You just might be beautiful.
Whenever I see your smile, I will laugh or I will cry;
It just depends on the mood I am currently in.

And it feels strange writing in full phrases,
Because I'm not a complete sentence kind of person.
I pull my thoughts short until they are not existent
So that no one will have to know who I really am or what I'm thinking.

You make me feel like there is light in the world,
Or like i actually have a chance at life.
You make breathing worth while;
I never thought I would ever be able to say that.

You tell me to
Write a poem
About how wonderful
The world is.
You have given me
An impossible task,
For the world is not wonderful.
It is dark and
Frightening
And I fear I may never
Escape it.

It holds so many brilliant
And beautiful things
Only to lure it into the
Depths of its darkness.

Beware.

There's a fire
In my mind
And a spark
In my soul,
Where the dead
Come to play
And where people
Never go.

There's a glint
In my eye
And a tearing
In my chest
-

**** this.

She's beautiful
And wonderful
And everything
I've ever wanted,
But I sometimes
Find myself
Feeling guilty
About all I've
Ever done to her.

I sometimes wonder
Why she stays with me
When I put her through so much.

there are days when
i just want to
curl up in a ball
and say goodbye
to everyone who ever
meant anyone to me.

it isn't fair how
i put them through
so much stress and worry;
i'm not worth their time.

i find that i could
slip away
and no one would
even notice.

lately i've just been feeling
so empty
and i know that
there are a lot of people
who care about me
and who want me
to live on
and fight this
******* impossible war
but i can't,
i just can't.
no one really knows
how impossible my life is
and i have no intention of
telling them.

racing with you
to desert skies
running until we
       have to say goodbye

holding you tightly
        as tight as i can
closing my eyes
         so it will never end.