I don't need it.
I can dream awake
I can melt into water
I can become nothing even without.
I am more behind cloudy eyes
Inside the storming headache.
I don't need to sleep.

I need a kiss or at least a hug
someone to hold me tight
and say its all going to be alright.
or even a quick
I love you honey.

the kids are sick again
the dogs got fleas
my husband is moaning
his dinner is cold.

I mess up the tv remote
he laughs condescendingly
and fixex it in a heartbeat
I want to dump the lot of them
and run away to live in the islands

The next day I  get splashed
by a rude driver
mud all over my new coat.
is this all there is?

But just as I reach
the point of despair.
I pass a dress shop window
full of size zero manequins
with skinny superior looks.
All dressed in designer dresses.

And i see my reflection.
My hair wild and free
flowing in the breeze.
I look fantastic
the great  woman
my mom brought up.
the woman I want to be.
She is fantastic
awesome.
I smile and wave at her.
and shout silently.
I remember you honey.