I could make you breakfast
I could hold your hand
If that might be enough
To make you understand

That although I may not show it
In ways that others do
Believe me when I say
That my love is just as true.

When I met you, I wasn't ready,
I've always been terrible with timing,
You were in a whole other world,
And my feet were still dangling,
I still had all these visions, endless opportunities,
You were so established,
You were so safe.
I wasn't looking for safe though,
It was the opposite.

I was so young,
I thought I'd never get hurt,
I always felt tall, and bullet proof,
And when I was brought down to the right size,
I just bounced back up and headed North to the sky,
At night you said you dreamed of me,
But I was just like the wind,
You felt me, but could never hold me,
Nobody has,
I took pride in belonging to nobody,
Not even myself,
I took the utter most fulfillment in the thought of being free,
Then you followed me,
Trying to tame me,
You never could understand my type,
You just can't make a bird stop wanting to fly,
On the ground I despised you,
In the air, I missed you,
and In my heart I always knew I loved you,
But this time is terrible for me.

I want to be done in the way that isn't final

Maybe just be in a coma for like
Three years

And not have to worry about anything
Or see anyone
Or go anywhere

People get exhausting
Work piles up
Money becomes not worth it

Emptiness make you wanna give up

Drowning in homework
Or your own blood

A constant headache
A steady job

I feel like I'm withering away

Even though I'm so young
And I really shouldn't complain

My life is pretty okay

But the more friends I make

The more tired I get
The more they wanna talk
The less I do
And I can feel myself pushing away
Because they're "normies"
They'd never understand

And I'm trying to plan my whole life out in front of me
Even though obstacles keep delaying me
And people keep disappointing me

I have to remember
Again
And again

The world doesn't revolve around me

I watched a movie
That comedically displayed
Suicide
And *******
Did I try to be offended
The whole time
But I feel like
For me at least
When you've been suicidal before
And you watch a movie
Like that
And everyone laughs
You learn to laugh along too.

And maybe
Some people
Could take offense
But that movie is a masterpiece

I learned somewhere along the way
(Maybe when I lost all faith in humanity)
That some things
You just gotta laugh at

The kids who make the most jokes about suicide and depression
Have often lived it
Dark humor
Is more or less,
Earned

And I think I've payed my dues.