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 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Screaming
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
I lived life surrounded by screaming
Realized all this **** simply has no meaning
I kept going but questioned my reasoning
Mentally, dark images are hemorrhaging
Desperate to put purpose to the breathing
Everything's so temporary; I'm comfortable with leaving
And I smoke too much; I hate it but I'm feening
Unsure what kind of love could alleviate my grieving
My trust has been tainted by all the deceiving
Don't want death; for my will to live, I'm still pleading
Often feels as though the voices in my head are speeding
All I desire is to subdue their screaming
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
denial
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Bury your every sin in my flesh
As I feel the rise and fall, the heaving of your chest

Etch your scarred memories into my skin
Learn to love the lust that forced you to give in

Let me put your self control to the test
And leave an impression with my moans and my breath

Let yourself let your morals bend
Ignore the fact that this high will have a bitter end
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Stone
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
I've hardened to stone
I'm icy with little emotion shown
I'm afraid I'll only be known
Once my brains are scattered and blown

Innocence and naivety had me fooled
All matters not if that trigger is pulled
If I'm lifeless and, around me, my essence is pooled
And the heat of my flesh has gone and I've cooled
Until then, I struggle to be energized and fueled
Sensitivities were smothered as survival overruled
Thus, naivety no longer seems to have me fooled

Perhaps if my brains are scattered and blown
Then I may finally be known
For now, I'll be icy with no emotion shown
Because I've hardened to stone
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
You know this is for you, but I'll allow you to remain nameless
It may not even matter; you may not even read this
You probably won't because you're selfish and you're shameless
It's upon you that I'm forced to blame this
I don't know if I care enough to even post this
You know what? This is a write that I won't even finish
You've never cared about me; you don't even deserve the effort of this diss
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Dastardly
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Life is an up and down roller coaster of disasters
Full of twists and turns and some dastardly *******
Pacifists passing fists passively; are they real or just actors?
We're not on the same page; we're in whole other chapters
You might just find that you're the most complicating factor
And in any moment that things can flip backwards
The best cure may be to forget and get plastered
When you've realized that there's nothing you've mastered
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
My muse.
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
After all, I'm not confused.

Lately, I've been amused..

You're nothing but you've been my muse.
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
enough..
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Confessions stating that I might be in love.
Deep down I wish that it had been enough.

I swallowed the truth but you know that it was tough..
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Shadows
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
I want to erase you, leave you in the past..

Ignoring your voice, I'll delete those music apps..

I can't help but feel that, in feelings, I've been trapped..

How am I doing..something you would never ask..

Accepting the rejection at long, long last..

Hopefully, you'll get lost in the shadows that I cast..
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Untitled
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
I'll invite you to occupy my mind
I'll do my best to never waste your time
As long as you promise not to waste mine
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
Your Side
 Sep 2017 Austin
Xyns
The side of the bed on which you used to lay
Is the spot that, lately, I've chosen to stay

Embracing a body pillow to cope with being lonely
And the knowledge that you simply don't want me

The side of my bed on which you used to lay
Is a place I couldn't stand to see another stay

Those songs now only remind me I'm alone
So I deleted them; SoundCloud is gone

The side of the bed on which you used to lay
Is where I've been these past few days
Still, I chase others away
On your side, I think I'll stay
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