Looking for answers at the bottom of a bottle

Trying to drown my demons

Who knew the ******* learned to swim

Dropping to my knees screaming to the sky

Praying I’m heard and granted relief

Tired of hearing the devil on my shoulder

Wanting to tell him ******* and good bye

Knowing it’ll never be that easy

If only they knew the thoughts that I have

Doing everything I can to dull this feeling

This warped way of thinking that my answer to these problems

Are the actual problems I’m faced

Blaming everything and everyone for the way I feel

Knowing **** well I’m the catalyst

To this round about life I live in.

Emotions running wild
Like a mother who lost a child
Obscenities leave my mouth
Like a Geiser blasting off
White knuckle grip around the pen
Please save me before I lose my zen
Minds lost, racing thoughts
Saving myself one last time
Breathe in, breathe out
Inside my head all I can do is shout
Please believe me, I’m doing the best I can
But trust me I’m one lost man
Sure as hell its time to get on the right path
Sick and tired of handing out all this wrath

Isn't easy forgetting the past

When memories are built to last

Emotions run like a water fall

Drunk on feelings like it’s last call

Your words don’t lie

I’m just sitting here waiting to die

I know you wanted the world for me

But now my thoughts won’t let me be free

Drowning in an ocean of despair

I’m struggling to reach air

Is this what we came to

Yelling until our faces turn blue?

This isn’t what I wanted for us

I reminisce of the days of lust and love

Nights under the stars

And now it’s seems we’re so far

I didn’t think this would be true

I know our love was pure

And your intentions just

But the past still haunts me

Telling me this is all I’ll ever be

Now as I sink down like a stone

I hope one day you’ll be by my side again

And neither of us will ever feel this pain