i've noticed how sad i've become
i wouldn't tell my family
nor my friends
since everything is happening to them
It's my sister's birthday today,
why aren't i happy for her?
when i'm suppose to be so plentiful with joy
I used to be shining with happiness
now i'm just dull with nothingness

nothing is important anymore
i just want to be gone

They're just playing with me,
heart and everything
pulling on strings
they tell me
"gimme more gimme more"
as they brush against my arms
and hold my calves down
while i'm stating
"no more, baby, can't hold on anymore"
they tell me they want me,
but to another when
i can't be there
am i really your love
or just a doll to play with
and pull around
just for fun?

I wear bright colors to feel noticed
I wear clothes to cover up things people don't like
I wear things that I want to wear.
Sheer, ripped and beautiful

I can't hold it together
any longer and i'll break again
i'm gonna fail, we all know
that i'm just a mistake
i'm falling down
into the unknown
as i fall, i see your face
and know its going to be ok
but the stone walls, cave in
and tumble over
down on my knees,
all i can say is
"don't leave me please"