They came out in force
Out of nowhere
Ravaged the hillside
Stripped bones bare

I left them poison presents
Embedded into flesh they consumed
They retreated back into their bunkers
Then died a horrible death

I tried to show you the game
How to play it
So easy for you
But you scoffed at me

And now look at what you've done
I can't save you from yourself

Coughing up her lungs in the shower
Not so delicate
She will rip your face off
If you don't worship her
In accordance with her expectations

Why the torment
If I am nothing to you?

Here's a fresh towel and your robe.
I'll be right back with your slippers.

Make me your object
shape twist mold
so when the monsters come out
you have something to hold

She was the sweet angel so perfectly fragile
and lost like I was flawed and broken
I felt sharp pain it hurt to see those scars on her legs
She was so beautiful when she smiled and smoked her reds
and guitar played me the song she wrote
she wrapped me in her angel wings and said it was OK you're going to be fine
I see you who you are and that made me feel alive again
it gave me hope and strength
that I was worthy of such a sweet beautiful perfect creation
so I need her to know where ever I am in this world no matter where
I need her to know
I am here and I will come to her and be strong for her and hold her up like she did for me
whenever she needs me I am her straggler
I'll always be there I'll never let her go she's stuck with me forever
as long as blood is pumping through me

The scavengers will pick at her carcass
Until there is nothing remaining

And then I will be left to pick up the pieces
Of their greedy consummation
once more

I will of course recieve their generous gift
graciously
and with compassion I will welcome.the discarded shell

a sense of urgency i was not aware i was capable of
To rebuild her for them
maybe not so perfect this time

so she will be back sooner

I have a dream
It will never come true
It's the most incredible love

I hold on to it
Keep it guarded and safe
Only to be released
Every couple of weeks
At half hour intervals

And when it is unleashed
It's so powerful
It can't be contained
Because I can truly love
And she allows herself to be loved
Because She is worthy
For one brief moment
Life is perfect

I sit and listen
The birds
Even the crows
Sound crisp
Free
Not desperate and dying
down south
They pick at carcass
Of the poisoned rat
Suffering ******* in erratic breaths
One last gasp
Then silence

She is broken *****
A sweet angel
She needs a friend
More than she knows
Or she'll forget who she is
She could get lost
And never return
I can't save her
I have to save myself

I embraced my descent
Let it rip me apart
Tear me to shreds from the inside out
Stood by watching those I love suffer
And powerless to stop it

I was the passenger
The girl with the red hair
The look on her face when she knew it was the end
These last seconds will not be kind

Did the bottom come up to meet me
Or drop out completely
Looking back it's not clear
Please forgive me
my dear

Pulled the walls around me
Squeezed in tight inhaled deeply
Recalled my sins and wept
Exhaled remorse

Warp and twist reality
Into fantasy
It's so easily done
In my mind
I don't bother to differentiate anymore
It's not worth the energy

like a puzzle piece
That doesn't quite fit
Until by pure brute force

It snaps into place
Like it was meant to be there
It's cozy new home
With a long lost (s)kin

But very difficult to dismantle
Once in front of the fire
And the warmth
It never had
Will never leave it

It's cold out there

It was brutal but lovely
She kept me at bay
Neglected
No privilege
Not worthy
Of the whole
Only the scraps
Is what I get
All I deserve
All I will ever have
For unconditional love
And holding tight
Sorry buddy
Didn't mean to leave you hanging
I got too busy
And now I'm tired