Father dear Father

Your music played on the radio
No words from these lips
I remembered the sunshine in your smile
A laugh that had me out
All gone down
A memory bliss

Father dear Father

The clouds were light,fluffy and soft
My grasp reaching to a faded hand
The sky blue gave me a lift
Till I looked over
Then I was sad
So lonely

Father dear Father

It's been a while yet still I pain
Still I want another chance
Another breath
My vision blurred by watered eyes
This cry
Your long long sleep

The spiders in my head love to dance
In control of my thoughts they prance
Washing my will
They dance for the thrill

The spiders in my mind own me
Look at my eyes and you will see them
Hiding a flaunt as they spin
Up a storm  

The spiders in my soul cry a reach
For they search this skin for love
On my lonely world
I progress

Be careful when I speak
Hear the spider
Look at me
For a kiss
I will open your eyes

There are many places in many times that mean no more
Than the spoken words before me
Yet here it lays before my heart this mountains subtle Grey
My convictions  
My life
My dreams

These decisions in me now regretted
Looked back
Harmful for my soul
Madness in my mind
Tears in my torture for I have failed

In my youth I was young ,fresh and free
No hill be my wall
No mountain face to fall
For I was ready and my grass grew a path
No mortal could devour

Then life bestowed me life
The sun fell and the clouds became cold
Dark
Hungry
My convicted soul now blackened from the scars
Of broken dreams

I could feel its tremor as this rock before me
Fell
Gone its stability
Crumbled
And like the thoughts in my mind
The pebbles washed away
Into the sea of the broken wings
As I became the lost

These words come from a hand that writes in dutch
From a voice thats never heard
In a world that cares not much

For many years my mind sees what others cannot spell
No auto correct
No wishing well
This jumbled mind lays down the ink
Tis then my thoughts do turn to drink  

I cannot help this way I am
I've tried to spell
Dictate the dram
But spelling write
I dread to think
My mind is a mess
Stained red  

Many souls out there will see
That spelling life
Is hard to breath
Until you try to understand
A simple man in a time
That anger rules and write is wrong

Do you see?
My view is right but here its not  
The spelling devils do their song
No lessons learned my English poor
The ink does give me
Rage that's raw

Let the drink flow down to calm my quell
I'm down here working  
This heat is swell
And still I fight the letters bind
I cant escape

I do the wrong
When all I want to do
Is
Right

Is not dark a form of light that we can not see?
For if I was blinded by the light
Then only would total darkness come!!

This world we partake in
Has become the blinded
Pain
Hunger
Greed
All seeing yet we walk
Head bowed

A continuum that tells a story
Of success
In a reality that is already darkened
Already blinded
All ready an end

Look away from these words
Take off your tinted glasses
Look around you and see
Yes you can make a difference
The time for healing  
Has begun

I knew my life was different
I knew my life was odd
In time I thought I'd join them
Be part ,you know
The club

But many years have passed
My brow
And still I'm on the edge
No word for my acceptance
No nod I'm in the mix
I'm still the one that they ignore
I drinks a lonely drink

The mirror says its not your fault
No help the way you are
A loss for them be lost in them
They don't know
Your the score

My chair remains my only fit
This cat my only chum
These wall my home
That echo flat
My silence rage the din

I made a club that I could join
A time where life looked fine
The only issue I could find
This place is in my head
It's in my head
Just in my head
My head
It's in my head .......

Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung
Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung

No one looked
Only I
It was read in their faces
A wasted trundle of life
Churning
Regurgitating
The madness of life
As the sound of the underground
Washed out their inner screams

Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung
Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung

Stale sweat and vacant stares
Bombarded my senses to shake
Outwardly
I smiled
I had a sorrow for these poor souls
These sheep obeying their master's wishes

Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung
Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung

My knowing that one day they would fade
Become the unimportant
Get tossed aside like a disused burger wrapper
They didn't get it and I felt kinda strangely odd

Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung
Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung

Coughs,whispers and the feint sound of a beat
From the crowded battled against the roar and rhythm
I needed to escape
I needed to breathe
I could feel them
I was being consumed
Turned into a sheep

Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung
Kerr Dung.... Kerr Dung

With fear in my eyes I grabbed the chain
Screeeech!!!!!
The train shuddered to a stop
Loud gasps could be heard as I forced the door open and ran
My vision blurred as I climbed steps
Jumped barriers
Anything to escape
Anything to be free

Out I ran
Into noise
Into London
I forced a breath
And as I looked around me
I could see a reflection
It was me
I too was a sheep
I too was my master's servant

The deathly shadows casted a wave as they flashed through the burn of my headlights
On their way to another steal

Another day ?
Another time maybe?...
But turn me cold they did to form shivers
So sharp my deadened eyes rasped against their brittleness  
I hate the midnight call

This lack of rest was winning to my
Thought's of a day all mine
Yet on I must drive
For it is you that is in need
In need of these words
In need of my hands
For I am the healer and the shadows are waiting

They know all my work and despise my view
For I taketh the bad to bring light out from the dark
I am the healer
I am the one
The shadows are waiting

No payment to be crossed
No words from your lips
As my silence is your gift
So my work must continue  
The shadows are waiting

Dawn chorus wakes the morning light
To a relieve as I sigh  
The shadows are hiding and my work
is not done
Tears flow as I fall to my knees
Earth has taken its feed
Let the shadows wait

A flower held hand
As the young girl reaches up for her
mothers grasp
The reddest of velvet's reflected from
Tears on eyes
Her poppy
Stands proud and straight

She knows why she's standing
She know no return
Her father not here now
His never come home

He fought for his country
He fought for his life
He fought for his honour
His family
Our life

Remember this girl that cries every night
No father to hold her
Is gone from this earth
Yet she is the proudest
A daughter could be
Because of her father
Gave life
For you
...and for me

.
Poppy day

The drag of the day goes on
Even the weather feels my pain
For the rain cannot cleanse me
Nor the wine heal my whole

As another year approaches
Another year is gone  
Some memories that have faded
Yet some they stay so strong

I wonder where your dust is
I wonder where you've gone
Yet inner me still hurts so
The pain can never heal
Another day without you
I wish this gone so real

I wish there was a heaven
A place that I could go
So we could walk another round
And talk about ..ya know

But I know you and off this world
The chance we have is one
So sad I'll be till time be done
My pain
My world
My life

Love is lost
Love is blind
Love is all the love
Our love

See your eyes
I see my eyes
In love my love
Our love

The reddest lips
To touch
From a sweetest kiss
To kiss
In love my love
Our love

Wake me up
The dream
Our dream
In love my love
Our love

So hold me now
My love
Squeeze me shout
My love
In love my love
Our love  

Forever us
The world we hold
In love forever
My love
In love my love
Our love

Into I walk on this day
For my fear is with tomorrow
That tomorrow I know about
The one where I hear it all
Yet say the wrong
Place the mind
Rest the soul
Feed the earth  

That one day
Not yet
For my words need a breath
Listened too
Played and sung
To the kings and queens
That play our cards

Maybe then I will allow
My tomorrow
But it is I that still holds the ace
The trump card

The pièce de résistance
Is all mine
My tomorrow can wait
For today I will shine
Stride upon this earth
And raise a smile
For tomorrow

The voice with no name whispered unto me
Live your life
You know you can
Be bold
Be strong
Believe

My head lowered
I knew this right
Yet scared did I just know
How could I live like I could want
How can it be just so

Each step
Each breath
That sound in my heart
Playing
Running
Beating
This call to run away


The voice with no name whispered unto me
It's time to make the change
The chains no more
The holds no bared
It's time to run the world

The passion in my anger
Saw my rage
Tasted in your eyes
Eaten from your heart

You doubted all my wisdom
I hated all your lies
My fear of never finding

This love
Forever blind

My burst of giving all to you
The pain I felt my life
This world has stopped
I'm changing lanes
The fish have come alive

The pond is full
Yet hunger waits
My hook is frail and torn
The hurt inside is red from raw
I fear a lovers burn

I see the dark turn into light
I hear you calling out my name
And I wonder ...
Let it be alright

Slow me down go easy
Let me live the life I roam
Slow me down go easy
I'm coming home  

In the miles mapped of my journey
From the roads of San Rioch
For I've waited ...
For you to call

Slow me down go easy
Let me live the life I roam
Slow me down go easy
I'm coming home

Are you ready for our future
Is the writing on the wall
Can we live a life forever
I'm coming home

Slow me down go easy
Let me live the life I roam
Slow me down go easy
I'm coming home

Into these old eyes comes new light
From a new day
Let the birds do their work
Let my mouth kiss you
Bid me my well
My love

So out I step into the way
Biting bitter cold does its best
To take your warmth away
From my lips
Yet it cannot hide my love
For your gaze
My love

The path is long and broken but one day
I shall return with gold
And a ring for your finger
Place the candle well
Warm your side  
My love

The years past into layers of grey
A way home almost lost to the overgrown
Are you there my love
No light be seen my love
My love .........my love...my love  
My LOVE!!!!!!!!!!!!

The Brightest Flower

A flower held hand
As the young girl reaches up for her
mothers grasp
The reddest of velvet's reflected from
Tears on eyes
Her poppy
Stands proud and straight

She knows why she's standing
She know no return
Her father not here now
His never come home

He fought for his country
He fought for his life
He fought for his honour
His family
Our life

Remember this girl that cries every night
No father to hold her
Is gone from this earth
Yet she is the proudest
A daughter could be
Because of her father
Gave life
For you
...and for me

.
Poppy day

Here I lay
Numb
Cold
Bitter

Till the morn
Pain
Anger
Regret

From my mind
Fear
Hate
Love

Here I lay
Empty
Wasted
Life