You always loved the sea
and maybe thats why  as i stare into the seas blue abyss -
you’re on my mind.

I go through waves of missing you
each wave bringing a new heart ache -
today the way you’d always speak your mind.

We thought we’d have floods of time
thats the thing about the ocean -
it brings floods that destroy,  just like you destroyed my heart
and drowned my mind.

*A.R

"I promise"* and "on your life" were some of your more favoured lines
I'd heard them over and over for two years - so many times

And of course i believed you, every ******* word you'd said
So why am i lying here alone, by myself, in this bed?

The last promise you made me was on paper, with jet black ink
A message in a bottle the words i struggle to recall - to think

So painful to remember yet so hard to forget
You promised to stay by my side from the 1st day we met

That was your last promise inscribed on white sheet
To bad you turned out to be a liar, a coward -
a ******* cheat.

*A.R.

Every time I look at you I can't help but stare,
you're the most beautiful girl I've ever met.
When you touch me I get shivers -
a weird warm feeling in my chest when you kiss me.
I miss you when I'm with you.
I always want to be close to you.

It feels good. You make me *happy.

I used to wonder what it felt like;
To love someone so completely, so honestly,
so fully that they left stains on my soul
and crumpled creases in my brain.

Instead I receive tear stains on my face
crumpled creases in my hands.
Lies torn off the paper.

You wanted to explain why you did the things you do,
say the stuff you say and act the way you act.
But -

I need not know.
Sometimes puzzled look better scrambled,
mirrors better cracked
and a heart better cold.

Dear Rain,
If you're listening I pray you send the storm, across the welsh seas.
Thunder so loud it deafens my cries at night, a howling winds so chilly it freezes my weak heart.
I hope the lightening is so bright that it blinds me to the memories of him, the clatter of the rain on my loft-space bedroom, my tears look pathetic and put to shame.
I hope you bring your clouds of grey to clash with my awful mood. And when the nights over, when this is all over,
I hope and I pray you bring that dazzling rainbow - and I find my *** of gold in the end.

Love,
Ria.

Start again, pick it up
The relationship? Poison in our viens

You have a beautiful brain
But my god, those drugs aren't heaven and don't help

When we met - fire blazing
Now? Dead.
End.

I left your life.
You left my heart.

*Will I be hearing your voice again?

Dad today its your 48th birthday so im sending you this rhyme,
I wanted to come and visit but it seems we both dont have the time!
Just because we have little time to speak and we live 100 miles apart,
Doesnt mean your not in my thoughts dad, your forever in my heart.
And so I wish you happy birthday and I thank you for being you!
You're the strongest, wisest most affectionate man, you being my dad is a dream come true!  
And i know we're not perfect,  but we've never claimed to be.
But if a father and daughter could come close? It would definitely be you and me.