You are the last thought in my head before I drift to sleep You are there in my dreams, with your smile that makes my knees weak You are my first thought as my eyes flutter open
I wonder about what broke you I know a piece of it lies in our pasts that are awfully intertwined I’m sorry I didn’t tell you I should have told you If I could go back, I’d tell you in a heartbeat You make my heart beat You make my heart race
Going to the last marker Skipping all the usual in between Excluding my feelings is odd I love sharing the time and cramped space with you I hope you somewhat like me I just want you to think I’m cool It’s barely the beginning I’m already scared about the end
You’re getting too close to me I’ll only disappoint That’s what you told me. What does that even mean? I can’t change my feelings for you but, I can’t force you to have any feelings for me. I’m disappointed I can’t just be who you want enough for you to even want to try.
Should I stop being so negative about you not liking me? I don’t even know if you do or don’t I’ve never asked I’m too afraid of your answer Maybe if I let in some positive hope something magical would happen
Everyone keeps acting like it’s not a big deal Like I’m just having a bad day They don’t realize the thing in my head isn’t like a monster under my bed It’s a relentless killer
Yes, I know It’s happening again The familiar feeling of locking my heart away another level deeper The absence of the familiar pain startles me I know I’ll feel it all later Compounded
Where we can kiss Where our hands race up and down each other’s bodies Under the cover of night Our darkest corner of the earth Brings out our best light
Today last year I passed through your threshold for the first time Not knowing that I would eventually have a key Now, We don’t talk We don’t see each other, We don’t say I love you. All it took was a year. A year that took a lot from me.