I'm a type of tired
that no amount of sleep will fix
the 8 hour recommendation and three cycles of REM
Isn't the cure I'm looking for
I'm wondering lost
though not in a dream
in an unrealistic reality
one that doesn't feel like life
all though each day will pass
a waste? or needed replenishment?
pure laziness has crossed my mind
though truth be told, many have an opinion on the matter.
Although even I do not know of the truth
perhaps it is one I ignore
or one I don't have the energy to identify.
So I just continue to wonder
lost, but not in a dream.
Tired.

Sometimes people want you to feel,
When all you want is to ignore.
Its what i'm good at
like the athlete that throws their body before the finish line.
Its a natural skill.
One that takes practice,
And at times can crack me under pressure.
Competing with others is never a worry.
This is a battle of my own.
I'm not sure if its a blessing or a curse.
As unlike the athlete, I am always assured to come first.
Yet every-time, losing in a devastating blow.

Maybe she didn't know how to be loved so fully.  
Is that what that was?
He wanted to tell her and teach her of how phenomenal she was in his eyes.
But when she looked through her own.  All she could see was the words of another. 
The words engraved in her mind, soul and self.
How could one possibly love [me] this much.  When those who were genetically programmed for that purpose, were,
are, incapable.

She had so much love to give.  but would not let anyone close. loving from a distance is all she knew.

What do you think is more painful?
Reliving other people’s pain,
Or, retelling your own.
?