She does not ask me
May I be there
She does not ask me
If I want her
She does not ask me
In the right time
She does not ask me about the day
She is just there
The fear

If I had a heart – which I don't
And it were to beat faster than usual – which it wouldn't
The reason certainly couldn't be you
Not your skin
Not your warmth
Not your kisses

If I was going to smile – which I won't
And my stomach was talking – which it couldn't
The reason certainly wouldn't be you
Not your skin
Not your warmth
Not your kisses

If I could be happy,
I'm sure I'd be happy with you.

But I've been crying my heart out
for so long now,
I don't know how not to.

Endless are the desires
They move like pendulum
From left to right to left

Until the time stops
the needle keeps moving
From positive to negative and back and forth
when the desire takes a vacation
the time stops at a perfect
balance of peace

catch this peace and be in it
for here are the pieces of wisdom
the nuggets of wisdom
that lets you in on the secrets
of all that there is

so that you can create
-manifest that which is needed at the moment
transform it  when you no longer need it
To wisdom of a heightened level and intensity.