Pauline ,Pauline
Pauline,Pauline !!!!!!
It so is now your birthday ..Pauline

Pauline,Pauline
Pauline,Pauline!!!!!
There is so many candles I bet

Now over here we miss you so
Its time you came a home
For lots of gin and party hard
Sing birthday happy songs

Pauline,Pauline
Pauline,Pauline!!!!
You are so blinking old ..it hurts Pauline

So many years upon this earth
Yet we want real many more
So raise a toast to my sweet friend ..Pauline  

Pauline,Pauline
Pauline Pauline!!!!
Please come and visit us now real soon !!!!!!!

Happy Birthday chuck **

dementia

I fear my mind it slips away
a fear of fear a fade away
its started now and scares me bad
my mind is slipping am i mad

No telling time as I forget
what day it is what place I'm at
to finish what I start
my memory gone
a frazzled heart

I see it in their eyes
that look of care yet hope no lies
a tear does form i know not why
my mind is gone
why did I cry ......

Tell us the truth..
or lie some more
politicians dare decide our law

just once would be nice instead of pap
just one real thought not under attack
tell us the truth and lie no more
tell us reality no stories i plore

lie like you do and we wont vote
lie like you say and we wont show
llie through your teeth and god forbid
you turn in your grave and face
his death

I feel it as I sit I feel it when I lay ...
The itchines inside me is fighting me today
stomach fightin pain thats always here to gloat ... yet itchiness takes over
a grin and not do bear ............

Carbs are overloaded yet count away we go
sugar fix awaiting to pain my bigger toe
spots are so a wantin on way to sprout my skin
the ******* even get me where!!!
privacy begins

Dia ..Dia ....betes leave me well alone
pick on someone evil
and make a happy home

Dia ..Dia ..Betes ...let me have some fun
maybe just a choccy bar or scrummy apple crum!!
dip a stick to 6.9 after loads a buns
Dia ..Dia ..Betes got ya on the run

Into the cold as my breath formed a thousand stars carried by the breeze
all white under foot as sounds echoed into places not seen
the cold was at its best as my teeth chattered
to music that my mind control no less
the world had changed ,its colour so sharp
the air so alive as my sudden breath turned gasp
ice formed from hidden mist from air unseen  
in places icicles,stalastites and dewdrops
on noses and beards a funny sight behold

I like the cold as i sit in front of a blazing fire
crackling and spitting to stir me to sleep
I like the cold as i lay in bed all warm and cosy
from a sleepy sleepy head
I like the cold to stay outside as i be warm and toasty
from a totty now swirling my head
I like the cold ....

love ya in the morning ..luv ya more at night
yes ya make me *****..***** beasty right
be my valentineeey..be my sweetheart night
bathe me all in chocolate ..lick me likey like

**

The shaken earth that so so stood shook against all thats good
people ran and hid for cover fearing life and soon to suffer
burried in a living grave we hope and pray that all will save

our mother earth shows many sides and cares not who is victimised
we bless each day its not our last and hope to see the fresh green grass
my thoughts go out to all thats hurt and pray that
mother ....earth is quiet .....Shhhhhhh!!!

Just a little thought to all the peeps in New Zealand **

The crows nests stood i saw them there proud and loud standing bare ,it was some sight to see no leaves just full of twigs from many trees ,yet daunting was that sight behold of many twigs formed in mold.those trees did state a ghostly feel that scrapped and scratched your mind betold

My dream became my other world so real or is this fake
I dreamt of many crazy things like floating in a lake
i must be mads cos I dont swim and sink just like a brick
my dreams are more reality than I could ever think

I pinched myself so I could see the difference from the two
but would I really tell apart the dreaming from the truth
time will tell when one does wain and all becomes a blurr
the dreaming and reality ..I concur

The split in the rock was a sign to go!!!!
Yet you stayed with me
You laid your life before me baby
Let good times be the key

A blindness whoah
A blindness ohhhhhhh
Come right back to me
A blindness love ...a blindness give
A penny for your love !!!!

My head is running miles and miles
Yet my body stays so still
A bitter taste to the after shock
A bitter taste of will

A blindness whoah
A blindness ohhhhhhh
Come right back to me
A blindness love ....a blindness give
A penny for your love !!!!

You fill my mind with lovers eyes
I want you all the time
So here I am for your command
I want you be my wife !!!!!

A blindness whoah
A blindness ohhhhhhh
Come right back to me
A blindness love ....a blindness give
A penny for your love !!!!

I feel it course so through my veins
waiting ,testing me again
it wants to rule and take me over
anger ,rage my sugar fever!!!

Family hide and duck my fear
anger ,rage is so so near
feel it gaining ,getting there
anger ,rage ..my glucose lever !!

Take a breath ,do no harm
sit and fight out till the calm
there it stays until again
anger ,rage ..my sugar mist !!

Sitting here with my head lowered I feel the depths of sleep tire me at the very core
My hand reaches through my hair,fingertips stretching searching seen trying to wake this sorry soul
grasping at the short strands that used to be a dark mass yet now resemble some lost scared ghost of Christmas past
I sit here trying to write my future
trying to forget some past
The screen looks blurry as my glasses no longer do their job, yet another sign this body and soul is in decline.Glasses off and all comes clear again .Dam these eyes as i rub and rub the sore red stinging that comes with age and sleep deprivation.
My mind is full of fireworks whilst my body is made of wax thats been sat to near the glowing embers of a log fire set there for the night.Oh to have a normal mind ,a mind that forgets ambition ,forgets his dream, forgets reality ,maybe its time to join big brother and become a prole
Would life be so different,would I learn to sleep any better ,would my life become more wholesome
do I need another life ...
na my fireworks are my life
my madness is my way and my writing keeps me sane...the alcohol consume me, hides me, deserts me yet my family love me ...god knows why I think they must be drugged ,maybe its hypnosis maybe just maybe its me ...as for my friends bless em they really must be desperate ...well a proles live for me or back to my quazi quazi life, back to the fireworks in my mind, back into the openness of the sea

Our freinds are that our family we love to have them stay
for food and entertainment its always meant that way
for laughs and lots of golfing and tons oh tons of chat
is great to see them yet again for loads of this and that

Our freinds that are our family are great to be around
making fires and washing pots thats what its all about
we hope so sure we'll see them soon in warmer climates bound
in sunny parts of Malaga a welcome home is found

could see the shadow from the corner of my eye
see them standing waiting by
could feel their presence wanting me
see there coldness needing me

could feel their looks just staring out
see their blood all red and loud
could feel their noise all over me
see their touch out grabbing me

from the corner of my eye i waited standing by
a shudder from way down low
a feeling time to go
a breath not taken yet from the smell of deadend flesh

as i blinked i gave a cry
a feeling deep inside
a time to look away
from the corner of my eye

the roadside ghosts are there to see
crosses bear lifes misery
yet we trundle flying by
wishing.... hoping ...its not our time

I see their faces and feel the pain.. the ghosts standing waiting shame
the fog that shows them in the light only coming out when night
why can me and only me see the ghostly shapes that be
the roadside ghosts i fear them most
feel the creeping
shivers me whole

My son you are a star..my number one by far
you always make me laugh and tease me cos im daft
its great when we do buff and coding is real good
now looks yes there all mine but yours will be just fine
cos my genes are in you ..unlucky mummys too

Son you are a star ..my number one by far
your kinder than the rest and always give your best
footy is your game and boxing makes you brave
you used to be so small now tower over all

Son you are a star ..my number one by far
you help me every day and give your heart in so many ways
you love to stay around and make us laugh when down
dont change cos your the best
my son ..my star i love you more than the universe x

eyes that bleed to the sound of another dawn aproaching
dead yet awoken as the noise invades my ears
life begun against the oppressive nature of gloom
dreams so yesterday as light takes on the dark

These were my thoughts as i awoke
today was my destiny to change the world
yet would tomorro be different
would dreams take on new life

7 billion souls now so think this way
all fighting for the one
air so sweet against dust from the dead
life still goes on..... life still goes on....and on

the sly in the eye would not deny
the way you really wanted
that look in there did show me fear
to hide from you forever

a look so full of hate
a love so gone
your sly eye looking on me

a cunning tale inside your fail
to magic me to yourside
i'll leave your breath remove the death
and run for love and kindness

so now im free to be the me
to live a life in freedom
no more pain or loveless aim
a sly eye gone the madness

as i walk this earth and feel its birth
to breath natures perfume
a freedoms gift a life to live
no looking back to life-less

stood up and it changed
stood up and i wobbled
stood up way to soon
now sittins all I do

head went one way I went the other
didnt know what to say way eh!!!
felt a quiver felt a chill
a hand I didnt want

feeling right now..feeling good
feeling as I really should
so go away ya quiver go away ya fall
stay strong and upright ..dont ever ever fall

seagulls fade into night as clouds of anger lit the sky so bright
feel sounds of trouble as bowling ***** noise my ears
God was playing ...
as the rumble scared me

the rumble had me
the rumble scared me
the rumble knew me  

flashes felt as clouds of anger beat their beat
skin alive under darkness as prickles spiked
my very inner

the rumble had me
the rumble scared me
the rumble knew me  

lights another day as darkness took me in
faded anger yet electric fizzle
god was playing
I scared within
I scared within

In the old pub
That a change in style had not replaced
Sat a couple
In drinking pints no shame
Dressed up to the nines like somewhere to go
This their local,This their show

Old music played some song from then
A smile cracked ,his toes began
She looked at him with fonded eyes
Proud to be sat on his side

His flattened cap began to quiver
as broken hands came out a shiver
Many times had come and gone
Yet here they were and this their song

His rise of proud'ness won her heart
In a flutter time to start
Dancing shoes all for the ready
Whisked away a shimmer Freddie

Year's no age this time was their's
Dancing laughing life's weekend beer  
Many more for them to come
Down the Old dog and Partridge... done !!!

born to run- away so fast coming at me -no way past
need for speed - no delay - time to run -run away
feel the heat upon my back -time to run -run so fast
nearly touching -feel the fire -on my back -no desire

out in the open -away for good -run away -away at last
breathing fresh- as all is fire -run away - free from past
fields of freedom - run so fast -away from trouble -run the blast
born to run away from hurt into the open sun does burst

The mindful eye had its hold
My life in tatters all around about to fold
could feel the pressure in me
a kettle on the edge
A mindful eye inside me
wanting me all dead

A thousand helpers with it
To show me all my past
all of my misdemeanors
Fruition here at last
It made me think of what Id done
and left me sad inside
the mindful eye did feed me
feed on all my lies

They say that past is past
and future's here a find
Why is the eye still here in me
leaving me so blind
I want to be successful
Have friends and be all kind
But eye is there inside me
taking all my life

I think I'm mad all over
Or maybe its my time
to hide from all this madness
Leave it all behind .......

Breath the air fall on my face as I see the world
no ties nor chain are now in place
i feel so free from all the harm
no more worries no more charm

See my glass so full it spills
see the real world feels a thrill
chains all broken so I can breath
breath the air breath the free

rules forgotten now dispersed
wishing you saw what i have met
join me in the new world seen
join me on a venture green
open your eyes to air unseen

Oh jeez I know yor there
ya fighting me a war in here
I know your in my head
depressing your the best

Can feel you on my shoulders
just waiting for the lull
when smiles do fade to whiskey
I know you'll have ya fill

But this time I'm all ready
no pills no down the line
I'm coming out a fighting
and winning is my time

I've had enough of sorrow sad
that look from other folk
me head is standing up and right
no looking down no joke

Depressing that your leaving here
but we all know your game
you'll wait for disappointment
your wait will be in vain

5am and the faces all seem the same
a look so lost to a memory of a dream gone past its time
No life to a future in another trip around
just the look of lost
a lost never found

Lost in time in a time lost away
memories of a life a life's better day
Lost in the past to a wish you around
Lost in my heart a hollow beat sound

A hand propped in chin to a face looking floor
the look awaits him ..lost at his door
The eyes looking empty from a life fed away
lost in a place.. lost to the day

Lost in time in a time lost away
memories of a life a life's better day
Lost in the past to a wish you around
Lost in my heart a hollow beat sound

Faces of a stare thats been seen many times
lost in the life just to work to the ground
lost to the world so beaten in brow
my face is within them ..lost to the crowd

Lost in time in a time lost away
memories of a life a life's better day
Lost in the past to a wish you around
Lost in my heart a hollow beat sound

Deep down into the London low
A place be going
A pulse
A throw

Ants do form and work on through
Always racing
Follow you
Vampire Charlie's lay in wait
Hunger for a light
The taste

Vampire Charlie's hang out here
See the whites  
Smell the fear
Underground
A darkness hell

Feed their frenzy
Feed their fear
Light in you becomes
Feast well  

Venture at your peril under
Watch for they as they watch thee
Armies ready
For the feed
Vampire Charlie's
Masters greed

cotton clouds formed in such sky as frost shivered me so
fingers chilled to warmth not met
biting in the cold
ground so hard no flower formed
bring me summer bring me warm

smell of grass so freshly cut
can see a summer coming
golden fields full the oil ..rapeseed  sneeze a tissue feel
hear young voices playing out
screams of water splashed out loud

bring me summer where smiles do form
eating ice cream on ones lawn
rays of sun do burn my back
sleepy me ...to skin pealed back

bring me summer as i freeze
throw this coldest oh yes please  
soon be there not long to go
summer feeling ...no more snow

The flight of the old Bunny

I saw him in me headlights
he stood just staring back
this bunnies time was over
the fur was of his back
He tumbled up and through the air
I saw his beady eyes
the bunny in the headlights was
right before me flies
he glued himself right on me screen
all coloured from the red
the bunnies day was over
flattered at the best  
yet from this sad we have result
a dinners feast
a stew behold
a rabbits foot to chain upon
I am a bunny basher I'm sorry for the stew
...............................
was half way through me dinner
when lights did come my way
a carrot for me eyesight
is good for you they say
he dazzled me a good un
could hear my fate was due
a rabbit in the headlights
is good for farmers stew
I couldnt move a muscle
my tummy full of grub
I bounced right of his bonnet
a flight to end was up
so there I was a thinking
as screen came up to me
a carrot aint for eating
Oh ***** i'm history

I dream a new tomorrow
A dream from yesterday
I dream no more this madness
My dream so far away

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dream another day

I wish my dreams were real
So I could hold his hand
I wish my dream come true
Say mum I love you too

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dream another day

I dream just tears of smiles
All pain is gone away
I dream of money heaven
My debt stuck at the gate

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dream another day


I wish that I had that one more chance
To change the way I've been
I wish true peace for everyone
Not just for you and me

Dreaming of the sunshine lover!!!!!
dreaming through the day
one day I'll dream its better never!!!!!!!
dreams dont go away!!!!!!

The time is near and bells are ringing ..christmas cheer for all to have
santas sack is full and briming ..children waiting wanting all
tree is up and lights a glowing ..mince pies warmed and ready now
so smile and wish you all a merry...
christmas cheer for one and all

Twas 1942 my fathers day was due
he came upon this earth a babies brand new birth
they said he wouldn make it without his daddys blood
and thats what made him special ..a special kind of love

Twas 1966 my birthday ..a blessing in disguise
could only all have happened.. with my fathers fatherly love
i came upon this earth and caused a scarey stir
another babies breath a breathing from the air

Twas 1997 my son did come about ..was born to be so special
with that i have no doubt
so luck should have our family that i can give some thanks
cos tomorow was his birthday my dad my true best freind

Words said yet my ears stay closed
In fear of questions that
Leave me
Scared to death inside
Today could have been better

Sing for tomorrow cos today
is nearly done
Lets sing now for the future
Feel my past has haunted
Gone .......

Watched the sounds appear
Be failed to take the note
Another date in future pure dread
I've lost the vote
She mouthed another meeting
In lost Im outa time

Sing for tomorrow cos today
is nearly done
Lets sing now for the future
Feel my past has haunted
Gone .......

Time to close my eyes
Sleep not wanted
Not tonight
Not ever
Today could have been better

So so tired this mornings of mornings
so so sleepy today
oh so tired of yawning this morning
oh what long old day

awake yet so sleepy ..i cant understand
i slept like a baby and early so sad
but heavy lids are pulling me down
to sleepy ead and snoozy again and again
tired so tired of yawning around

I tried lots of coffee and food i ate plenty
but tired is a feeling that tired all the time
to wake so afresh and happy would i
as soon as my tire some would go underground

Gentle in he walks
A dog to follow obedient to his masters rule
The Thirst from the day
Ready
See's him drink away the water to belly
Full of a laughters cheer

A kind man
That talks away the night
In his own mingled fashion
Northern up the here
He says
To a room full of souths
Still the drink flows divine

His ails now gone
Be the gaunt a distant reminder
On his love for life
All wed and settled
To a way the village breaths

Yet I know of him
Words for soothing be given
For those about to grieve
My grief
And
My loss

But that was then
And
Life is now
We know how to play
Our game so much better these days
So it is alas my friend

Just one Cornetto

The blank screen before me
Hides a simple truth
That world that's all
Around me
Is hidden from my view

I read the lies
I'm given
To lap it up in haste
The memories of the future
To fade away to grey

What is the truth thats out
There
What do I need to
Do
When corporation's hold
Me
I'm bonded just like
You  

They tell me what to eat
They tell me what to do
I'm told to pay my taxes
Or face the wrath
The blue

Now many years ago
Debt was not around to
Own
Where is this so called
Money
That's owed into
The globe

I don't believe in debt
I don't believe they
Know
The world's a different
Story
Because that's all
I'm told

My world is not so big these days
I see what I believe
I look into the distance look
5 miles is all I breath
I do not take the pain they show
I do not take the greed
I run from all the guilty lies
My life is simply free

Yet as you read my story here
I'm part of what is wrong
The system really has
My life  
I'm part of 84  
But see
I feel a different colour
As
The sheeple pass me by

Inside I'm breaking up
I've given all I am
I' fed up of the lies and cheats
don't wanna kick the can

This world is all corrupt inside
unless your in the know
A symbol of the life we lead
controlling is the flow

They talk as if we love their hear
but we already know
They talk to us invoke the fear
and hope that we all go

Our leaders of this old new world
in doom our soon despair
One day the few will laugh at
us
The fools we all do know    

Disgrace the human race

I need a little sleep
just a wink or too will do
I need a little sleep
a yawn from me to you

I need a little snore
a snort or sigh will work
I need a little snore
I'm noisy soz an all

I need to close my eyes
as matchsticks hurt my sides
I need to close my eyes
the daylight's passed me by

I need to snuggle up
a pillow works just fine
I'm gonna find me bed
na night i need me zzzzzzed........ss

The petals fell away to allow us to see
The beauty we knew that the
flower could be
Rose tinted glasses withheld us
the view
Yet under this makeup we all
really knew

Bright flower of beauty
Bright flower of love
Such glorious colour's
A rainbow in gold  

The clover dressed prince tried harder
than ever
To take you away revealing
your layers
But we understood that all of
his lies
Would come back and be haunt him
His loss
Our eyes  

Bright flower of beauty
Bright flower of love
Such glorious colour's
Bedazzled above

Yet many have tried
Never peeled to the end
They don't know your inner
They don't understand
You wanted some fun
Someone lovely and spice
No prince of dark clover
No wondrous lies

No shelving would suit you
A classiness see
Such colour's of beauty
as petals reveal
a flower of niceness one day
falls to you
A love gone the blindness
As one becomes two

The white snow turned to black
my heart pained
no! no! no! no !..heart attack
no! no! no! no !..heart attack

the feeling inside was all to see
put out this fire ....look at me
my mind was lost into the black
no look
no!no!no!no!.. heart attack

put out to sea set sail to sink
another soul lost out to drink
red eyes in view no looking back
no look
no! no! no! no!..heart attack

Remember Jim? not many do...
one day all will stay unglued
a stone unloved.. a crayoned name
times like this time nothing changed  

no looking back no time to fear
no ! no ! no ! no ! heart attack
no ! no ! no ! no ! heart attack