Don't leave the room because I'm scared
I dared you to come closer
I let you look into my eyes
I asked you to take pictures
I would do just that for you
If I didn't scare you just the same
If our souls weren't already intertwined
As if we didn't already know we knew what to say

Fear is always at the bottom of the caves in our hearts
Fear is always in the way of love when it starts
Blossoms blooming because we both see the light
Making our hearts braid together and putting fear out of sight

You know that feel? It's all in a song
A wave of emotion literally rushes
From the very ends of your toes,
To your stomach,
To your mind,
And forces the most genuine smile on your face,
You close your eyes,
You are being lifted,
Almost carried away,
But, not quite
You're still here,
Waving your emotions
To the rhythm of the song
Through your body, repeatedly
Over and over, (I repeat)
Over and over
You know that wonderful feel? It's all in a song

You were the shark that bit the skin off my bones
You left me naked, and let me sink into the bottom of the ocean- buried
Left in the dark with nothing but my memories
You took my identity
In the beginning I was shocked, devastated, and afraid
But now I want to thank you for washing my sins away
You took more than my skin when you devoured the flesh from my bones
I became one with the Sea, the biggest piece of me- water
There is a purpose for the evil we allow into our reality
To defeat or even to be defeated by it
What I allowed to happen changed me
I felt the water that had always been a part of my body
I drank it out of a chalice made from the rocks in the Sea
It fed into my empty bones, and I started to appreciate where I came from
I started a life all over again
I rooted myself to the bottom of the ocean only to allow myself to turn into something more beautiful that would one day find it self with ankles, knees, toes, fingers, and a heart beat
Maybe one that I could actually hear this time
Or even feel aligning with the breaths inside my rib cage
I would appreciate the movement of the water flowing through my veins, up and down my spine, and connecting to my brain
I am water, and it is mostly all I have ever been
With out the bite from your rusted teeth that night
I would have never understood what it costs to be human
What it takes, and what it means to break
I am not afraid to die
I can now even stare into its lonesome eyes
I am so free, because of us
Thank you for your gruesome ending
Your shallow stomach
Your broken heart
Your manipulated kiss
I will always remember the last time we touched
If I lose my way, I know we will meet again
You can not forget your first love
It is what carries us to every next day
And I love you so much
Why do you think I decided to stay?

You end my day with the rise of the moon
How I have always thought of you
You sing such sweet melodies that hold me in the dark
Lighting up my solar plexus with an instant spark
Melting everything else around me,
Because in that moment it no longer matters
It all shatters, and I become plastered with emotion
What a magnanimously calming ocean
You give the opportunity to set myself free
To let go of all the things that never have served me
I remember, and I feel it like bliss
I can now understand what you mean by a kiss
Mouth to mouth vibration in the pit of my soul
It had been so long since I last felt this whole
So sing me to sleep in your starry night sky
My moon, my dream, my sweetest lullaby

I envision you as a bright light, like the moon
I wave my hands over you every night in hopes of a final feeling
Your wounds are bleeding
Never healing, but always shining
The blood that pours out from your craters is stunning,
Oh so stunning, enticing
Why is it that your sickness pulls me towards you?
Why is it that the pain of being distant is so enthralling?
Your blood brings me to your home
It’s keeping me close
Tell me we belong here
Bright moon, bleed on me
I need this vision to be more than a fantacy

I kissed the mist of leftover blood on my tongue when you sang
How sweetly your voice did sound against the rain
Against the thunder
Against your mother
How dare you!
To still bring about silent thunder
Quiet against the grain of your skin
Even then still so soft
I continue to ponder
About the thought of sancuary
Something so sacred and legendary
I could fall to my knees
If I had any
Let the light that is leading reign
Embrace true victory
Stay

I'm in love with my life,
but where are you?
I can not find you anywhere,
or in anyone
in anything thing
or any being
I am trying
and I can not get over that
That I am trying
"You can't miss what you forget"
but there isn't even anything left
It's all I have
You're all that I have
You are all that I have ever had
and I can not escape that
I can not escape it
I can not escape you
I can not erase you
You are everlasting within my mind
Over anywhere
anyone, anything, or any being
It's an everlasting cycle that I can not beat
And somehow my heart,
it keeps beating,
and beating, and beating, and beating
but only for you
I am forever in love with you
and I always will be
There is no beating the beating

This is only the start
and it doesn't mark any actual words I might have for you
I will add and add and continue to glue on words of excellence
To your shoulder
Boulder now that they hold me on them so high,
because you do, I know you do
I do, I do, I do,
and I will forever
Heaven in our arms together
I hold you closer than my mother
Sick truth turned into something beautiful
I live for the day I first met you
In your eyes I swam to your heart
Plucking every single petal I found
The petals from your pollinated soul
The waves of your nurtured ocean of the mind
I sunk deep to the pit of your divine
and I am bringing you with me
I want nothing more than to sail away
With us-
Universe only knows what we might do
Let our love gripping heartbeats
Beat to the sound of our oblivion
Our heaven
Candle light night flame of Venus spread
Across the dark sky by the moon
Forever gazed inside this swoon
I love you, Lucifer
I really really do

You built a latter, and set it next to my body
I was aching, restless, and hungry
Full of heavy thoughts that left my insides empty
I could not swallow anything unless it buried me
I took shots of whisky that tasted like moldy unsolved mysteries
My friends happily poured me one after another until I blacked out
With every shot I only ingested their hand-me-down uncertainty
Happily, because I was in love with them
I was in love with everything I knew they could possibly be
They were the divine hook to the songs in my dreams
We built a family around drums, and campfires
We sang up, down, and around the couches in the living room

We were free, and lost in simplicity
Blind to the perfection of just how simply perfect we made it all to be

So I took the bullet, I took the shot
I took it for them so they wouldn't rot
I wanted to save them from diving into the imaginary rule book of life
These stupid walls that really don't exist unless you bring them to light
We need walls to build a home, but I need space to live
I need space to breath, I need space to explore in
Where the **** am I supposed to go if I put up 10,000 walls?
A home is not a place or a maze where I should get lost
You can feel where home is, and you know it when you are there

One day the birds will sing in honor of the ones who brought them where they are
The trees will be recognized as the ones who continue to give me and you life every day
That the bark itself can heal your wounds
Stop your bleeding, and keep you breathing
It will be known that the beetles have more knowledge than your friends
That the bears are protectors of the Earth
The Earth itself has bones called stones,
and a fire inside that keeps her heart beating
That her heart beat is literal sound
Music is her dance,
And you and I are the ones who get to sip off this romance
We are her children, and we are her eyes
We are her, Her that fell from the sky
Creating a Him, and creating creation
We are in awe of the stars, because we can not see ourselves
She is crying inside, because you can't see your own wealth
One day it will all be known
But only for those who want to go Home

I wouldn't have asked for a better space, a better time, and a better place
These words were made to create
These rhythms were chisled on cement slates
I am free, because my eye is open
I am flying with my mind,
Because my Spirit is golden- Flames
Designed to burn
I have earned everything I understand
Holding hands, and making plans
A future worth living for is coming
Being created, programmed, and running- Fast
The speed of light is invisible
Give intuition a chance- Dance
Be wild
Greet the ones you love, and those you meet along the way with a smile
We are rich
I found the most expensive artifact buried under the soil
In the dirt
I mad a pouch with my shirt,
And carried it back home with me- Easily
I placed it in a space where I would see it every day
Inside my heart
Now, when I get lonely I know where to start
Which is how I got lost
I have a body, and that in itself costs
Breath, and let your heart keep beating
I will make this my mantra
For, myself I am keeping

My mother is my most absolute treasure
The most amazing of all or any creature
She has hidden herself at the bottom of the sea
She is holding herself out, and waiting up for me
Our minds are one alike,
but I won't give up
I am determined to repeat this rhyme
But not in the same way - she tried
And failed without recognition
She set her soul on fire,
And no one she knew was with her
She is trapped inside her own mind
She is so intuitive, with thoughts too fine
Intercepting and accepting things of the unknown
Of secret entities she unknowingly invites into her home
And tries to get along with
Every single day
She tries to make them her friends
But then they linger longer, and try to stay
She has been force fed pills her whole teenage life
And still continues to take them
She is told every time she is supposed to "embrace" them
My mother is going to be 42 years old
The government is holding her to this unrighteous mold
It is deteriorating her inner most being
They are telling her she's crazy
But they have no idea what she is hearing!
She called ME last night asking me if I was hearing voices
And she's done this before,
I used to ignore it
Surprisingly I was, I thought I was speaking to the Holy Spirit
Or some form of her, my very own mother
BEFORE I was told she had some sort of what they call a mental illness
Before I understood this different part of her..
Which by the way no one ever told me
She has had this problem only a few years after I was born
And I didn't figure it out until I was seventeen
So again, she calls me,
I think I've been speaking to her supposed lost spirit
But my mom was never gone
I had to open my mind and realize this
She just started to accept this intuitivenss
So, she asks me again if I have been hearing voices
I repeat myself, 'Yeah mom, I have"
Just so you know it wasn't that I was hearing voices,
I have been going through something similar
Accepting my own intuitiveness
Trying to climb the same pillar
She asks me this question,
If I have another mother
Do I have another mother?
I reply --- no I cry, "Of course not mom, I love you"
"What is this about? How is it that you knew"
She said sometimes some things just 'zip' though her mind
She has to address them
Especially when her only daughters state of reality is on the line
She screams back at me, it gets the best of her
"WHY DO YOU NEED TO LISTEN, WHY DO YOU NEED ANOTHER MOTHER"
She hangs up on me
I couldn't help but call her back
She acted so normal
As if what just happened wasn't real
And I don't blame her, I couldn't believe it myself
So I brought it back up
I let her know
I thought it was her
I thought it was her soul
Mom, I was listening for you
My one and only mother
My one and only star
My one and only protector
My one and only that birthed me into this earth
The one who looks at me,
And sees nothing but all I'm worth
I am her chosen one
I am her only one
We are sharing this same 'What ever you want to call it'
You can call me a Psychic,
Or tell me I'm schizophrenic
I will tell you right now I am fine
I want to deal with this
What every happening to me is so divine
My mom and I are one alike
So intuitive with thoughts too fine
But together we will fight this battle
Together we can build this mantel
And I will fight with her,
Because she fights for me
She's fighting for it ever day
And yet the world still thinks she's crazy

If I sit and stare at a blank wall I could think of a billion things in one hour
If I sit and stare at mural I could still think of a billion things in just one hour
The difference in thought would be extreme
I'd start from scratch by staring into a blank abyss
I'd start in the midst of a billion by staring straight into a colored cave
The blank wall would allow me to go anywhere
The mural would keep me confined to the colors and pictures
Framed imagination that still soars
Among a wondrous plane
But starting from scratch would still do the same
Igniting an idea that did not start with a frame
I am allowing myself to light a new flame
Game changer
Idealistic match maker!
I will forget what my parents taught me
Bombard my future with my own colored view
Far out stars that have been found missing
End up on canvases as enamored hues
Galaxy speak to me with this pen
Let my mind be open to you
Let the strokes of my wrist wave this rhythm
Make my dreams come true
Colored murals that once were
I still seek anew
Time is changing
I am here to rescue you

I was sent here to rescue you

Push
What it takes for such movement
Momentum
The forward progress of everything
Constantly in motion
I am pushing for my own brightness
I am searching for my way out
I have glued myself to this place I have labeled as a home
I was born here, but I do not live here
I did, once upon a time, but now
That time has passed
It is time to push
Time for me to push

Back to breath
There is nothing left
I meant what I said,
and I said what I meant
My soul is free
One hundred percent
I am an angel
This is what I have found
We work together
Intertwined we make sound
Movement serves momentum,
And holds me to the ground
Soul breaks into light
Pulls my body out of sight
But only to those who can't see
I am here to reverse your misery
I made it once,
I can do it twice
Follow me throughout the Night

Desire is a very powerful feeling
I obtain the possibility to get lost in desire
As if I were on LSD staring straight into a fire
I can see one thousand things
It becomes uneasy to focus on where I actually am
I have to remember to breath
I don't know if I can
Hold onto the ground any longer
My mind becomes overwhelmed
In an instance I feel like I know so much
Most importantly, I feel
I am fire, and I am a flame
I am connected to those
Who see themselves as the same
This is what I know to be desire
At this space in time we are unique enough
To acquire a hold on each other's similarities
Such as the burning fire inside
That bring us to this remedy

You shot me
Dead
Never to allow me myself,
And only myself ever again
Indifferent to what that all could mean
Serene, but heavenly to me
Like an angel
You sat down at my table
Allowed me to feel able of this future
This picture, and this endeavour
I can't take this on with out you,
And for some reason I actually want to
Please me with history
Bless me with this memory
We are sacred
We are one
I interteined with you in a single moment
But in all seriousness
You were the one that held the gun

My fingers are crossed in hopes for you

You didn’t ask for anything from me,

But I still hold my words true

Your light is above my own selfish plea

Please hold yourself out

And wait up for me

Just know your secret is safe with me
I wait on the empty sheets of my bed
Dreaming of the day you come home
Tossing and turning awake I will lay
Thinking of all the ways in this reality
I could have possibly made to make you stay

These feelings feel fresh when I first speak
A great sense of relief
That falls off my infinite tongue
To your heart
Ever so deep
I hollow out your mind to make space for me
I will yell, I will whisper, I will sing if you please
I am here waiting for the turn of your cheek
I wait for the moment that our souls eyes meet
Shift with me, move with me, dance with me, please
Let us all peak at the future,
Bring us all to our knees
Lift us up after the thought of being alone wears off
Lift us up after we realize only we can turn back the clocks
Lift us up after we see that all it really took
Was a pen and piece of paper
We are the forgotten authors of our own book

I have seen the circle
I have already followed through
Somehow I found myself here
Somehow I still feel you
No matter how many times I leave
Or even decide to stay
I will always want you come November
And the same with in May
I want you for all months to come
I want you and I for all to see
I want you for the stars
I want you for me
I used to sail alone
Until the moment I called you home
That was when we met the sea
The illusions passed and set us free
That time is infinite
It is forever lasting
It is past this entire world
It is why we are latching
If even only one eye could see
Our naked bodies pressed against the beach
Then everything would dissolve
And evaporate already
All that resides there is you and I
No more Mother Earth or Father Sky
I want to feel you in my bones
It is where we built our home
All these wants just to feel
Would break the White angels ancient wheel
If all our fears were colored blue
If all our time just fell right through
If all the scenes would be displayed
If all our filth would wash away
You could find me in your arms
We could eliminate the vicious swarm
Of self invested fools
Of all the ones who feel the rule
Of power with out love
How foolish to forget of  our sacred white dove
Who soars over every sea
Who watches you and me
He is the breach in our path
The forever seeking math
Of how the two of us subside
In Utopia there is you and I

I question
My very own gut, my very own center, my very own vision
It feels like a splinter

I want it out, I can not swallow, I have no grip
My rib cage, hallow

Button up the idea behind my feelings for you
I lack motivation to secure a dying dream
I lack thirst for the adventure
I lack patience for this frightful endeavor

You made it this way
I picked the book, but you keep flipping the page
I am hooked somewhere in the beginning
Ground beneath me still spinning
Round, and round the clock I go
Numbers press on 'til you come home

Following my heart is never the easy part of any journey I take on
Following my heart means leaving him behind
Following my heart takes away any certainty I thought I might of had
It's always where I need to be, but hardly every where I go
I never follow like I know I should
It already took me a long time in the beginning to figure this out
I feel like a coward, a queen who dropped her crown in the dark
It's hidden beneath me at the bottom
Skimming this lonely wave of what I call the floor
I can't pick it up, because if I do
If I do, I will run, and I will keep running, and no one will stop me
No one can stop me, and that scares me
It also amazes me, and makes me realize how powerful I actually am
I used to be afraid to use the word 'power'
But I am starting to realize that power is not a rotting principle
It is the way it can be used, and it has been given a bad name
I want to change that, as I continue to change myself
I am aiming past the stars, because I know there is magic out there
I know there are secrets out there
Secrets that I have full possession of
If I allow myself to stand the **** up
Open my eyes, and breath in the unknown
I am everything, and nothing all in the same
Knowledge beyond my own years, because I know they don't exist
I have done this before, so what the hell is stopping me now?

My tomb stone sits on the edge of my personal expression
A lesson learned in time and in conversation
I cower at the thought of losing my own head
My own mind, and my discipline

I know how to stare him straight in the eyes
I know how to deceive him in between my thighs
I am an angel
I am a sinner, and I know how to strangle time
This is the divine era of modern waste, and sweet sublime
I am practicing a dream
I am in the center of space
I am coming together with everything that will ever take place
I am solid, after being liquid, beaten, and broken
I am here for every day that I choose to own it
I am thankful, full, and full of blood
Without you in my life
I would be drowning in the mud

I woke up in Omaha Nebraska off California street
with the sun kissing me through the open window
I woke up with no alarm,
Alarmed by the fact that I might be late for work
But I wasn't
In fact I was right ON time
Put off by the fact that it was nothing or no one that awoke me,
But my own conscious self
Knowing somehow, that even with my eyes closed
My thoughts were wide open
I was fully aware
My naked body arose from where I slept
And crept up in a home ( not of my own )
To awkwardly put on MY OWN clothes
Through someone else's window
.. I start to think ..
How often I really have put on my own clothes
Through someone else's window
Looking closely now,
I change the word 'window' to 'perception'
Kind of like my own sort of window,
My own way of perception
How often I dress myself for the occasion,
or better yet, THEIR occasion
How often I've put on those skinny jeans,
Because YOU like them
How often I wear a bra
Because you don't want to see what my *****
look like through my favorite silk shirt
When I say 'you' - You know who you are
At least, you know who you might be
How often times people do things for you
How often times you do things for other people
How often you hold yourself back from being you - at all
How many times I have held myself back from being me,
And **** it's such a shame. I am ashamed.
Honestly by the most simple things
Overthinking a compliment I want to give someone
Because we are about to pass each other on the same side of the street
Avoiding their eye contact by just looking down
And staring at my own feet

COOL. REALLY. COOL.

I have been wearing these moccasins for 4 months now, Alisha
They look good, but I already know this
I am not the one who needs to hear it
Especially, not from myself
And I don't know them at all, but maybe,
Just maybe, what I want to say to them
Could break down what we all thought was an everlasting wall
Whether it be MINE or THEIRS
At the end of the chapter,
A wall that separates us from our own freeedom
Where we break down all similar walls and learn to defeat them
If anything, a smile, maybe a compliment back,
Not even to myself, but the next person down the track
It's a small movement, but I want it to move
I am making this promise to myself,
Because I want to improve
I want to make things that are so simple
More common in this world
Things that should not be overlooked,
Spread out amongst everyone and painted on their face like a mural
Desire for this righteous fire I want to be in power of
Spreading my smile for literal miles
Like Noahs Ark and that sacred white dove
The best thing about a dove is
It is just but a white pigeon
And every pigeon is capable of finding its white dove within him

It is there, and it always has been
Right under your sleeve
In the sliver of your grin
We can make this world more than you ever imagined
The power behind the strength of passion
When people come together in the form of one
When we all hold hands
Do you know what is being done
Connection is so out of this world
Touch is what keeps us in this treacherous swirl
Deadly sins that we latch on to
Riding the dragon is what we need to
Do, and do again
Tell the entire world, and invite all your friends
We are all Great Gods in this lonesome kingdom
The path to aloness is what is hidden underneath you
Very beneath you, you will have to fight
Fight to the death of your ego inside
It holds no mold, despite all you have been told
This world will **** you in,
and drag down your immortal soul
It is there, and it always has been
I will show you the road
Soften your ego, and create a new mold
You could stay here forever if what you look for is gold
Not the the gold that you see, but the gold that you feel
Not in front of your eyes, but what is actually real
No picture or place, No space or time
Use what you want to invent your new rhyme
Rhythm is now, rhyming is here
The goal of music
(Your mathematical medicine, my dear)
Replace your body with tunes of the soul
Sing the great white song
And let the youth be OH SO BOLD
Bolder than you could have possibly pictured
The movie you've been waiting for
Is your motion picture
Event, that is happening now
Sit back and enjoy
Those who don't know are your crowd


That in itself is exceptionally sad
Why would you leave behind your loved ones
Your mom or your dad
Your sister or brother
Your dead cousin or grandmother
They have no conscious awareness
It was never their fault
It was never their meaning to forever fall
The change of pace is now in your hands
This entire universe is inside you,
Give awareness a chance
Keep guiding yourself towards this lightning bolt feeling
Let it live inside you
Realize what your keeping
To yourself and not sharing
This selfishness will sink
It is absolutely more powerful than you could possibly think
It is the path to aloneness,
but who wants to be alone?
We could all share this peace
Let us connect and hold hands
Give our dark sins the golden control

Can the Self destroy relations?
Let's face it, there is temptation
There is a mirror
It is a representation
Reflection to dive into
A part of you

What really makes you true?

What do you do?
You wait for something better
What do you do?
You wait for something better
What do you do?
You wait for something better

Patience will give you everything that matters

What do you do?
You wait for something better
What do you do?
You wait for something better
What do you do?
You breath in everything that matters

Wait for a man that will give you his sweater

Used to the rock
That still sits in my front yard
You moved it last Wednesday
And now its next Friday
It still sits three feet
From the front of my stairway
I leave every morning
And then it reminds me
I cant bare to move it
Your name sits upon it
You claim that your weight
Will hold everything that molds us
The beauty of nothing
That has become everything
To me

It was late, and you had fallen asleep early
California love made in a cheap hotel
We started with margaritas in the moonlight
Your new favorite alcoholic beverage
Although, you hardly even started drinking yours
This time when you fell asleep I didn't want to wake you
That was different for me
I just enjoy spending time with you
But seeing you lay on those white sheets practically naked drove me wild
Those baby blue boxer briefs were killing it, those freckles on your shoulders were killing me, you were killing me -but I liked it
Death never looked so good until I saw it in the sea of your eyes

I thought to myself, I should write a poem about you
Everything that you say and all that you do
Blue like the ocean, Green like the trees
Flowers that bloom and attract all the bees
That buzz in and out of my ears as they please
You -
have this thing about you that makes me weak at the knees
High of your sting that you always hit me with
High off your smile as if I just the fattest spliff!
But it never goes away,
I never come down
I still think about you even when you are not around
Your chestnut locks that locks me into this vision
and everything else that goes along with them
Your laugh, your eyes
Typical things to fantasize about
But! How about what you believe,
And all the words that fall from your mouth

And I love those, I do, I really really do

Especially because they fall
They leap without looking,
And yet you still stand so tall
You are so strong with all your projections
You give absolutely no ***** to those who reject them
Some people think you are absolutely nuts,
But so do I!
I wrote you this poem, and you still act like your blind
Is it really that hard?
I'm now in the spot light
I know you're here
I invited you out tonight
I have been saving this poem for this very moment
I have been crossing my fingers for you ever since I wrote it

So now we are both here,
and now everyone knows
Now my palms got all sweaty,
And I'm ready to go home
Thank you for listening
I'm at least glad you came,
And everyone else I just encircled in my shame
We'll see how this ends up,
I gave it a pretty good shot.
Maybe now he wants me too?
But honestly, probably not

Taos mountains, and forbidden fountains
Woah..
Those raining waterfalls of everlasting joy
You brought me to tears
You allowed me to erase my fears
I discovered a foundation
Something worth my patience
A sacred space that will bring me back
To who I am now, and also my past
In full circle knowledge
My wingspan grew
How I have always thought of you
Black raven, saving me from Satan
I found myself inside of you
I am strong, and I will follow through
Music is the key
Sound is vibration
I will raise what I can
To save my people's nation
Bless
Throw away my stress
This is a prayer
For what continues to keep me here
Merkabah is set in motion  
Eye of Horus is my highest devotion
For when I wake I will not fail
I passed the test
I am setting sail
I passed the darkness
I was not taken
I walked through Hell
I flew to Heaven
Awaiting your mystery
I am your Venus
You may see this as misery, but
Remember
If you are not blind
Love will always conquer

I lift myself up to the top of the crater
Holding my own hand
Because I'm the only one who can make me feel better
I reflect the mirror of a widowed soul
Easy to please because I've been growing old
The same old **** drives me crazy
Drives me in circles
Makes me feel lazy
About how I am
How I am supposed to be
Left on this planet
With no one to save me
And that is how I feel
I love my family
My family are my friends
But they don't reserect me
They can't save what they don't know is lost
They don't feel what I feel
The don't know that I'm tossed
Between life and them
Not knowing how dead - they really are
Mark my words
I'm hotter than mars
I've got this down
I know my power
I've let it set in
I'm ready to devour
The planets and all that there is
I'm ready to take it
I've already defeated it
I wait while they wander
I shoot with the stars
I quiver with fire
I'm raising the bar
I'm calling out insane
Runnin around in their maze
It's time to real you in
I'm sick of waiting
Will your consciousness already sit in?
Christ
Holy power
Raise your fist
Feel te power
Of yourself
And eternal wealth
I want you hear
Find thine eye
Heaven be clear
To me
To you
To us
Amen

I want an intervention of memory
I want to restore my own history
I need some sort of upliftment after sitting on the sidelines
I could sleep with you every night and you still wouldn't give me what I needed to keep my dream alive
I can't feel you or even myself anymore, because I ended up floating away
My daydreams don't guide me home
They barely even get me through the front door
I beg my own pardon for I have made too many mistakes
My stomache feels like it has taken to leaches and it glues me to this place
My gut is the rut of stolen behavior
Throwing up pity parties
And making up saviors
Saving me frm rotting away

Your blue eyes sank into the pit of my belly button
Heavy breaths left my mouth like boulders rolling off the mountain side
My toes sat tight in my boots, and curled under my feet

Soul inspired tide of disbelief
Sail me away to the sound of assurance
I long for the desire to aquire a hold
On the creation of my reality
I am the captain of this ship
I am the mighty waves in the Ocean
I am the mermaid singing her way to victory
I am a channel for the unknown knowns
I want to believe in that that is untamed
I want to ride in the storm and face it unafraid
Guide me to the mountainous heaven
That sliver of peace I call my salvation
I will make it home, and it will not **** me
To assure myself of this is the biggest step in my own making of history

It's hard to put the key in the door
Sometimes you don't know what you are looking for
Hoping for something that you might not find
Wanting something that feels so divine
Every pull feels past your reach
You tug on the **** like it is a ******* leach
Punctured on your inverted spine
******* out all your insides
For the soul you thought you kept
Before your play write ego had ever left
Dancing to the story you never told
Meditating for it to unfold
You find yourself down the narrow steps
Following though with every breath
You never knew just what you would find
Accessing miracles that are past your time
You hold them like blessings that have been brought
To you My Dear, my precious thought
That became more that I could ever dream
Through the Holy fountain we found our means
And through that old and wicked door
We found what love was really made for
It is the that shallow path that brought us here
I went through every thing I had ever feared
I found the tunnel of a sacred path
I solved every puzzle, I did the math
I gave up almost everything
I cut off my tongue to hear you sing
I wanted this for eternity
But the door has disappeared,
and I lost the key

Wow...
I am so thankful for black
Teaching me how to react
To people I don't understand
We are the same
We share the same name
In different vibrations
What I am learning is sacred
SATAN
Dab after dab
Line after line
Use what you want to invent your own ryhme
It is what it is
I know what you are
I feel your embrace
I sing to the stars
...

Today I am taking bites of gratitude
My head is level with the ground,
and I hear a new sound inside my mind
that rings unconditional
It is beautiful
Learning to submit myself to understand
foreign land that I have yet to walk on,
but you sail

Enki baby, you make me sing
My ears ring, and I cling to your memory
Such symmetry we hold, you and I
My fondest mirror
The only balance that makes me shiver
I love you, and I made you a promise
Extention to extention
Together we are intertwined
The universe is inside us
Our secret is a drive
I fight for you
The eve of me
I can't help but be a sinner
Your soul sets me free
Its always been inside me
And into us I now see
Thank you for being my love
My infinate butterfly

I will not embody anger
It is not an emotion I will allow myself to transfer
It is not necessary in this time
I can feel many things,
Right now this doesn't serve my mind
My body, or my soul
This feeling does not allow myself to grow
Anger is not awful
It is just something right now
That I cannot swallow
I seek clarity, and understanding
I seek a new world
Something new, and everlasting
I can not hold on to this any longer
As I am letting go
I am only growing strong
With my last touch to this
I sail it away,
And mark the sails with a kiss
Farewell my old friend
For when we meet again
You will be new to me
All over, and once again

Memories exist in the feel of your love that live within the sound inside your soul
I am digging deep inside an old casket buried in a cosmic black hole
Dead as it may seem, it is alive in you
I resurrect them in organic gardening tunes
The tools I use are made for the soil in your mind
The kind that come from foreign lands
And arent easy to recognize
They bloom when I'm not looking
They manifest and shine
They act as a boomerang
They bloom on their own time
I am fortunate enough
To smell the scent of glory
The fact that they even flower
Let's me know that I am worthy
A reflection I can count on
A flower that can sing
A woman that holds power
One who doesn't need a man for anything

She'd just like to have one

My sister, my diver,
My seeker, my surviver
It’s been a year since our reunion
Time to us is an illusion
We came together in a time of need
Last year was real, but time moves quickly
You’ve soared high skies,
You’ve roamed the mountains,
You’ve danced in valleys,
You’ve bathed in fountians
I see myself in all that you’ve done
I see us both in constellations
Creating stars in the eternal night sky
Dance with me, let’s polarize

A flower is a gift
It is protection
Reflection, an unseen jurisdiction
A mask, and an illusion
It is simple, and in some instances,
Medicine
I call upon the flowers
I speak to the petals
I ask them for guidance
I treat them like angels
They are my greatest teachers
Lovers, and friends
They are the most beautiful piece of my imagination
Sacred geometic patterns locked in a single shape
They helped me open my eyes, and open a gate
Multiple moments parallel to each other
Instances that align and bring us together
Blooming ripples that flow like a river
Creating a world that is sacred and silver
Forget about karmatic gold and the gods that lost the heat
Open your eyes to idea of prosperity
Green grass and significant botanics
Trees and leaves and our ancestors of Atlantis