and I am screaming as loudly and silently as i can
and i am crying as hard as i can with out letting a tear slip down my check

I’m not the strongest girl
I am weak and fragile.
You were strong and beautiful
You promised to hold me
To protect me through the storm

I did my best to calm the storm
So we could withstand it together
But with time
You slipped through my fingers

The storm is raging
And I’m not sure that I can withstand it on my own
But part of me prays
It’ll consume me

that night they dragged me
across the parking lot
they just couldn't see
how far i had got
i had made my world go black
yet they still yelled "liar"
they had me under attack
only my friends had screamed "why her?"

i was so close
my mind was less then static
it felt like everything froze
but to them i was still being dramatic

I am still drowning in my feelings
I wish for the violent waves
To embrace my broken soul
Once again

Maybe he’s not my home
Maybe I was just a guest
But oh my god I want to stay
I’m so lost out here alone

I know it’s not healthy
The crying
The drinking
The drugs
The oversleeping
Everyday
Since he left
But I need a replacement for him
He was sun
He was my high
He was my drink
He was my love.
And now he’s gone.

Huge tears cling to my cheeks
I’m intoxicated and I miss the man I love
I’m intoxicated and I’m thinking about my end
I’m weeping for I’m terrified of going  back to the silky black
All alone

You slipped through my fingers
I feel like you’re trying to wash me off you
If you are please let me get you a napkin
And I will leave

My days became my nights
My meals have become pills
My water have become ***** mixed with tears
My sleep has become insomnia
And my dreams have become the gasping for air
But the only thing that hasn’t changed is how I love you