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ghost Dec 2020
I apologized to you
for crying
when I was the one hurting
ghost Oct 2020
your lambent heart
beats in the silence
ghost Dec 2020
Like wallpaper;
Ragged and yellowed.

Old smoke stains
His teeth and lungs.
His insides peel

You pass him by,
But he knows things.

He and he waits and he knows things
ghost Dec 2020
I tried to believe in 𝓁𝑜𝓋𝑒
but the world 𝒷𝓇𝑜𝓀𝑒 my heart every time
ghost Nov 2020
You might read this
When I’m dead
You might’ve read this when I was alive
But I want you to know
Unlike none other
You are beautiful in your own way
And your opinion matters
ghost Nov 2020
I just want someone to make me laugh
and have someone to laugh with
am I asking for too much
or does this world have nothing to offer
ghost Nov 2020
why should I apologize
for being a monster
when no one apologized
for turning me into one
ghost Feb 2021
when I am gone
and no longer found
my soul in pieces
I hope
someone
anyone
finds my words
my poems
and says
"I would've loved her"
ghost Nov 2020
I told you I write for peace
to say what I feel
turns out
you didn't really care
how I felt
ghost Nov 2020
underneath it all
I'm still held captive by the hole inside
ghost Nov 2020
I guess I'm just
a side character
in your story
ghost Feb 2021
Put to rest, in the dark abyss
You promised me an eternity.
For as the hour draws near,
Darkness descends
I am but a scarred smile holding onto you.
A flash, a moment
You told me to never let go.
In the end,
Only a memory tormenting me through my core.
ghost Apr 2021
I feel as though loving me
Induces the same feeling
As work does

I feel like you
Can’t wait to go
Home and escape that crazy mess

I feel like I was always
Given a two week notice
Right before they leave

I feel like it always
Feels like its all a
Requirement

And I know it is,
I understand,
I feel like that with me too

So I am sorry
I made you feel that way,
Truly
ghost Mar 2021
one who is trapped in a world of black
and white will stain your world with red
watch your world crumble
with your own two eyes
ghost Jun 2021
as morning bleeds into night
every moment is a struggle a fight
together I believed we could make it right
with each other, we shone so bright
suddenly you are the shadow to my light

I wrote for days now papers are left white
I wish something that I write
might make me feel alright
ghost Mar 2021
first the vowels
and then the constants flew away
until all that was left
was an empty sheet of paper
ghost Apr 2021
we try to escape demons by hiding away
and locking ourselves in our rooms
but what are we to do
when the demon follows us home?
people feign ignorance
and happiness is a trick of smoke and mirrors
when the stage is cleared
all that's left
are the scars
ghost Dec 2020
When I bleed
It doesn’t hurt
I wrap it up
Go outside
It hurts when no one can tell
I’m bleeding
ghost Jan 2021
Truth be told
i have not said
less than what
has left me dead.

Every wave
a drop of red
splashing shade
vermillions wet.

Companion thou hast never met,
must be freed out of my head.
But for that first i must invite,
thee inside this trembling mind.

Doors only shut,
never locked.
Needs hardly keys
to be wrought.

Lore slowly floods
with each thought.
Fills each crevace;
n' caveat.

Truth be told
i have not said
less than what
has left me dead.

Falling through
each veil of dread.
I arrive
at Amentet.

Here i may rest
for a while.
Art of chiburi
from the vile.

I'll not confess
at this trial.
Instead dance and jest
with Belial.
The wicked and worthless are always that because they "deviate" from the norm.  **** the norm. Smash the box. Don your horns.  Break the locks
lately, I'm into long poems
ghost Nov 2020
cover yourself
you're distracting us
no
you're distracting yourself
why do I have to wear
what you want
when it's my body
ghost Dec 2020
I want to prove to this world
that that which
they have deemed right
is wrong
ghost Dec 2020
bedroom curtains
the winter sun waltzes
with the wind
ghost Dec 2020
its four am
I'm drinking coffee
I'm writing stories
writing poetry
being productive
but
its no fun
there's just pain
and pain
and misery
ghost Dec 2020
right there
yet so far
I can take it
I can hold it
protect it
why do they stop me
why do they hold me back
ghost Jan 2021
Pastel smudges paint the sky,
reflect on the lake in half-light.
Emerging from darkness,
frosty star flowers,
take me into deep waters,
where sad thoughts wander.
Whispers of you by the shore,
I'm waiting and waiting.
hi reposting cause its just another poem no one could see
ghost Jan 2021
Been walking in shadows for as long all my life
darkness lingering the lack of light
I can't remember the last time I felt free
Forever enslaved by the rules of society
ghost Nov 2020
They don’t understand
What I want
I want more than I have
But I want what you can give
So why don’t you give
What you can
war
ghost Nov 2020
war
do monsters
make war
or does
          war make
                             monsters
ghost Oct 2020
What’s the difference between
peace and war
Isn’t peace obtained through war
That’s what my world taught me
So change my mind
Before I wage war on your country too
ghost Nov 2020
for what little you know
I might be dead
when you realize
I existed
maybe shot
maybe sick
but I was happy
death felt warm
unlike this world so cold
ghost Nov 2020
I still remember it like yesterday
Your warmth
I thought
                   It was only for me
But now I see You with her
       And your warmth on her
Is this cold distant winter
I await my summer
Yet it never came
ghost Oct 2020
my dire apprehensions
they gracefully disappear
as the waves emerge
my eyes waterless
the wind tangled in my lashes sparked a cry
the lonely ocean
washes away my woes
as the waves emerge
the lies are purified
so the ocean heard my cry
I did this poem thanks to the help of Ariana solo. she's an amazing poet. thanks to her help I learned a lot.
go check out Ariana solo.
ghost Feb 2021
staring at the mirror,
despair raids her light and air

in the reflection,
blinded by her beauty,
the bright florescent light
etches furrows
traces the side of her nose
to her mouth

yesterday's shadow
creeps from behind
sends bitter ripples
down her face
a reminder
of the loneliness, she hides
ghost Dec 2020
what do I write
my pain
my agony
my dreams
my love
what do I say
I'm fine
it hurts
help
what will you do
it's fine
it'll be okay
ghost Nov 2020
he asked her what her wish is
he'll fulfill it
she said just once
once in my life I want to walk out and not be laughed at
live and not wanna die
so, please
make me the way they  want me to be

he said
she wants you to be skinny
he wants you to be fat
so what do you want to be
ghost Feb 2021
When I’m silent
I’m torn apart,
crushed at the rock bottom
of the abysmal plain
as a broken ***
Yet a thousand needles
pinning me down

When I’m silent
I’m deeply depressed,
deadly muted
all I have is a mutiny within myself
and then I’m reigned
by sheer silence!
ghost Jan 2021
Here I lay,
With my rotting heart and dead soul;
My world was turning;
Now, my mind is decaying.
Am I at peace?
Is it an illusion?
Or is it a simulation?
Is it my creation?
ghost Feb 2021
Call me strong
Call me weak
I am whoever you want me to be

In the shadows, I shape myself
Careful of the light, it knows me well
And you will never see
A picture you didn't paint on me

Call me strong
Call me weak
I am whoever you want me to be

Once or twice
As many times you change your mind
As long as you don’t see
What I’ve got
Behind the paint that I forgot
Will dry one day
And turn so dull
That even you
Would move on

Call me strong
Call me weak
I will be whoever you want me to be
Paint it once,
Paint it twice
As long as the colors never dry
ghost Oct 2020
why do we live just to die
why do we cry
when the tears will just dry
why do we lie
when the truth is right by
have you ever wondered why?
ghost Dec 2020
why am i here
ghost Dec 2020
No good for shade
No good for the garden
Harsh light that doesn't fade
No fruits to be laid
For underneath
The roots are all frayed
The leaves they're all rotten
They're good as forgotten
I see it's looming silhouette
sharp
contrast
To the mystical glow of the pale moon
To the cynical lows of our existential gloom
Details eating at my brain with their redundancy
Black clouds as they loom
Patience slivered to a dried prune
ghost Oct 2020
"laugh"
but nothings funny
"cry"
they say it's for the weak hearted
"fly"
but I'm human
"die"
but that's giving up
so what!!!!!!!!
I'll do all that ****!!!!
why does anyone else get to choose what I do? don't bother with those people. just live your life.
ghost Dec 2020
why do I exist?
when to what I consist
is nothing but hatred and misery
fooled into constant trickery
if I vanished
or maybe quietly banished
would they know
with regret would they overflow
for they could've made me happier
yet they insist to leave me stuck
inside this society barrier
ghost Nov 2020
I write not for you to read
I do it for me to heed
the voice that's within me
yet I still can't guarantee
that when you see what I wrote
I hope for you to praise
for this is to what my heart I devote
yet this is just another phase
of the long life,
I have yet to face
you
ghost Nov 2020
you
I don't want to live
but I don't want to die either
so you ask
what do I want
it's simple
I want you

— The End —