Andrea

Andrea Jun 2014

I thought I was better
because they sent me away.
But everything is just a number
that makes me ugly.
the binge purge cycle, how cliché,
but I just want to be beautiful.
anorexia is overused, trending.
it's eating away at my sanity,
morality.
I just want to be pretty.

#eating #disorder #anorexia #bulimia #ed #pretty

Andrea Jan 2014

Reality

Could you maybe leave me alone for a minute?
Because my thoughts are hazy and hopeful.
You're a constant downer that keeps me grounded,
but no thanks.

Andrea Jan 2014

Untitled

Sometimes tears well up in my eyes,
because I'm sad.
I lie often,
because that's what people do.

Andrea Oct 2013

How Could I Forget?

"Hey remember that phase you went through."
What phase? I'm still living through it.
I can't find light even on the sunniest of days.
Do you mean remember when I wanted to die?
How could I remember when it never left,
when it's not a memory?

Andrea Oct 2013

Angry

How dare you.
I've waited so long for you,
then you swoop in and take my breath away,
then leave without a trace.

And as I'm gasping for air,
you're nowhere to be found.
I just needed you for a moment,
but I don't think you realize what you do.

And here I am trying to keep my
******* head together,
and trying to be what you want
and need.

And where are you?
You're everywhere but here,
not thinking of me,
not needing me.

Andrea Jul 2013

Hysteria

"Hello!" She started cheerfully
as she listened to the static on the other line.
A quiet conversation was carried out
between herself and an unfamiliar emptiness.
After she hung up, she smiled to herself
and began to tear at her skin with frail fingers.

"Hello?" She called into the rain,
her blood poured down with the storm.
The thunder shook and rocked her,
while she pulled her hair out.
Tossing it to the damp ground,
she smiled to herself.

Andrea Jul 2013

That Muggy Night

I don't know much about anything.
But I do know that you looked beautiful
standing there, confused, and lost.
And everything about you was perfection
as tears streamed down your cheeks.

I know that I didn't feel any kind of regret
when I kissed your damp lips
and felt a smile.
I don't know much about anything at all.
Your body being wrapped up in mine was something
that I do know was right.