Lying to myself I know
I made so many mistakes
Chasing the life and love of many statements
All will fade away

Tonight maybe last night to watch my dreams come true
Contrite heart and bitter thoughts need to hear from you
I need your guidance
Said I really need your guidance

Silent room and blank canvas,
Even if I paint you I know the colors of the wind will blow you to your write angles...
Speaking to deep I guess I draw a lot of confusion.
But sketching what you wrote I'll be living in a great delusion.
Everything I do to make it up you have created me to be this perfect villain...
All because I had one close to my heart when a female wasn't .
I'm tired of reading your book on who I will become
I rebuke you and go back guide I was before we wasn't ....
Silent room and poet dancing
You project out of your body only to see me live life but me and my peace.....


I'm a happily married husband

I'm down okay no real sh×t
I'm not suppose to curse I fail on wrist
Clock broken like look at the times I missed.
I use ******* just to let go of it
I use to shop in the malls like money doesn't exist
Now 4 men down and...can't tell you how much souls I hit.
Idk if I gotta problem or... I'm just talking to you like we're on bench.

But if I was truthful I hate the way I'm looking at lot of this.

Alot of people mad at me when I chose my own self
If I truly told you the truth I had to **** in cup to get out of it !
I was on drugs okay ... And I was truly trying to live this Godly mess
I say mess because now I know I'm dirt in every *** I kiss
I'm 30 now and I regret doing a lot of stuff I did
If we're truly talking about the pills I don't remember half of it
All I know is the devil son keeps telling me you did this sh×××t
Yet the Lord ask you every day to forgive them for they done to you

....I guess when he said you will sow what you reap ...I pray abd ask for seed thats merciful .

Another day
Another dollar!
The model of .... A Money monster
Lord you can be honest ...Do I sound like that monster?!

What if I don't
Why don't I do it!
I'm tired ... I'm only human
Lord I'ma be honest I don't really know how to do this...

I like a chubby cheek
The ones  you take to home.

Thick guys are sweet
The other ones to cold
I taught you how to move your feet
When the rhythm on
It's just the little things he makes me when I'm gone
But you don't know what they're like
When they ask you for your phone
It's like of all the years and shame to bring a Good man home
Like "there's no way!"
And "where did you go?!"
Forgot to text back okay but ill make it up when I get back home......

DONT TRY TO FIND YOUR SPACESHIP
THEY MIGHT BE OUT THERE WAITING
STAY IN MY BACK PACK ...FOREVER
STAY IN MY BACK PACK ...FOREVER

Especially for you.
I'll take room key for 2
Roses and couple of  balloons..
Tell me why you wanna make a move?

I'll take the blame if u stay.
Your yelling well let's throw a little parade.
Your mad at me but I'm not mad at you
It's like the room is me I feel consumed!

I don't understand I made my feet do the talking ..
I thought that ring was through the ******* I promise.
But if you think I'm worthless okay well I guess I'm garbage.

Especially for you
I only think of you
So what you tryna do ?
You hate the questions to
But isn't that how answers turn lessons with view ?

Don't ever say my heart will stray...
I'm dreaming but my hearts awaaakeee
I'm tasting what I did that day
Don't push me when I'm on the edge