efni - Hello Poetry

efni Jun 2021

noise

please turn the music up
for it is much too noisy
and i need to get to sleep

12.06.21

my mind is loudest in the silence, the still
i'm far too vulnerable without distraction

efni May 2021

i freeze, i burn, i shatter
i don't melt and
i don't die
but tread carefully
because you just might

30.05.21

tw// graphic note
when i'm in pain i won't melt into your arms, i'll cut them
i don't need any more blood on my hands. just run.

efni May 2021

pill pollution

sitting on old prescriptions
and sleeping in plastic capsules
that float on this vast ocean
i have collected with familiar
waves of tears that once
drowned me, now buffered by

empty bottles

30.05.21

i'm racking up quite the collection
i'm going to be sick for a long time aren't i?

efni May 2021

substitute

sorry, i don't want you
i just want you to want me
whenever they don't
because i've never known
how to want myself

30.05.21

it's wrong but when has anything ever been right for me
it wont last long anyways

efni May 2021

toxic

i'm never alone
depression is a zealous
and jealous lover

30.05.21

you hate me and want me all for yourself

efni May 2021

softly

you love me too quietly
for me to hear over my pain

and you touch me so softly
that i don't feel anything at all

30.05.21

i don't feel you

efni Apr 2021

half-moon bag

it's not lasting or 'natural'
this happiness i feel
it leaves scars, but that's okay
'cuz if it hurts...

that means it's real

world's wide, time's short and choices are limited
i feel what i feel and take what i can from that.

for now, i'm pretty okay with it.