I was gone in a day
I was gone in a way
I was gone in my mind
I was gone in my life
she was gone in a second
my heart was gone in a second
I was gone in a day
the pain will never go away

I fell from the trees
green and then brown
blending in gradient harmony
and I landed in dazed vertigo
and I felt sinking
falling into the ground
it taking me back
and I didn't put up a fight
for this is my motherland
this is my home

through death grows a bond of throes
and although no one can see me
I know nature is my guardian
maybe I was looking for safety
and maybe that was the groves

I've always been weighed down
by tons of ocean water
drowning me
and it was always building
getting heavier and stronger
and I was taking my last breath
and seeing my memories flash in the fire
the ocean was on fire
and the guilt was the culprit

Without the joy of
Depression.
You can't find
Happiness.

I've been missing sleep
Talking when I should be in bed
Loving while my eyes burn
They say sleep heals
But nothing has healed me more
Than you

beating in rhythm sweet harmony
in line of words that are all for you
I give my all angel all of me just for you
maybe I'm not the best and I know I'm a mess
but maybe all I need is you to reset
to break down my walls and let you in
to heal the cracks in my heart
to seal the hole that aches
to bring me happiness
and maybe your the one
maybe my soul is healing
maybe your eyes are all I need
to keep my world centred
maybe your heart is a melody I've been singing
maybe all I needed was you

It's in our hearts we find peace
With family, friends, and lovers
And the heart heals and breaks
What more is there to say
We break we crumble
We heal we hope

going between emotions
bursting against each other
trying to find a grip
where their are no hand holes
no one to help
where you just have one choice
to hop to the next step
hoping it doesn't snap

I've always thought
Love was meant to be fire
Like a burning on my skin
Not a seed
Slowly seeking my heart
It's not like fire and out of control
It's slow demanding, sensual in a way
Love is something that blooms

I know your hurting
So am I
I would take your pain
But then I might break

I loved you, you were my world
my sun
the universe to me
I revolved around a axis
turning to your voice
and then you left
a pain shattering pain
that will scar forever

if I passed would you look for me
if I was gone from here would you care
if I was buried in the ground would you mourn
why would you care about someone like me
some broken
person...

I can tell but you could also pinch me you know

because you see you did want it if only you didn't lie about it

if you even followed me
with a name I wouldn't know
I would still cherish you so
and somehow you mean the world
Latin Verbs for me and you
Te Amo Angelius Bambi
I figured out the puzzle
and it was love
I still cherish the memories
you and I shared
forever and forever
true love stands
so come and find me
I'm still waiting
arms open and blood bared
I will give everything
for our love to stand

I'll miss your smile that lit up the night
I'll miss your eyes they shine crystal Blue
I'll love you when your gone
I still love you now
even if our time is running out

a hand a imprint on my soul
love, dark but always in my soul
you will always be in my soul
even if you're the one hurting me

I may be sorry
And I cannot grieve
I cannot let out the anger I breath
So please don’t leave
I’m sorry I’m broken
I’m sorry I’m dead
I’m sorry I broke your heart
But…
Now my heart is dead

I take a breath and taste the air
I take a look I see your hair
I look down and see you bare
I think and I inhale a breath
time has slowed and my breath is shallow
I take a shaky breath and plunge
to a deal of love from within

a cold sad truth
I won't ever be complete
without you
or have I...
already lost it

some times I feel my insides are being punched
some times I feel the burn in my guts
sometimes I just want to yell
sometimes I feel the pain and just want to let go
I never wanted to hurt the people I love
and yet I can't let go of the secret
the dove that circles above my head
shakes every time it lays it's eyes on me
and I know I am responsible for the pain in it's Blue eyes
I know I will always hurt the most kindest of creatures
but what can I do with a cursed inheritance
what can I do when the ghosts stare at my soul
what can I do when they turn me inside out

We all have regrets
We all stray from our goals
But...
We also have hope
We all find our own paths

alcohol kisses
a numb feeling
it's distracting
it feels nice
and yet I feel the darkness
it's coming up
better take another drink
ahh good numbness

leaking

drops of water so lonely yet so full

leaking

it held love that I can't

leaking

a secret a once held

leaking

I used to have love

leaking

until it all leaked out

It hurt when I fell
But I got back up
And did it again
Only to fall over and over
Some of us maybe not the best of us
But some of us
We always make the same mistakes

I'm leaving the city
that buzzes with sound
I'm leaving the smoke
that seems to follow me around
I'm leaving the friends
who bullied me all my life
I'm leaving the haze
that wronged my judgement
I'm leaving my mind
the only way I can leave my past behind
I'm leaving my worries
it's the only way to escape
I'm leaving my fake smile
so I won't remember the pain
I'm leaving my hands tied
so I can't fight back
I'm leaving the city
so I can live and smell the air

I wanted to tell you
I love you so much
I walked out with a sound
I was sneaking through the ground
like a snake I left in the night
and like the night I disappear in the light
I wish I could tell you how much you mean
but sometimes I have to leave
for... me

I’ve been wondering.
Why do I, always get…
The burden of all your ****.

Why can’t I speak
Ain’t I worth it

Why can’t it for once be me
Why can’t you stand me

I can’t do this anymore
The burden is falling down
And with it I’ll drown

So help me out
I’m just trying to live…
With myself

Turn to the east and watch the light rise
And turn the light to the west
Where your dreams disappear
And the world goes dark

breathing sunshine words
breathing life from my breath
singing the sun through my heart
and living from their breath

you stole the person I love
you stole their happiness
and their joy
so sorry if I seem like a demon
but... if you hurt them I will come for you
with bright blue flames
and take your heart for what you did

I hate love stories
Not because I hate love
But because I don't want it to end

he looks upon me
faced down to the ground
seeking a truth
that can't be taken
nor received
because it is me

lust is a broken loop in my heart I see her body and she takes that as all I see and maybe I concentrate and I notice it yes any person would and sometimes I imagine many things but that will never compare to you to my Angel in the sky that I cradle in soul and reap the darkness from them I will hold there burdens above mine and all I think about my life is how disgustingly ****** I am so I confide yes it's not healthy but it helps me keep my hands off her but sometimes I wish I could let loose but I can't so I tie a noose on my hands and string my self by it maybe my hands will bleed for what I've done I'll take the torture for everything I've done

a lowlife rascal
with nothing but swords
living off ***** words
hearing women whisper in my ears
feeling clothes fall off
and lust be strong
feeling adrenaline in my veins
and yet I will never be fulfilled
the person was gone years ago
and I still feel tears
they are gone a hole is in place
for all this hurt to fall into place
so let it be and let me fall
I will fall into deaths jaws

Sometimes it's hard
To pretend
To put on make-up
And play a game

I am failing my code
and my family too
I turning off with no feeling
but I have feelings for you
all these poem I write
are meant to be with joy
but turn to darkness
in hidden hues
I just want to live and repair
to not see the glitch in me
to not be the broken branch
I don't want to break
I never wanted to be the malfunction

I wish I lived in the beyond
on mars
where I couldn't hurt the people I love
where the people were safe
I am a scar and I will not heal
I wish I was gone
so they wouldn't hurt

always thinking
of escape
from the one place
that is safe

Why are you looking at me
Why do you look sad but happy
Why are you crying but smiling
Why does it look just like me

In the time
In-between his breaths
I saw the mist of lies
His soul has whispered to mine

Is it wrong
To want
Is it wrong
To talk
Is it wrong
To hurt
Is it wrong
To want to ****

Am I too scary for you
Am I covering the moon
Am I a problem to you

Will you love me
Will you trust me
Will you believe me

I have a feeling
I have a problem
I have a secret

I still dream of you
I still love you
I still wish you were in my arms

Am I wrong to think
"Will you love me"
Am I right to still
dream of you loving me...

the dreams
come in light
bright burning light
evaporating my eyes
bringing darkness
a relief to the light
but a curse of blindness
who could've thought
dreams
would show me
reality

running through a field
running blind
unable to find you
you're darkness a shield
a sadness defined
my heart see-through

Sometimes I dream
But sometimes it's dark
Either colours
Or sensory deprevation
Those are my nights

we can not understand how
rivers and oceans talk
how they wade through
troubles and hard rock of
problems how they turn
us against ourselves
and unite in one breath
how they overflow
taking us with it

I was always thinking that when we left we would have lot's of time
not lot's of arguing
I guess I was deluding myself when I should've been guarding my heart from pain
I'm sorry but there is no shield in place anymore
there used to be but that shattered years ago and now there is no protection
so I guess there is a gateway but please don't overuse it
it's the only protection I have left
I guess I thought I could control who came in but the shield broke years ago

the sand is there
oh the sweet salt too
and you washed away that love
with hate
I knew it was you
with those electric eyes