The other day,
I saw a bear.
But it's all a front.
Under the hair,
The makeup,
The clothes hides a scared,
Confused,
Little girl.
The bear within cowers at the hunters,
But she acts strong.
She 'doesn't care.'
For a short period of time,
Even she began to believe it.
Caring only hurt her,
And all she wanted was to feel better,
But now it's worse.
Now the hole is deeper,
The scar more noticeable,
The vicious cycle unescapable.
Falling too fast to catch that branch on the way back down.

So soft and so warm with her hand in mine,
The time has not been kind
So young and so wise with death in her eyes
The darkness burns her skin
White and smooth, her arms reach up
Touching the stars with every stretch
Gently my hand grazes the scars
Tracing, tracing, tracing
I feel the star, the heart, the lines and the words
Reeking of pain with every stroke
I hold her tightly
Her eyes shining brightly
Yearning for something more
Peering, peering, peering
Through every unwelcoming door

Touch the stars,
Burning amongst the black

I see the stories poured throughout every red, poison-filled drop

Touch the stars,
Offering life amongst the scars

Here's the end of the end, my breaths are slowing down
I can't take it anymore, we've been trying, going around and around
But you still bring tears to my eyes, and I hate you more each day
There is only one way to make all of this pain go away
I'm fighting the urge to push, pull and scream
Why don't you just get the hell away from me
My heart is locked up in this tiny little box
Bars all around, with a giant key, that I started to hand to you
Until you broke me, trying to get in, you tried to force me
Love doesn't come with screams
It comes with whispers and gentle touches, kisses that give me rushes
The end of this battle is coming near, I can see the sky it's clear
Rising up to heaven as I make another cut
I wonder who will find me
Blood spilled on the carpet, dying it crimson
Your name carved on my skin a memory a sin
Remember these words you've said to me
You can do anything if you believe
This is what I chose to do, because of what you
Did
To
Me.

You stepped up when I was alone,
Lost in the dark from following a fool.
You gave me a new light to follow.
Made me stronger.
I gave you my heart, i trusted it in your hands.
So you took it and broke it yourself once again.

I move my hands across the skin of my wrist
It's soft, smooth; clear.
But it never used to be.
Over time, physical scars heal
Occasionally leaving behind some sort of mark.
A reminder of what was.
What used to be.
But there's nothing now.
It's as clean as it was,
Before the struggles,
Before the fight.
While the physical scars have faded,
The emotional ones never will.
Never given the chance to mend
So they won't.
As they burn deep,
It's a sad moment:
Reminders of life
Reminders of strength
Of relief
Now nonexistent.

Dark cold night air fills my lungs
I press on down this road
I have no clue where it goes
My feet hit the pavement
Freshly wet from the storm
The air feels wondrous as
it brushes my hot face
And dries my wet tears away
How can this be me
I want to forget it all
I want to stay forever gone
And not come back
I feel lost as I grasp for something
Anything to keep me going
I just wish someone could hold my
Hand through it all so I dont have
to be alone through the worst of it
After so much pain and hate
Is it worth the tears and blood
What about the others I've hurt
With my own actions
I run faster and faster
But just then I look back
To see my redemption
They came to save me
From this pain eating at me
I am so far gone now
Is it possible I think
I am Gone and trying to come back
And there they are to save me from myself
I don't need to self medicate
Or slice through my pain and memories
But how can i burden them with my problems
They refuse to let me go
I may be gone but
I look in all of your eyes and
I see so many reasons why
I am trying to come back