It’s killing me to be there
Day after day
Would it **** me to leave?

Special talents:
Making something out of absolutely nothing

I was unnerved at how abrupt your truth was

Nighttime
Quiet
All my demons bombard me at once
Restlessness
Noise
Endless noise
Turned up to eleven

My heart aches all day long for a response from you that never comes

I am nothing.
Not even enough to be an afterthought

The transparency I can see your intentions with has no meaning to me
What am I doing to myself?

I guess...
We’re over?
It was nice to feel wanted
While it lasted

Instant fear
Panic
You won’t want anything to do with me after you see her
It’s not fair
I’ll be discarded

I can’t sleep
It’s you
Yet again
Flooding my already drowning mind

My hands are lonely
They will only ever hold each other

You’re so far away
You’re not there
Even when you’re right in front of me
You’re unreachable

I wish I could disappear without a trace

Can I kiss you again?

It’s finally the weekend
No more pretending
I can just sit and be miserable and alone in peace

Why do you change your mind?
I fall right back in every time
It’s breaking what little of my heart I have left

You can’t be everything to everybody
To some people, you’re nothing

I liked you more before I gave you what you wanted

At least I’m getting something
I know it’s actually nothing

Your silence. . .
My answer.

I am water
One little drop
Unassuming
As an ocean
Deadly

No one is ever going to care as much as I do,
And I hate myself for that

I long to be close to you
A feeling that will never be reciprocated

Would my friend genuinely care if I actually had one?

I get bits and pieces
And only sometimes
I want the whole thing
All of you
In your entirety

We walk around
“Seemingly okay”

Not everyone’s life is amazing
I live in the bleakness

This day will have come and gone and nothing will be any different

I’m sure I’ll get tired of being used
Eventually
... never by you though

I’m tired of this chapter
It’s killing me
Each day is more suffocating than the last
Can I skip to the end?

The good days just make the bad days that much worse

The Jekyll and Hyde we are at work still shocks me

Especially experiencing the ferocity that your hands race over my body with when we’re alone

I have so many questions
I know I’ll never get any answers from you

I caress the bottle
My most precious possession
My way out

We’re two different people
What did you want with me in the first place?

Reveal more to me

Am I stupid for feeling anything for you?
Do you have any feelings?
Do you feel anything for me?

It’s a new day
I’m nervous
How do you feel?
Did it seem like a dream to you too?

I’m now so far in...
Our kiss was a flame to gas

I’m so used to torturing myself, I don’t know how to live otherwise

I’m only your convenient thing
I’m your afterthought
You call when you’re bored
I race to your beck and call
My heart mistakes the physicality for romance
My head knows it means nothing to you

Moderately here

Your unique rhythm
Took me four months to decipher it
I could listen to it for an eternity

It doesn’t feel good pretending you’re not my boyfriend
It doesn’t feel good pretending I don’t care

I wish you would hold me
I wish you got butterflies when you saw me
I wish I could tell someone
...about you

My mistake is thinking that everyone has a  heart as caring as mine

I’m anticipating the night
My nerves are on edge
Will I be even more surprised?

Was it a mistake?

It was a mistake
You were a mistake

I had so much resolve to completely avoid you today
The instant you said something to me it instantly disintegrated