Sometimes you wish you could just go back
Take away all the pain you caused
What you did
And what you said
The mistakes you've made
And the person you became
Sometimes you don't see what's in front of you
You don't realize the importance
Then it's all gone
As if you just flinched
Your life passes before your eyes
But you're not on the brink of dying
You're on the brink of life
You're now aware of how you have nothing
You let it go to waste
All because you were just bluffing
You were fake and you were mean
You ruined people's lives
You acted obscene
You deserve to be lonely
Deserve to have nobody
What goes around
Comes around
And you can't take it back
You can't go back in time

subtract sanity from misery
add a little violence
multiplied by duplicity
those voices never silence

divided by the mystery
carried over to tomorrow
this beast that lives in me
the sum of all my sorrow

If today was the last day of life as we know it,
I would still be choosing to write to you.

Whatever grace, shift, light, is coming,
I would still be choosing to write to you.

In the off chance that these words will touch you,
I would still be choosing to write to you.

If tomorrow is unrecognizable or completely new,
I would still be choosing to write to you.

Knowing that I may never meet you, or even hear your voice,
I would still be choosing to write to each and every one of you.

When the sky does open someday,
and there is only light,
I will know I took this time,
opened my heart up wide,
*I will know I was still choosing
to write my heart to you.

Just    Thoughts
        in a drop of tear a world to see
        in a drop of rain joy to be
        in a tick of a clock eternity
        in a single cell life to be
        in a touch of feather hearts be shy
        in a single word the spirits to fly
        in one friend a world to see
        in a wink of an eye love to be
        in a ray of sunshine warmth in heart
        in stars twinkle joy be got
        in a single flower love to tell
        in a smile to cast a spell
  

        Little in tis world
       yet a lifetime of thoughts

Trying to disappear
Scratch myself from the page
Relieve this constant sting
A chaos I can't conceal
It will be my likely demise
You see,
The thing is that you can't, see
See me
Or my pain
Moving, in slow motion
Keep it to a minimal
I need don't need the scars
Left behind
**** my pain
Trying to disappear