The world is spinning
Am I alive?
The blood pounding in my ears
But am I alive?
They teased me, they shook me
They tore me apart
But am I alive?
They laughed at my body
The only size eighteen girl there was
But am I alive?
I ate my cakes
I ate my burgers
But I almost ate myself.
Still, am I alive?
Why did I think it was okay?
Why did I think that I could just survive?
Why, oh why, did I eat everything?
Couldn’t I spare myself?
There were better solutions, a better life
But I just drowned, I drowned
In puddle of my own misery.
Do I still breathe, on this world?
Do I still laugh, on this world?
Am I still riddled in my own riddles?
The world is spinning
Am I alive?
The blood pounding in my ears
But am I alive?
This is a poem I wrote for school, based on a Wattpad book I read, Bon Bon's to Yoga Pants.