round after round, here we go
chasing butterflies
we were ignorant of everything else but mesmerized by it's beauty
until one of us started thinking with our heads instead of our hearts
- I stopped running
and you go on,
chasing butterflies
that were never meant to be caught

I have circled my life around this love
destructed my way out
now I'm bound to this ground

this once barren land has started to flower
and I admit that I miss the misery this land had gotten
I don't want to live with this growth and strength this land has sprouted
I don't want to share this land that is mine

but I have to
and now the land has risen
I am now dead

tracks on the airport road (by planes)
to cleaners it would be stains that cannot be rid of
to people it would be a sight of imperfection and age
but to me
it signifies a routine
of a plane that was sent off
and back again
a routine of safety
a routine that people take for granted

I never understood the cliches of love
but with you, I do
fall in love with you every day all over again,
feel the butterflies in my tummy when you smile at me
mostly, that you're the love of my life and I want to be with you forever

you're gentle on your toes
while I'm breaking my bones
reaching for you
but I'm trying
I'm trying
I'm
trying

unknowingly, in sleepless unconsciousness
she crawled under my skin
into my veins and tangled herself
in the strings within me

watching her snuggle
with what caused me to struggle
I let her

like disease, it shot right through, and pierced through my ribcage that encased and protected what you call, my heart

crying out, before I started to edge over my sanity that took almost a life to try and save myself
I tried to stop it

within my corrupted and weak cells, faster than the speed of light, she took over my cellebrum and had me begging for more

she is my ecstasy,
the drug
the meaning
the place

you wish to unravel my demons
relish in your glory after
but darling, you don't know the gory business of this abyss
this is my abyss and it is not fair for you to see it

once you had a little insight into what I could possibly become
when sadness ate me up and only spewed out red upon open wounds
you took a step back, and almost fell over
you weren't ready to see it
but you chanced upon it
you weren't ready
you weren't ready
you couldn't believe it

but it is true, my baby
they exist
they thrive within me