Every time I speak this word
It loses its meaning
Trying to articulate
A miserable feeling

I make these mistakes
Confusing consequence
With
Realization

I spill my blood in confusion
My guts out of fear
I lay barren

I shed my tears out of sadness
My skin wishes not to be
Shed

Feel your breath on my skin
Flowing through goosebumps akin
To single treetops on hills
Your single touch feels
Iridescent

I feel in colours abound
I breathe in waves of sound
My heartbeat mimics my feeling
It has me kneeling
At your feet

I wish to feel all of you
To know your depths true
To feel what you are
See you for the first time
Anew

The smell of you still lingers
Like sand slipping through my fingers
Slowly it fades away
How I wish it would stay
To remind me of you

I taste regret of my past
Feelings that should never last
I taste the shadows I cast
They taste so vast
Could you shine through

Could you help me
Set my limits free
Make me a new person
Reborn in your arms

As the day draws to a close
and the darkness shows its face
I peek from my dimly lit room
and find the stars in heaven's place

The darkness holds me
in cold embrace
Keeps me hidden
Of my loneliness it keeps only a trace

In the night I hold the power
to control my own fate
I answer only to the unseen
unbound by others' gate

I am a book filled to the brim
with stories of my past.
Written through experiences
and feelings I have lost.

The city lights sparkled
And glimmered
Like the night sky
You were the moon

I bathed in your light
Only for a short while
Felt your touch
Till daylight stole it away

The war that rages within me
Only has myself as casualty
The rest are merely
Grazed

What would it feel like
To touch your cheek
Caress you and cradle your head
Would your bones be sleek
Would your skin be soft
Would it crawl at my touch
Would you shy away from my hand
Like an animal betrayed
Would you let me
Hold you close
Feel your heart beat against my own
Would you find me gross
Would you let me ask you
All the things I don't know
Would you answer
Or say you do not know
If I said you were a blessing
Would you let me take your hand
If I told you I liked you like crazy
Would you crazily understand
Would you stand by my side
As I faced the world alone
Would you let me turn to you
When no-one will pick up the phone


Would I have the courage
To ask this of you
If we were face to face
Would I think these questions too
Or would I falter
And manage to ***** that up too
Would I be able to bring myself to speak
I haven't so far.
Three words my peak
What hope is there for someone like me
In a world full of killers
And kings and thieves
What should I be?

Why won't my eyes stay open
Why won't they close
Restless sleep
Haunted consciousness

I just want peace
But my thoughts
Haunt my dreams
I need release

No rest for the wicked
No rest for the weary
No rest at all
No sleep since last fall

My body feels cold in the heat of summer
I spend my days not feeling at all
I'm still reminded despite my efforts
Of my last call

My soul is chased around my body
By my heart and my mind
Running over my feelings
A feeling with words I cannot bind

Only an outline of the story
I wish to tell
Words like pieces
My soul I sell

To tell these parts of broken memory
From my side alone
Truly alone
Yet to see someone else's

Pieces
In front of my eyes
All I've seen are glimpses
Of pieces that I won't fit

I do not belong
To this puzzle
I am just
A piece without peace