I've taking off what I belive,
Now I'm just naked like Adam and Eve.
Media talking she want What I bring.
6 inches swinging the smell of prestige.
***** is longer but  let it all breath.
Surviving the conscience the world on it's knees.
******* up children...abortion to me.
Now that I'm payed I'm payed with there greed.
All that had is now on the link scroll to the left and you see what I mean.
Norp is so backwards if u know what I mean....

I just want you to know,
I'm trapped in a amazement.

When great takes control,
Your locked in amazing.

I tried to become what they always wanted,
They don't get me when I say "I'm a prisoner of needing it".

If your listening I know you don't get me cause I don't get it.

Why love loves us? That's the only thing I keep asking

And therefore I'm trapped in Amazement.

I’d thought I’d be around to fly
My life right now is hard to find
It’s okay mom I’m still alive
But half way breathin
Yes I’m half way breathin.

My hands they reach for the sky
My head it falls like a meteor.
You thought the tears could stop the pain inside.
I’m half way breathin
Yes I’m half way breathin.

These rainbows fool my naked eye
Such beauty but I forget when it rains it drys..
The moon is so silent tonight...
It’s like there’s something hiding behind that light
You don’t feel it ?
I guess doom makes us pray
I guess a check makes us feel like we’re doing something right
Maybe Heaven was never to be reached tonight
Or maybe I’m growing faint and there’s something behind the moon tonight ...

Feels like I’m half way breathing
Yes I’m half way breathin tonight

If trust still coming...
And time still running...
5 months and I’m still in the unknown.
mind still running...
Yet you say you’re coming..
Capricorn you lay but don’t get to close.
Capricorn why do want me dude?
Capricorn I’m getting tired dude
Digging it out is not helping you
And you seeing my face with all my dirt is like ...
Makes you smile from all the sweat I do,
Backing up now then you pull me close

Babe I’m curious
Get serious

He like pipes and I like swishes
Yet we light the feelings
Scents of marijuana leave us opposites attract
It’s the smile he does for me and I for him its the morning text.
So simple yet deep
I am deep and I’m unique
It’s his words he said of me
And yet

I am still curious
Babe is this serious ?

Being single is cool … until you hear the whispers in the wind
Being single is fun.. until the bar closes and the shots wear off
Just another boy under sheets drowning in the memories of thoughts
It was Nathan who lingered with Paul Mitchell hair shampoo
It was Chris who snuck me in his moms house after hours
It was Harrison who drove with the wind in his hair
It Nicholas my perfect little punching bag.
I wish the tears came to keep me company
But all I have is Oreos & milk sitting at a acute angle like a little ***
And what drags the most was nick…
The taste of toxic love and good tips
Making eggs with a flaccid *****
Tovivid but vividly finding myself sinking so quick
The **** that I was for the way he talked to me like I didn’t exist
And then holding me tight just show me I was his
I’m sorry if I sound broken cause I thought we were fixed
Astrology said a Taurus and cancer was it
And now as I dip my Oreo in this white milk
I bury my head under the covers
Remembering the brown skin boy who touch was like silk.

When they burn down the churches,
stuck the ******* to God.
My clothes smell like smoke
Dame I can feel the tears in the sky!

But THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS!

When I threw the *******
Lord it's breaking my heart
And as I walk down the street I know you're hurting inside.
threw the mall I see sneakers
I see sneakers I can't buy
Oh they make you look like it's your appetite.
Late at night it goes deeper
Had a vision bout a guy
That sold his souls for life.

But THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS.

It's a thorn to the eye to try to sleep at night when you know the after life.
Our society is Satan on Sunday he shows us right but it's him in disguise.
Lord we need you to help us
Lord we need you in our life
I'll be lying if I said We'll be okay threw tonight

I am sinking threw my pillow
Lower then ever tonight
You are light years away with a new vibe
And I haven’t even put on my shoes sense the last time
So I’m tripping over my shoe lace like I forgot how to tie.

I find it hard it’s hard to find the will oh well never mind,
26 and I keep losing the ones I love like 80 year old waiting for his time.
I’ve tried...God ...Ive  tried to win a heart
This gay life is ripping me apart
Beautiful men and you mean to tell me all of them want *** tonight
Who wants forever?!
Who wants me?!
Who got time!
Who got me..
Who got
Who

Almost 22 and my desires are screaming at me.
Pass failures just sit closely
My Skeletons are scared of me
My hands are made of sand,
My life is built on faith cause I wouldn't last without it.
I feel like the blood you have given me is missing and the breath I breath is limited what's limitless?
I want him bad and I don't know how to fight it,
I wanna kid man I swear I'm not confuse about it but God..yehh..what about him ?
It's better to talk about what you have and what you own then what your not and what we could of been.

Decorating on a ocean floor
I'm sinking under the ocean Doors.
I wrote another boat I sit in another amen I've stole...show me more then throats who speak defile and licks my worst coming at the end of my remote
Switching the channel of my entertainment all I wanted was to make art!
All I wanted was to make art
All I wanted was to make peace, when you sit down and think "we" what do you see?
Isis...
Americas fall...?
The end of the world?
I drew a picture today of your face and I focused on the peace I couldn't see the bad it's always bad when you look at me..
Your the greatest artist I've seen if I die in the middle of this world you see I pray that I maybe drawn into your masterpiece.

Staining at walls like are you gunna,
Close in on me?

These days feel more but there numbing me to the things that use to "get me"
But you don't get me I get me and that's the whole point
I stop playing hookey and started learning
That this is worse then only
For that word always makes excuse

But all that crap I said up there
Was to tell you that im leaving who I am.

your my obsession
Your My obsession
Your skin is golden
I left my taste on your body
I left my eyes on your body
***** my life with your probably
I'm drenched in love hope you like me
I'm drenched in love hope you ride me
Unlock yourself until tried me
You lock yourself until you saw me
You can't stop smiling hope you like me
Open hearts we locked our bodies
Naked love exotic bodies
I want your hand You sniff my "try me"

I can't feel my faith
I can't tell what's fake
The sky or me above?
The lows look like there tape.
My mind talks all day
Losing all control
There I feel so safe
Words touch deep there ****
Words so deep there ****
I can't breath I'm *****
Tried and tried but I can't wait
Slowly thoughts penitrate
Slowly drifting away
Slowly drifting away...

Get up chase what you was chasing yesterday.
Lay down be burden with what you didn't say.
Didn't do...
Or didn't make.

...if there was another way I believe it would be pray.
About and in everything

Rich coding of peanut butter and a splash of jelly.

Tonight we will drink from the whitest of milks and with cookies that's crispy.

I wonder if they can tell that I'm hungry..

I just want peace babe,
Say you want me!
Take me to the Wild Wild I just wanna be by your side
On your side
On my life
I swear I’ll give it up for you
I belong to you!
I swear I just want PEACE!

Haven't had this in weeks, years months probably.

Wonder bread I untie it softly

Reach my hands in there and maaaan I already got the plate ready.

Peanut butter & jelly ....never gets old as I thank the one who made me

Sweet divine you cross my mind
And my shadow follows like a dot behind a sentence.
Period...
I’ll give it
Period
I’m listening
Period
I’m finish
Period..
Dot dot dot like a run on sentence
I’m finally finding beauty behind commitment.
Period..
That’s ....well that’s it...if you don’t get it my love never stopped for you...not one minute.

His skin is as sand
And his mind is a ocean the winds of life comes and he’s over flowing with laughter his smile is the only thing that keeps me believing.
But I... am a man with blood on my hands a handsome vampire that waits in the moon light with those light brown eyes gleaming and piercing threw anything that moves what a beautiful sight he is and what a fearful moment to be in the presence of me how does it feel to feel when you can’t even see your self in a mirror..

Drips of Gold
ANTIDOPE
Love is Close
Let's pillow talk.

You think to much
I don't think enough
Your hands are soft
My  Love is tough.

You keep me captured
But your hands are free
And when you fell asleep
I fell so deep.

I stroked your hair,
It's my disease
My tears to a walk
On this pillow talk.

In a maze cause I was amazed
That you didn't move and yet
My butterflies flying my heart always racing..
No need for words I hope my actions always say it

"I will never leave you I'll rest in that..."

I have dirt on my face and they say “God man pull yourself together”.
With a smile on my chin they say “Lord why does he have a attitude today.”
Replaying back times I would drive a distance just to sink in music like the tub was over flowing
If they only knew Good things I’ve done has turned into a lot of broken promises
So much I spread them all to make a new road for myself and soon they will say “Jesus why didn’t he give me key..? He dosent love me”
But they weren’t there when he had to pick up his life
They wasn’t there to set the blue print down tonight
I didn’t see non of them come back when the tears became my only friend
Who would of thought that I woudl be the bad guy in there imperial thought.
Abs I embrace it cause when he was beating you and she was telling me what to do and he said how I should ….
I watch them as they turn there nose to me and said with there hearts
“Dude your not good enough

They came to party until the world ends...
Play the record again
DJ Play that track again..
I watch the stars and clouds and ask when is the end?
Do I go and dance with my friends?
Do I go and watch the world end?
And they say..

Earth is caving in, run away from them.
There world is plastic
They think it's fantastic
Go and talk to him..the man that guides the wind.
Go and ask him,
He is here to save them.

Go and ask you know need Savin
Go and ask you know need Savin
Go ask him the world they know is plastic.
It will burn by there own sinful habits
Go and ask him..
Go and ask him.. The world you know is plastic
It's a habit the world you know is!

Plastic!
Plastic!
Plastic..

Hurry ask him

I came to dance a new song and hyme, Tell me how it ends.
my world is plastic
I was a fanatic
Watch the clouds and stars they took me very far.
He said..

Dust the magic off your feet,
And the plastic off your hands
My heart I give you so you can be real person again.

My songs are platnuim now go and sing to them and who ever here you they hears me.

The taste of the morning
The scent of the rain
The sun sits behind the Mooon as the clouds come out to play.
The wind on the corner the leaves stare and gaze.
My  mind wonders at night to a dungeon that's full of pleasures and pain.
Knock on the door again.
I'm ready to leave this place

Please
Call my phone
Please
Don't know why don't
Please
Let me know
Please
I can't hold..
Please
I can't hold these..
Please
I can't hold these tears
Please
Come in close
Please
You miss tho
Please
I miss you to
Please
My circle small
Please
Before It grows
Please
Call..please.

Please
I should call you but
Please
Don't take this wrong
Please
I won't be coming
Please
Don't be mad
Please
I don't understand why we do this just
Please
Don't pick up when I call
Please
Cause I'm not gunna pretend to love you..soo
Please
Don't call me for nothing call me when you need me to love you not when you miss me
Please..
Please..

Exciting as butterflies torched like Flames
the Creativity of a artist But I'm dripping like a wet rag.
Why is this and what is that?
What I am and Why did i do the things I've Done?
What's the sky without the Sun?
who I am when your Gone?
Made to many mistakes i can't lie i'm scared ..
But Not fearing nothing else But God.
It's a Document not a journel
My Journey became the Thing I write to
Spiritually Unshaken
Poetically Unstable
The Imperfections are easy to see,
Perfection is Transparent.

I can't lie these days I don't have nothing all together.
Still I look at the touch of the wind hugging the flowers.
I came to the same place just to see if that flower even cared, it was gone and another fresh grass reappeared then it touched me like the wind hugging my soul, a billion people live and millions die that nobody knows Life is fleeting I gotta make sure that I'm living a life worth living at the end of my course

Locked his self in his room
Electric lights like Mr.Doom
The voices getting louder
The boy is becoming consumed
The argument before is leaking threw the man after this will be nothing but a uncaring waiting for something to happen tomb..
As I lay dead of words that I told u in confidence I pick up the pieces of what I said...then again...
This is my end I will let my demon speak for u

Guilty,
I am...
Never should of let you  in

I don't even know where I been
Loosing my balance I can't stand
Guilty,
I am...

What I don't wanna do I did
What I did I don't know what happen
Oh I am Guilty,
My friend..  

Darkness runs in,
Maybe I'm possessed

Guilty,
I am
Save me from the monster I been..

He can calculate the stars from the moon
But here he is holding my hand getting Food.
He can  understanding quantum physics,
But holding his hand I can feel him shaking to take pictures.

Here he is you’re President!
But laying next to me looking in my eyes deep he’s...silent.

And the smile of it all
And the tears that fall
And the love that search
And the fear to lose it all


They see him as Potãto
I see him as potato
Even if they want him to be the star tonight,
He will always be the brightest in my life.

My heart is a well and I can't stop it,
My hands have holes.
And my tears hold back cause I don't have a backbone.
I smile
I smile
Cause I don't have another expression to give..
My frown only comes when I say "truth is"..
But truth is my lips trip my words until I sink in my well but who cares ?
Who cares ?
Who cares?.... I do ...I doooo!!! Come we will hold each other until we find something to laugh at and discover the truth...

"I'm hear for you,"and if you ever come back I have drink for you..

My mind has become a field of my imagination,
And it’s crowded up there
I am God even the thought of God is person here and the man I am in my head is something serious.
That was just a fragment in my head.

Lord don't even know
I've been so far gone
I've been drinking some
I've been smoking some
I can't stand up nooo
Ive tried on my own!
Whole world on my d*!
God I do repent!
I just need you noooooww!!

Songs Fade and People Die
Heavens great and He'll is Hot
If I think upon a world where there is no Christ
Then were all doom like Dwayne Johnson "the rock".
If I make my bed in hell you are there
I heard your servant say that I'm convince that he's Right
I have been careless in a wicked and Evil thought
I can't judge when I know I'm a prob
I crash under your alter tonight
My hands are like Sand man I haven't heard from you all night
My Prayer is for me to be ready for your coming
Be a better Light then my own short comings
I'm brainwashed or living either way he's coming
I have broke my mind threw this hello poetry
And I'm finding out I don't even want to know me
God ...
My God..
I want to spend my life with you
Cause I know you real and you been threw it all
You see all
You know all
After this life I'm thankful for your salvation
Help me to help them
Sing to me to song to them
Speak threw me to understand
Yes Lord amen

Is there anybody listening ?
Its like I’m yelling but I’m whispering
Like it doesn’t even matter.

Is there anybody listening?
Okie I’m yelling at the walls again
Like it doesn’t even matter.

Is there anybody listening ?
The Fathers without there children
Like they don’t even matter.

Tell them I am listening..
To the broken hearted immigrants
Because family does matter..
Cause all of this matters.

He wakes up and smells lust,
His prey sleeps threw the night.
His past is present and plus trust,
Hearing my stomach roar he gets hungry.
So he slides to his victim...helpless and unconscious or just sleep he wraps his hands around his mine.
Thoughts come to mind..
I-I-I tried and tried to stop the past from taking my life
But it's too late I'm eating my victims mind and I fight and fight.
But I've done this before I'm numb to the fight.
My tongue has touched what my soul likes as he turns over.
I'm covered in regret tonight.

Let's take a chance
Fall into love fall in my arms like if I was your man.
I'll hold you close and sweep up the tears before we begin.
Cause I'm your man...I'll do what I can to make your heart my home.

Let's take some time
The distance it shows but what do they know like a secret life...
You dance undercovers trapped in a lover but I am no saint..
They plucked all my feathers,  heartless endeavors still I will want to try.

Take me tonight
You're eager to go I can tell by you're soul that you're needing a knight,
a knight with a sword who will let down his guard and grip yours right
Tell me you're fantasies tell me what hurts so I can make it alright
What kind of man you want tonight.

One more moment before I go,
I look to the clouds like a funny joke.

I come back to earth just to write this poem,
It's a wonderful day let's have this moment together before it starts raining
Cause that's what I look  to see that God tells the best jokes with me.....I'm just being honest.

Sometimes you just gotta laugh threw your situation cause when you get that it can't stop the other day from coming!!!

Thank  you God for another joke you telling

Most oft friends don't know I've been around,
Still they unfollow cause they think I'm just loud.
"Please turn your life down"
"Live life and let your life flow"
But if I do that I'll miss out on what life made me to be.

It's hard to lie when you have the proof,
To tell the truth I've been living life like a fool.

The interesting thing about physics... Sceptics.
Is that were always looking for proof, but what will happen if we found it?

Theologies & hypothesis is like trapping love in a test tube or breath mint.

That don't make sense but even money now shows you the sinful abominations.

"and God Still dances ominous for sovereignty is Good for human dominance because we always wanna control something that we never made in this life of consequence."

Saw my brother they put him on tv
Just another black man up on tv
Momma called and said
“why did they shoot him?!”
Now she walk threw the house like a loose end.
And I stare at a hole in the ceiling
Took 3 days and 3 lines now I’m peeling
Momma said she’ll be back but it’s been a month now.
It’s the silence that ate up her mind now
Since then I haven’t heard from her...
I’m still lock in this conscious thought with my brother.

Naked words all alone
Sitting there taste the thoughts that come.
Ash of smoke touch the atmosphere,
Dancing clouds Hugs my throat.

I wear your under wear you cleaved my jacket,
Grow deep things that we can never imagine.
My head is ***** you say your thoughts are to..
Have you ever loved it too fact where you want that person?
We speak about the past and I trace what was broken,
Draw him in rage I can feel it in my stomach
We measure weight we measure love
Even though we lost a lot tonight if your down I gotcha...

How do you  know that I not turn?
How do you know that I won't leave?
Look at my actions like a verb
Like I look at you as a door with a key.

Water over wine
What do you like ?
When are you gunna get it?
Where is it?
Will you go there
Will you be down for anything?
Will you..

I never been so close to the things I hated
But I’m reading between the lines like in the book God Created.
the Joy those men shared  when it wasn’t all great.

When the lights went off so my mom lit a candle for me to play.

Or the time when I got in trouble at school but I found my Dad picking me up an feeding me when I didn’t deserve his grace.

It was a drug called “Theraflu” that I use to hate taking that !
But everytime my parents gave it to me it would knock the cold right out.

Oh the taste on my tongue,
Oh the memories just run
Laying on my bed today
Looking back what my life has become.
Stuck in a house full of Failures but look how much trophies I won
I thank God for the good
I thank Jesus for the bad
Cause with out a creator
Over the years I would of lost each and every one

Little brother,

A rose in west medows.
He came from jersey but it's weird that we have the same petals.

Walking behind I like to see where your feet goes,
"The best friend I've seen in minute" word to Rico.

"Bestest friend I've seen" words from me though.

The song we sing I sing a song just too see you smile..
Cause it shows me that I'm doing somthing in my life.

So much I wanna say,
And I know say a lot

But if there was one thing I could I would say

Thank you for loving me, and believing in me.

Always will be here for you..
Always..
Always...
Always ...
Always..

Love you..
I've always wanted a lilttle brother and can't ask for a better one and worst one I love the worst in you and I love the best in you and in both I will be there.

This pen this paper
My words my letters
I threw away most
I let go a lot
Still I come to this place where  I am God
No I will never be
No I'm not
In the best thing that ever happen to these words I write
I'm the worst thing that ever happen to my life
Such a energy
Such a mystery
Love is misery
But hate Is dead
My words are walking
My sentences are like lead
6 years in this world I made and I wish kinda wish my words would hold me like you do

He's clingy jealous punk,
A loving skinny jeans wearing skunk.
Madly in love with Love and I give up my spot just to see you sit you down.
It had to be known but I didn't know all this was gunna go down.
Full conversation of our imperfect things that we hate about each other ended up like a little kid crying on my shoulder. Your friend turn to my brother when his speech came quick like a eagle towards us.
You said I was jealous annd you said right.
When u see you with another friend that's treating you bad I came to fight.
Reading me like a book I hope you cross over the chapter when I say good bye.

Tell me the reason why you didn't come.
Tell me why you left..huh?
It's obvious I played the foolish son,
I'm only bleeding because I played a loved one.
I got hit by my own tongue,
I only stop sometimes when I'm not done.
But I'm finish playing broke one
But I'm finish playing no God
But I'm finish playing I didn't come
So my reason are excuses and that's why I hold my tongue.

I never thought I would heal
I never thought you would leave
I never thought I’ll be fine
To say i would like to look from a far then being the one in your life

When I look at myself in the mirror i think why is this so hard?
Those brown eyes have seen a lot..
My hands are ***** and my skin is tough from  peoples remarks and actions I've done in the dark.
my heart hurts cause i believe sin is real to live in it the ownere ask for monthly pay and title it "a vacant spot".
I see love there and i wanna change the world, all this knowledge keeps me from harm but what if I'm harming myself?
I swear this life can be so hard when you actually see what's in the mirror and besst thing about it is I'm not getting any younger...

Don't worry I'll be fine,
Wipe the dust off of me.
Oh those tears will go away,
Look away won't you please!

This is personal
This is personal
Even if your my reflection to...

I just sweep it under the rug,
When the hurt turns to pain.
Oh those wounds will go away,
Will you stop looking at me !

This is personal
This is personal
Even if I'm ashamed to know...

I here it all the time,
Christian you need me.
Oh I'm sorry for all the time,
Oh please mirror look at me!!

Your my personal,
Your my personal,
Don't you know you are the only one who strengthen me...