I feel so stupid that I feel so bad because of you

I’m just a body to you
Warm holes to be used
Only when you see fit

Why don’t you like me?
What’s wrong with me?

You make me hate myself
Why did you hold my hand at the movies?
Why did you even start talking to me if you didn’t want to be in a relationship with me?
You uprooted my simple, blissfully lonely life
I’m mad at you for that
I’m so angry
You made me believe there was an ounce of hope for something more when you knew you didn’t have any feelings for me
Now you’re all I can ever think about
And you still couldn’t care less about me

I want to be your favorite

We’re under the same sky
We work under the same roof
I wish you’d want me around more

It happened again today
In the afternoon
Our long conversation
You, leaning in to kiss me
Me, instantly forgetting every depressive thought
Us, just for a moment in time