Aeya Jean Johnson

Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

New

and
I couldn't bear to lose you. This
Broken
Body of mine still tries to move forward,
Every day,
Days.
Just like you do with your mind.
I want to let you know I'm proud of you,
With everything you accomplished.
My only wish is that you'd forget all using.

I'm not proud of myself, and am hurt that I can't accomplish what I feel I must do. I've seen you fight for more, and I am glad of that.

#caoimhn

Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

Throw away the key

I just need to know.
Starting to type out,
Each letter an anguish to remember
To think of
To feel.
Then again
Thoughts of those silent crying nights
Feelings of those words sliding into my heart
Like daggers.
Wanting to feel, wanting your arms around me
Then i give up on letting you in.

You can't tell me what I need to know
Because I already know your answer.

He was the only one I trusted but he has let go

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Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

Butterflies

Colors
Dripping down, down
Mixing with the greys and greens
In your eyes.
I can see the universe…
Uni, one.
What I mean is that
You and I
Together, one,
Would make the colors in my world brighter.

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Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

Dark Hair

Hold me.
Only one that I
Love.
Don't leave this time when I need you.

Might you
Embrace me once more?

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Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

The Most Wonderful Lie Ever Told to Me

"We're all going to fight tooth and nail to make you feel beautiful again."

Then he forgot about his promise to do so…

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Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

Notes

For me, and most people I've met,
Actions speak louder than words.

But the difference is that words are still deafening.
Especially since I seldom lie.
(exaggerate sometimes but…).

They are my strength or my bane.

The words spoken to me by people I care about stay with me the longest.
Those words you spoke…
Scars on my mind or flowers under my feet.

Never to be forgotten.

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Aeya Jean Johnson Dec 2016

Never

Never.
Don't you dare
Let a girl fall asleep thinking
That she is a monster.

She will rip herself apart from the inside out.
before she will trust you again.

If you ever deserve her trust again.

#caoimhn