Sitting in white shirt
(Loosened yuppie Windsor knot)
Armchair laughing
Having realized the grand joke of life

Satisfied little Sanskrit honey
Is it a bohdi tree or burning bush
(When really are one and same)
Don't think too hard

Suburban white boy dreams of trap houses
With tie over shoulder
As the tv says it prevents
***** on tie

Little air planes
Round and white
Hard pressed (to explain)
Make one fly at high speed
Get it? (never mind inside joke laughing)

Talks like a gang banger
Can't take it seriously
Little big boy equals not shook
Drinking rot gut tallboys

Days after and minutes away
Zehaf-Bibeau war memorial
Winchester repeater in hand
Supposed ideological threat needed
Expand the police state

Read me outloud
It doesn't hit the same without it
Empty room yet mind is crowded
How to sit and stare up at night sky
Without thinking about
All the ground and concrete and skyscrapers compressing chest
So heavy I'm convinced we'll all sink down into the earth soon enough
Not that it really seems to matter anymore
I can still feel doom tugging at the corners of being
Still see dead faces of everyone flashing through mind
"Hello nice to meet you, I can see you rotting in my head"
A brisk break room conversation
Not that it really seems to matter anymore

years of being told you were wrong
no trust left here
indifferent to most everything
it's a warm black tar pit
evolution of apathy

saying now again
what do i now next chop wood
as if so many little mantra words
have profound zen meaning to me
disenchanted disembodied little buddha
great laughs at own expense
fire has gone out where are you now

Breathe deep and dive into
Abyss of responsibility (new living)
Tired panic yet numb
Walking home soaked
From red leaf dark day pouring heavens

Thinking in silly double entendres like
'When it rains pours'
And other such pathetic drudgery
More simple patterns repeating
Unique combinations of those
Same **** traits

Going for broke taking a risk
Hoping this time not to ruin it
With so many stupid little words
Crash and burn again

Saturday night passing out on floor
Sleeping on the dog
She's my brood mother
Crumpled cans
Crumble

Cut a swath thru
Tinder *******
Drunk on the floor
With the dog