I've learned:

Not every sunrise is equal.
Some bring more light,
She's the same.
And frequently I find
She's to blame
When clouds disperse
And lightning fades.

In my mind
And in my day.

with thoughts simmering
i finally sat down
why cant my heart just stop beating?
on that note i frown.

for this life is nonsensical
without my muse,
i confess,
my days would not be lyrical.

this shall end tonight,
this should be my last,
but should i fright about
the shadows she had cast?

yes, for it will follow me
wherever I will be.
no, for i don't want to be free
let her shadows be with me

i tried to stand for all i care,
i tried to eat because they stare
i tried to move but i could not do
i almost wished you felt it, too

The pain of goodbye is the hardest of all.
Because the fear makes you weak and dread the great fall.
And who will catch you when they're all gone away?
And the end of the rope is beginning to fray.
Your hope feels undone and the pains hard to bear.
And you feel like you are alone left to care.
Goodbyes are the hardest..
And leave me feeling darkest..
Help me.. My mind cries out.. But there's no one to hear..
My cry goes unnuttered.
And then come the tears..

Who am I?
I ask myself as I lay down to sleep.
And beg the thoughts to go away,
And ask my soul to keep.
I'm searching for my path in life.
The stamp to call my own.
And as my eyes drift slowly closed.
I feel more and more alone.

i fell in love with the way i woke you up
i waited for seconds before i did
i wanted to watch you forever
but i needed to see how your eyes flutter

you should never cut your hair
i love the way you run through them
keep them down, keep them
they give me feelings i could not bear

we will go to the oceans, a beach
i will lay on the sand
you can play, after all it is our land
i will know your laugh as i watch

you can wrap your fingers around mine
i'll hold you tightly and scribble signs
this is nothing but real
this is the start of something surreal

you make me lose it all
the sleep, the lies, the sadness
i'd throw away the vices
just assure me this won't fall into pieces

I'm stuck inbetween wanting recognition and not caring who sees.
Because part of me just wants fame and the other wants release.
The two halves of my soul fight quite violently.
And it's ripping me apart.
I don't know which to feed

If I could fly I would sail to the stars.
And come back with a way that I could win back your heart.
Cause every dream I have comes back to you.
But deep down inside I know they'll never be true.
Hopeless romantic?
Or romantically hopeless.
Which one?
I wish I knew.
But if I'm honest I never even deserved you.

Help me speak my mind.
Teach others and be kind.
When you seek then you will find.
Beware the rhetoric.
Never ask for a sign.

To love and lose.
     Is better than drugs or *****.
The pain they cause is temporary.
     And the pain of love is arbitrary.
To each their own.
      But to me. Alone.

i thought i was holding your hand
but i guess i was holding your heart
you said "don't let go" 
i said "oh" as it hit the asphalt
do you think gravity knows 
that it makes people fall
does it know we go down hard 
because i think you broke the sound barrier 
on your way down to me
but i just let gravity send your heart
straight down to the street
i wasn't thinking 
or maybe i was
just not about you
i'm selfish
and so is gravity 
so i guess you could call it natural
and you can call me gone

[holyoak]