Tell me your deep and dark secrets,
My ears are craving for it.
Maybe cause I got a lot to tell you more then what your thinking..
Sinking your happy trail offensively your dribbling well, my devil tale sticks out more then a bad tale or a back rub that leads to something else.

Let me know if I'm to close okay?
It's not you it's me I know I'm your taste.

Tell me what you need
Tell me if it’s love
Or tell me if it’s lust
Feeling you is one
Loving you is something

I want us to be something...

To my bully I’m not scared of ya
Got no more tears to run for ya
Black eye after name calling I find I start to smile noticing You’re running out of ideas
And days

I eat my lunch before I go to school anyways
I’ve been plotting your demise for a whole semester.
Knowing your mom is there but to busy to listen to ya
and your dad dosent truley care for ya...
Even better
I could snap my fingers and your world would shatter
I could speak and could let demons enter your mind
I could drop my bag and go toe to toe with ya
But...
I see ... how fun you have calling me “ugly”
I see.. you keep me around and check on me cause u really want to be someone’s focus and trust me you have mine

You take my lunch cause you dont eat much
How I love the rings around my eyes cause one day you will see I was the only person that truley cared

...I love you

P.S. I’ll be there at your graduation you can count on it

I tripped so much I can't even stand straight.

I fall hard I think I fractured my brain

Cause it flips to the images of a kingdom and when I was in the womb being made..
Then it goes to my first oral in but I can tell the difference cause Love is love and that was just semin.

I tasted the sea and I tasted the meek
I tasted the sweet and I tasted the please.
Most of this is me and I can't redo what I've done in me ...I'm sorry me can you ever forgive me.

My love haven't ate but my stomach is full,
My soul wants it now but my spirit is Gold
I feel so away from where I was
Who am I who have I become
I wanted help I wanted to be bold
But this life desires someone to be there and I haven't found not one and it's getting cold
Where ever you are I just wanna go on a date
I love fishing and  grab a few steaks
I want my breath out by a kiss on my face
Crashing in your arms and telling about my day
I use to want her .. now I just want someone who will love me for ....me..

It's cold out here
The reaper in my ear say I know.
I see all my fears
Commiting suicide on the low.
My body feels like tears.
So It drips on life's cheeks cause the road I know...
Off to the new old tricks they perform.
Lighting the excitement but pushing the Realest out of door,
Most of the people won't help cause you know...it's cold out here.

Losing sight for the site losing hope but some don't mind.
Chasing copper and that frabric let's be perfect pay for plastic I look like Barbie but I'm breathing longer parts I hope in me she's gunna be satisfied...

What's next a heart of dirt and still live?
This ain't life so I pray for my kids that will live better in the new life the eternal gives.

I rather lose a lover then a love a Loser,
The lies are like snakes in my head like my name medusa..
I am just a man but they want me super..
Saving life's are harder then think to do huh..
I flirt like in bed with kuma Sutra.
But I rather lose a lover then to love a loser
I think it's just a spell.

Tomorrow's not promised
And I promised you I wouldn't do it again.
I'm dying to live but when I look back all I see is a dead man waiting for his last breath.
Wow the chances you give I take it and run off until I trip and  I break what's not mine.
Could a God find common ground with men?
Could a savior save me from the person that I've been.
Could a friend come down and erase my sin?
Should I ....would I....no could you show me and guide me to live a life worth living in love.

Remember the Day you first walk? Or the Day some kid pushed you off the swing and told you how  he felt about you on the play ground?
Remember the day you passed that test that you thought you wasn't going to pass? Or That teacher that never believed in you?
Can you Understand and weight Glory? Can you Stand under the Fact that all these Things Make you who the person you are today?
Actions despise that day but it was actions that you made.. that saved you that day..
Those are like Lighter then air cause we reached greater then the words they thought we was, and they are Thicker then blood cause the pain is so deep but some how it brings breath to those Pure ambitions.

Rewrite feels like we fight blue skies low mic I sing congrats to the new lead singer !

Me?...me?! Who can I lead who will even follow on stage buzzed from a hangover listening to me is like listening to fallen emperor applause to the New freaking Singer!

Play your part
Just play your part
Never stage freight
Just Cover up the thoughts with a smile and a off stare look..

You saw satan fall like lightning,
Is that the same place I fell ?....... Might be.
Too much of my greed
It was my choice to be chained
As I fall light years away.

But I'm carried by your grace.
I could've been satan but you made me light years away

Thank you...

Time still running and my mind still raining.
I close the shades and think of the kiss and your smile.
Maybe the displine from my Dad felt better then a mile at 4 am.

Roses are red and clouds are blue,
I write a love letter to myself.
Remember when you worked so hard that you got your license?
You drive for hours knowing you would get in trouble
But look at us now… better than ever
Remember when you didn’t make it on varsity ?
Look at you now a whole city knows your name and you didn’t remember theres
You can’t give up cause I wouldn’t give up on anyone I love
Come back to me and work liek you never before
Trust me ig will come an you will find yourself waking next to me

I gotta bed full of  wonders and and room full of silence.
Idont know why but it drives me crazy,
It's like I'm tired of this  place and I just wanna move out already..
I'm tired of earth
I'm sick with myself
My room is silent it never speaks what the hell?
And sense were talking bout hell that's the only place I don't wanna go.

My prayers is the only thing that talks to me in this room.

I'm ready to go
I'm ready to move
Is it cool if I was over there with you?
I'm really thinking now and I'm own the edge my chair,
I'm not looking but when that door open I'm out of here..
I just pray I'll be grounded and it will all work out for the best, that I won't be a nusense  but a brother something like a heir.

My date is soon I'm leaving to bloom or I'm staying with you?
I'm out for grabs but I'm in it for you
Can't tell my past I'm a shame of what some might do.
Let's roll the camera let me see a smile cause if they say no I'll be gone for a while.
Would you come to my show?
Would you walk a mile?
Will they open they're door?
Will you stay for a awhile?

I can't lie I'm down
I can't lie it's to soon
There I said it!
My Friend I'm so Scared to Lose You.

**** and ******
Plus and the minus
I got some ******* and *****
DM to snaps which do I call
Pick up bad habits you seeing me fall ,
Notifications you seeing me crawl
Made it a habit they love it so long
They love when I'm wrong don't tell me I'm wrong I sip on this  wrong she smoke on a **** but I'm high when he calls.

Do you know how it feels to  feel alone,
Are you really ready to love then change your tone..
Spilling feelings that you don’t know
Saying things that you don’t mean sipping to much until your head explodes waking up to text like are you home?
Flip the scrip on your love cause our know you’re wrong..
Tell his mom what all she did wrong
Taking a shower cause your heart froze asking yourself how did I make this so wrong..
Are you ready to be real with yourself that being alone was the best thing that you have ever known

Thicker it grows
Heavily the fangs show
The moon comes and it bounces off his inward glow
So much to the fact that most will know
I can't hide forever
But if I tell then my tale will be given to the heartless Endevors
I can't hide forever
But if I just tell will my tale fall off and will I be free forever?
I can't hide this... forever.
Forever has hidden who I am under this image I'm tellin.
I try to speak but my howls are comin
Is it too late..
Is it too

**howls then runs off

Life is great
Life is mean
Life will take you by the hand show you what it really wants to say..
Are you listening?

My head softly digs in my pillow
Rays of light dancing from my window.
To think is optional
To pray... I close my eyes and dream of your wonderful face..

I ain’t felt like this in a long time
I ain’t had **** for a long time
Just to feel like this it took a long time
Just to live like this it took a long  time
Just to think like this it took a long time yea
Just to love like this it took long time
Just to think like this I had to leave me my mind
Just to trust like this it took a lot of wine
Just to feel like this it took long time yea
Just to love like this it took long time yea
Just to smile like this it took long time....

Losing every friend he knows
What about them secrets though?
He don't tell nothing cause he's too deep involved
**** it...let it drip cause he got what he wanted from me
Open her legs I'm losing memories
I'm tryna find the way the truth the light you see
But the one who loves to lie is erected for me.
If I told the truth they would be scared of me
So much going on they like when I don't say anything..
Found my train of thought it's been a long time sense I've talked with my old friend integrity..

When it's real then it's real not fake,
If you love me then love me cause I love you bae.
Your the only thing that's making me real
2 makes a couple so a set for me and a set for you so are we foreal?
And when we disagree it's not a diss
So agree is somewhere in this big deal.
Maybe it was a small deal,
How I tryed to change the subject and you bot the lies I was telling you.
See *** leaks but love overflows ,
I'm in your dreams but I can't get you out my mind though...

Be careful what you take for granted,
I say it but I really meant it
What if I was the man that was loyal to the ending?
What if I was the one you kept over looking.
Wait just take a second
Would you let me in or have me waiting
If your world was on fire who would you call to save it.
If I was him then there’s beauty in ashes
Beautiful boy don’t worry I get it
I’ll open my arms and soak your world in my love.

I heard love was blind, But he came and sat with me..
Oh his voice was satisfied and his presence was like wine.
He said "Did they hear?"
I said heard what?
"He said did they hear about me..?"
I um I don't know my love..
"Oh my zeal speak oh zeal speak of me!"
I will...
But if they don't listen to me...?

Slowly he arose and said "some say I'm blind but hear on earth your my eyes so I can see, so let me be your mouth so they will hear me when you speak."

I heard love was blind but now I can see,
That I'm satisfied cause he speaks threw me while I sip his presence like a drink.

I don't know what to do anymore
But I'm ready to start in the anymore
And on my nothing's my short comings...losing the fight cause I'm gaining the truth.

what it takes to swallow your pride
In reality your getting played like Hard drive oh and inside...
Your killing yourself to create fake world something living lies.

You know I'm a freak right
It looks like things don't go right
Did you see I didn't want this right
It's like
You know what makes him fight
It's like
You have a hold on him and your grip so tight
Killing the breath until he says stop.
And because I said stop
I get hit with "I WANT YOU OUT TONIGHT"

And now we're here sleeping on the floor of another tonight
My heart is wounded and I really didn't even have no pride
You have everybody mislead and claim you're here for help but like a dog in a cage or a guy with a .45
There's No life.

I walk with braces on teeth
Thrift store 80’s the mink..
Brand new Camero watching fleets
Made a way
Made a way.
I was sleeping on couches
steady drinking and doubted..  
I was lost but I found’em
Make a way
Make a way
My sister delivered the baby,
My lover text me “it’s crazy”
Use to tell me not ready but now he tell me he’s ready.
Made a way made a way…

I use to think my worth was all in vain,
Until I stopped crying and worked for everything I have
Now My pain is champagne.

I use to come home close the door to my room and ******* just to convince my mind I wasn't alone.
Yet I was so alone
I use to sing to the walls and they use to echo after me it was the closest thing to me they convince me I wasn't alone.
Yet when I stopped talking I was so alone.
Promises broke and I drunk to many
My friend commited suicide and I'm so empty confessions I'm so ***** my nails are ***** my past is with me and I'm really done with myself completely stuck in a war of am I straight or gay
Yes I did it and I can't point the blame
Coming home to silence I use to be in Love with this Madness. I'm finding out this madness is me

Lips so red kept me on read,
Skin so smooth so I tried to play it smooth,
Eyes like the ocean so I’m drowning in you
Y like why?
O like oops
U for you and you so fine
I’ll pay the ticket just be by your side.
Hi

I have the brightest light and his is kinda dim.
But  I don't hit the right notes and his is sounding like a good hyme.
He's the one that loves to much when it comes to friends, and when comes home at night love sick I just say "here I am".
The mirror don't know  me when I talk the truth but I know he hears me when he comes back and say "is my noise to big or somethin"?
Why do you stare at me like that's gonna change your situation?
Let's not point fingers cause the same fingers is gunna hold you tonight.
I'm hear then I'm here even when those brown eyes are trying to hide the hurt or won't disappear.
Come to me and look at me again,
I will tell you it again
I love you and when I can't talk to you.
That's why we gave our life to the truth so you don't have to lie with a man.

My dad lost his dad feels like i am loosing him to,
All this fighting and no cash have me distracted on who is who.
I lay in a house with my  best friend
Are you depressed ? Or am I just pressuring you?
Your almost 17 and I'm about to be 22
Man I know age isn't nothing but a number but your ego tells off on you.
So I back up for a couple of weeks or two, waiting but learning I can't keep waiting for you.
I'm sorry for everybody I have let down.
These covers go over my head as I never felt so useless as my thoughts hit the ground.
My heart is the only thing that looks up..
Oh God if you can create something out of these ashes and this man of dust.

Can you always be that someone that thing .."you" that I cannot.

I can take the way I want to instead,
Or I can take the way of a man who made his steps fit..
Why haven't I left?
Stuck in desicion of all my friends
Who I leave and why did they just leave..?
Looking at the trees there's no time left
Why haven't I left?
Praying to God with all my chest
Why haven't I left?
I'm leaving I don't think they notice yet I pray the read the maps I sent
"Turn Right not left"

Good
Loving
Feel so Numb
Take me
Let go
Dripping that's my ..umm..

My thoughts on the floor when you used your brain,
6 years later still feel your tongue.
Letf these words so I won't feel insane
Critics come I'll let them win,
I lost more so where do I begin.

Rated R well that's my past
What do you want me to talk about?
Egior Allen Poe?

That's not me and he is dead,
I rather talk about my rehab of when I was losing sleep in my own bed..

I fished
Have you?
You wouldn't tell me
Oh I know..

Here I am again
I said I won’t call you again..
But here I am

Okay it’s obvious,
The hills that I hop
The pills in this pocket
The bottles I bought
The urge is locked in
And I Shouldn’t even drive but **** it
And I Shouldn’t even cry but  **** it
Shouldn’t even want it but I want it
So I’m ...
Thumbin threw these bands
I bet I’ll make your phone stop ringing
I swear I won’t call you again
But here I am again

I wish this bone wasn't broken,
Bone of my bone I wish upon your stars ..man you have some deep eyes. So deep I fall and I don't think there's no return, that reminds me I gotta return this movie from blockbuster I'll be back..

They don't deserve it
Why should you do it.

Put your ear phones in , keep listening to your music.

Cause everytime they come uhh I hate it.

Whatever!
Whatever they say is nonsense.

But there innocent, whatever they done in your life was wrong and embarrassment.

Was he a friend to touch me like this?
My mother just don't understand..
Dad is.. Oh Nevermind
Mr. Zeal I want to but it hurts to let them all in.

My friend this world will hurt you and it's always the closes but in all you do when they do even though it's hard it will heal you of all this.

Forgive them...
Forgive me..
Will you hold me forever?
I need to be forgiven cause I need know forgiveness...

I'm on my way to the iceberg.
My ship has drifted to a cold place
A hard place..
A heavy place to breathe.
My hands are shivering
My hands are shaking
My knees weak my faith is breaking come quick my tongue is whitening
Then I saw you...in the mist of my inner being who would of known that a iceberg would be home would be safe would be hot would be cold as my ship hits it I saw IT!! I saw it!!! The Sun Rise

I've walked in the presence of a unknown king
Taken my glory to a realm unseen
Food for a prince but he never satisfy me so this earthly wisdom has become scrap oh please!!
Don't tell me what you know if you trust in your jewelry
That's like having dirt in bowl on thanksgiving.
Yes it can produce but who is that feeding?
Like a slave that I haven't for days I crawl out of my ashes and feast upon what's greater then anything that has love me and that's MERCY

I messed up
I get it I'm so stupid oh I messed up.
So foolish loving vapors that's not real love.

I try to make my self good
My good is Like a filthy rag

I'm guilty all this thinking got me caught up.
Wait a minute let me get it now I'm *******
I'm dripping from my sinnin forgive me love.
I need you more then what I say to clean this mess up
I'm the mess up.

I try to make my self good
My good is Like a filthy rag.

Liking the attention but my eyes are not attentive drifting to the floor over chorus that sings "is this what I wanted"? Is this what you wanted ? Quest for questions unanswered and swept under well one day they will get it now I get it it's his vision on how he feels about his new relations as I rest on that pivet I dive into I can't wait for him to wake up and see if I get to see him ...prolly not as he says goodnight I love you I said it first maybe that's the reason why he said then again I love the attention even when he prolly don't mean it..my eyes are not even attentive drifting to the floor and back at the minutes we shared I never said I  liked this I'm loving just to see how I come Out of it .

Lips like autumn
Mind of envy
Call from momma
Kiss so empty
I don't know
What to say
In here alone
But you're with me ?
Money problems
Talk is cheap
F the car
Be home with me
F your feelings  
Who's texting me?
Lost a heart
Kept a seed
Pour the liquor
Pour my honey
Drink the whitest
Do you love me?
F the  milk
Where's my  honey
Where are you ?!

Word spread like peanut butter I guess when it hit my ears I already got milk and cookies to eat and a side order of what people think of me.

But what they think is what they think I think some thoughts but my mouth haven't been with me for 2 weeks cause of the weight I wait to see but I believe in me.

That's why I got up from what they want me to eat and started making my own food and praying when I have time I like that more then meat.

It's good..?  what's good if you eating crumbs from the thought that they think?

Look be mindful not the thought that they think, please remember hear before you speak and listen more to your heart then your feet.

Stop with the dreams!
I’m trying to sleep

Tell me mind , what do you want from me
Conversations with my heart and he tells me He don’t even wanna speak to you.

You’re becoming deadly you’re brcoming lethal
Sometimes I just think do I really need you.
Sometimes I just think..
I think..
You think ...??
If it wasn’t for me you would sink
If it wasn’t for me You wouldn’t believe.
Come back to me
I’ll help you see
I know you want to see
Let me give you peace!

You tried,
I’ll try..
I tried... to see you.
When you coming over bab
Let’s spend time
No mind I’m alright
Quit remindin
Quit reminding me
How lonely I am

Miss me when I'm gone,
I love the way i lie just to dance to a song and a rythem that i know that's going to lead me a place unknown..well i know..who know where i go?

I'm getting better at this even if it don't look like it,
one day I'll be gone in Cloud Thanking Him in the Sky for the.... Forgive me Lord I know I Lie when  I lay down with my thoughts
Too much "Lets go back to what i was".

All i can think about at night is how much is the cost of Flight?
Freedom from myself will be the greatest Sky i ever known..
Greatest rest that i ever known
greatest test that  life has ever thrown
Hope i make it till he call me home.

Miss me
Miss me now i wanna kiss me
Missing Missing now i wanna **** me
before the end of it all pray tonight i won't lie.
hope my actions pay off.

I wake up in the morning and roam the clouds with a blink. Head to the bathroom just to watch my soul leak..
Cut on the shower just to hide behind the steam
Naked but clean
Transparent but seen
What I mean is
Have you ever watched the water flow down your skin?
I find it funny how the water into him and the memories turned into soap suds .

Every morning i wake up with a big *****,
Awkward yes but with you you don't care cause you look like your in a comma.
Fast asleep as your phone go off I start to wonder,
Is it only me ?
Cause you got more guys then a dating site and on my life most of these dudes are better then what I look like...
Why me, why did you pick a sudden bi-polar youthful flight?

Cause maybe you love just for me ...right?

**looks at *******

If there is a will there's a way where there is a way you will be okay.
The night don't last forever only if you let your choices and your demons bring you to condemnation,
But there's no condemnation who's in The Lord.
Watch what you make God it will be the same thing that will save you from your self.
This is not for the religious cause I'm not your thoughts or a pastor just motivating why you do what you do before the actions...
Sleep in peace so you can rest when the world fill backwards

Captured by love if I lose everything I hope my love will hear me
Embraced by hope I follow it to the highest Moutain.
Conceived by trust it's hard not to swim the hearts of most and find out there's no water there so I bring a cup to ur lake
A cup to your ocean...
Love to your seed,
Hope to the hopeless ones
Trust to a generation of back stabbers..
Maybe if they see my scars they will follow me to your Moutain..
Maybe..

I am alone but not lonely,
Pills and sativa and these sins tryna hold me
Tell me do you  notice me ?
Uber up in Tulsa please somewhere they notice me
Still I got your number and your photo of your i.d.
hope you don’t despise me…
Fed me only pipe dreams but
5,000 only paper if you love me you gone wake up only me that’s in this cap huh
Tell them how we mad up ?
Tell them bout the times when your sister need cake up
Tell them bout the time when you held me like a baby
Crying in your arms now I’m more then what you take me
Broken and confuse still wanted all your babies
Put it all on here just show you how you can’t see
That
I
Been
Doing
By
Myself
Too long
And
I’m
Still
…in love with your ***