Dad messaged me yesterday around 5.
I thought this drama was over.
He said listen carefully, so I did.
He said, I have 2 choices.
I can come home Sunday, or have grandma take legal guardianship of me.
No middle ground he said.
If I go back to my parents’ home, he said I won’t see grams except for the weekend.
He has said all this before.
This time feels different though.
He said make a decision after I read his messages, I was supposed to message him right after.
I told him this is a life alerting choice, a decision I can’t make alone.
I told him I would be at the house on Sunday though, what else could I have said?
I went to my aunt’s house yesterday, to get her opinion on it.
I’m getting a lawyer, I’m ready to live life.

I have nothing to say.
My input apparently wasn't welcome,
Though you asked for it.
My presence wasn't required,
Though you said:
"It'll make me more comfortable."
My help was just the opposite,
Though I helped you fix things with him.
You have no clue how hard it was for me.
Figure it out yourself next time.

Sat  on  a  bench  in  the  park  today.
A  Chinese  tourist  was­  down  
on  her  knees.
Taking  photo's  of  the
daises  in  the­  grass.
We  would  never  think
of  doing  that.

Keith  Wilson.­  Windermere.  UK.  2016.

Another chance
Another chance
I beg
Give me a second chance
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Another chance
Another chance
I beg
Give me another chance
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Another chance
Another chance
I beg
One last chance
...
No?
Why not?
Let me prove myself
Another chance
...
No answer...
I...
I blew it
Another chance you gave me more than once
And I haven't proven myself
I see...
Did I even deserve a third chance?
Did I even deserve a second chance?
Did... I ever deserve a chance in the first place?