched you do the dishes.
I stayed longer than I should.
You didn't invite me here
But if I had asked
I like to think you would.

I lounged on your couch
as you watched tv
I thought you'd notice
but you never saw me.

I pet your cat and laid on your bed
Put my head on your pillow
And listened to everything you said.

You never once looked at my face
I'm here everyday with you
And I never leave a trace.

I'm the sadness
you can't control.
I'm your companion
when life takes its toll.

Next time I come by
invite me in.
I'm coming in anyways
so don't fight it
You'll never win!

I walked out into the sun today
Felt it's rays upon my face.
Emerged from my cave
Heart thawing ...shedding disgrace.

I couldn't feel joy there,
Even as I listened to their laughter.
I felt nothing. I'm not sure what I was after.

So I went back into my darkness.
Blanket over my head.
Wishing I could go to the place,
Where these feelings are dead.

I've tried so hard to be normal me.
I just can't seem to find her.
My compass is broken
My self awareness awoken.

So back inside I go
Where it's safe, tears like summer rain
A heavy hug of acceptance
I'm only sad ...not insane.

In the stratosphere of your planet
I circle you waiting for a reply
Floating in your orbit
Thinking this heart you might deny.

We pass each other slowly
Eclipse, you came to late
I can't grasp onto your gravity
My life has a different fate.

Let's travel this journey together
In parallel universes
Binding our lives forever
through mutual concourses.

The starlight of your soul
Connecting with my heart.
We can make this darkness light
We can make a brand new start.