A word that chills me to the bone.
I can't kiss you through the telephone.
It's hard to hear, and painful to think
She'd choose me over her cold drink.

Leave her smoke
Sell her car
I start to choke
But she's too far.

Four letters mean a lot
When it's more then just a thought.

I'd love to be here at the end of the day.
Don't use that word and I might... just...



Stay.

If I wasn't gay would people care?
Would they actually let me breath the same air?
Could I actually go to school,
without people being so cruel?
Could I live in a world with no hate?
Maybe people would love me if I was straight.
It's not as easy as people think.
I can't just go to a shrink.
I didn't choose to be this way.
You really think I'd want to be gay?
I don't want attention,
I don't want fame.
This isn't some sort of game.
I am who I am and thats okay.
Most people don't see it that way.
I only wish I could be the same.
To have a wedding and it not be shamed.
I want to have kids and not be judged.
I don't want my reputation smudged.
But apparently I'm different now.
Sick in the head somehow.
Therapy and shock treatment for something that can't be fixed.
How did I get put into this mix?
Toxic and tragic,
that's my life.  
It's like I was stabbed in the back with a knife.
I'm gay,
what's wrong with that?
I get treated like some rat.
Using your holy books and your religion.
To fight against something that makes no difference.
I want to be a human not a punching bag.
Always getting called a ***.
Let that word have power and it gets to you.
But that words as good as whatever is stuck to the bottom of my shoe.
I love being this way.
I don't care what you say.

Your kindness reflects,
the hospitality of your soul,
on the surface of the waves.

Your silence reflects,
the loudness of your mind,
in the echoes of the room.

Your voice reflects,
the honesty of your heart,
in the whispers to my ear.

Your positivity reflects,
the clarity of your thoughts,
flowing in your mind.