You're gonna hurt my feelings.
But why should you give a ****?
If I'm just a stupid kid.
Who knows nothing about the world.
Then I don't deserve an ounce of respect.
Nothing I own is mine under your roof.
So sell all of it. Use the money to buy my grave.

Good luck cause I'll haunt you until you're dead.

I miss your long kisses
I miss our long drives
I miss feeling happy,
And now I’m going absolutely ******* crazy!!!

You’re gonna leave and I’m not ready,
You’re gonna leave so just wait right here
You’re gonna leave what if I ask for one more kiss?

Perhaps the things we love the most are better off alone,
I’m bitter and prone to skipping stones against the walls,
Bored out of my ******* mind but you’re entertaining and I..

miss your long kisses
I miss our long drives
I miss feeling happy,
And now I’m going absolutely ******* crazy!!!
Bonkers, insane, publicly shamed.

And I wish you the best life,
But I also would admit my crush on you,
That I have had since my sweet sixteen,
It’s been a couple years and I’m all *******,
In alcohol dreams and suicide teams.

Charging through a mild storm,
Minor inconveniences and wild coincidences,
Are what drive me to the point of insanity,
The rumble of earthquakes under my feet.

Hard to say if I'm really as strong as they say,
I lie a lot and my friends are moving on,
These trust issues keep me branded as anti-social,
Maybe, I'll decide to never love again.

Breaking up over the phone,
Splitting checks on ****** dates,
I'm torrential rain and you're a sunny day,
Nothing I could ever handle in a lifetime.

Asthma acts up because of the pollen in the morning,
Can't breathe without opening my mouth,
It's an absolute ******* curse,
Just stitch my mouth so I just shut the **** up.

I'm not sure how else to be myself,
I've learned that growing means fixing,
Everything that is wrong with me,
My character, my mind, my voice,
My schedule, my sleep,
Yet, my choice remains that I'll wander the world,
In search of something else to solve.

Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy.

I'd like to pack all my things,
Drive so far away that I drown,
In the ocean and sleep with the fish,
I'm not meant for this reality,
I just want to be ******* free,
I'm a man made of straw,
Push me over and **** me raw.

Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy.

Devolving into madness,
Every day I notice,
Everybody seems so unsatisfied,
I'm a pathological liar,
A manipulative crier,
So I'll live a life,
Far from the other side,
I won't beg for green grass,
Cause it's meant for men with cash.

Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
That's who I think I am,
Fixer boy,
Can't sleep at night I'm just,
Fixer boy,
I'll just **** myself before I'm 30.

There's a call coming through,
It's reflecting off of the drops of dew,
Telling me it's right time for a cleaning crew,
Cause my head is best killed and grown anew.

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

The phone's ringing off of the ******* hook,
Warning me, sending a cautionary tale, well look-
In my closet, there's a man, he has a silly book,
The stories all seem to spell my demise, he's a crook!

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

Lock up the weapons,
Or else I'll be preppin',
At midnight I might be steppin',
To the closet where I met him,
And I'll pray to Mister Hades,
To give me a fate better than it.

*******, label me a night owl,
Cause these bedtime blues are fowl,
The suicide hounds are on the prowl,
And I'm,
Oh ****,
Yes I'm,
In their line of sight.

Minutes to hours,
Hours to days,
Pathetic decay,
My skin I flay,
Just to make pay,
On this bed I lay,
As a sinner, as a stray.

Days to weeks,
Weeks turn months,
I'm done trying to rhyme,
I'm so tired of this sick mind,
Nothing ever feels like it's mine,
I'm a coward hiding under the sheets,
Monsters come and sit with me on my bed,
Watching as I sink further into a tantalizing plan.

Pathetic boy,
Skin I destroy,
Faking joy,
This is my ploy,
As a sinner, as a void.

There's a place by the ocean,
On the east coast
Where all the naughty children go,
They got coal in their stockings,
And when they go, they’re cured,
At night, in the dead of your sleep,
It'll be a nightmare but you're wide awake,
You'll realize only in the morning that you've lost,
Every sense of who you were, down the drain,
As they watch you shower with smiles,
Promising that your sins will be washed away.

Wipe off your smirk,
Don't you dare stand so wrong,
It's a group meeting just for you,
Or maybe you need some time in the ring.

Never be alone again,
No, cause they'll watch you sleep,
They love it when you take a misstep,
Cause god they love to see you cry,
Absolute dunce, a waste of a human,
Deserving of nothing but the worst,
And like the phoenix you will rise from the dust,
As a new upstanding citizen,
We'll keep you here as long as we can.

Wipe off your smirk,
Don't you dare stand so wrong,
It's a group meeting just for you,
Or maybe you need some time in the ring.

Take some time in the ring,
Swing it out, bully,
Take each one of them down,
Till you've lost feeling in your fingers,
And your eyes are swollen and bruised,
Everyone hates you, you're obscene,
Disgusting teen,
Disgusting, ugly teen.
The bully never wins.

Wipe off your smirk,
Don't you dare stand so wrong,
It's a group meeting just for you,
Or maybe you need some time in the ring.
Some time in the ring, will do you good.

There's a stale little flavor in the air, now,
I've been learning about how life's not fair,
My gender's been a debate for a while,
And my voice just keeps giving out.

Nobody's able to,
Nobody's able to,
Decipher body blues,
Decipher body blues.

Purple pools with floating jewels,
A merciful Goddess on a throne,
Bountiful treasure in the water,
Do you dare to tread inside it?

Remedy me,
I'm ready,
The tide is steady,
Remedy me.

Electric blue birds flew,
To the east towards the hues,
A redemption just to rule,
You'll rue the day you let Her die too.

Remedy me,
I'm ready,
The tide is steady,
Remedy me.

Pink sheets on ****** beds,
Walls are painted with reds,
Satin duvets are all shed,
She loves to dance with the dead.

Remedy me,
Remedy me,
Remedy me,
I'm ready.

You remember, I'm sure,
Our nights, outside,
On the bridge, it's cold,
Your nose is red, I'll be bold.

And we'll rise with the sun,
And we'll die on the run,
Oh I miss our love.
And we'll rise with the sun,
And we'll die on the run,
Oh I miss our love.

Your parents, hate me,
In your room, silently,
Watching movies, you're lovely,
Hold you close, end scene.

And we'll rise with the sun,
And we'll die on the run,
Oh I miss our love.
And we'll rise with the sun,
And we'll die on the run,
Oh I miss our love.

Oh how I miss,
How I miss,
Do you miss,
As much as I miss,
Our jaunts on the lake,
Time together on spring break,
Oh how I miss,
How I miss,
Do you miss,
As much as I miss?

And we'll rise with the sun,
And we'll die on the run,
Oh I miss our love.
And we'll rise with the sun,
And we'll die on the run,
Oh I miss our love,
Oh I miss our love,
Oh I miss our love.

Sideways for the attention,
Lengthwise for the results,
Thank you Marilyn Manson,
I'll remember that for next time.

You're going to wish and beg,
That you could turn back time,
Cause I'll be dead and gone,
And you'll be left to weep.

Look at all these notes,
Of nights passed on,
Maybe I wasn't numb enough,
Or my blade sharp enough.

You're going to wish and beg,
That you could turn back time,
Cause I'll be dead and gone,
And you'll be left to weep.

You told me that I,
Was doing it to pretend,
To manipulate and lie,
So that I could get attention,
Well I'll turn my blade,
And then you'll understand.

You're going to wish and beg,
That you could turn back time,
Cause I'll be dead and gone,
And you'll be left to weep.

Leftover screws,
Congregate at pews,
Mourn for my death,
I sliced up my own neck,
Bleeding out on the floor,
I hope you open the door.

Supposed to write something that I remember.
What do I really remember?
What's real and what's pretend?
I've gotta be specific.
I can't be too personal,
I can't be too stupid,
I can't be too cringe,
What the **** do I do?

Crush me, I am defeated,

A little bug on the pavement,

And I’ll watch the gallows come down,

From the certain palace in the sky,

Crying out, “can you save me?”

As the spirit begins it’s departure.

I’ll watch myself walk the cultures,

As my breath is torn apart.

I am an internet baby,
Just started walking,
I got on mom's laptop,
Now I'm a grown up!

***** men on the internet,
Send me their photos,
And I send them mine,
Now I'm traumatized!

I am an internet baby,
Just started a new job,
As a *** worker,
I don't make any money though,
Uh oh!

***** men on the internet,
Send me their photos,
And I send them mine,
Now I'm traumatized!

Hey little me,
It wasn't your fault,
You were tricked,
In the most horrible way of all.

And to every ******* man,
Who told me,
That I was mature:

I'll light them on fire,
Every nerve end alight,
Watch them scream in pain,
Watch them in delight,
Cause they're all dead,
Everything I've done,
Is never to be seen,
By the light of day...

I don't sleep with the lights on anymore,
There's not a St. Nicolas nor a Christ,
Now I know that there's no poltergeist,
Polluted waters and carbon emissions,
Corrupted systems and ignorant *****.

Viva la Revolution, dearest America,
Oh *******, Jeffery, Bill and Elon,
He chews you up to paste,
Then spits you out like waste.

I'm not ******* genius for thinking,
That everything is going to hell.

Viva la Revolution, dearest America,
A big ******* to all the cops who bastardized themselves,
"We chew you up to paste,
Now kiss me like I'm dressed in lace."

Everything is going to hell,
Everything is going to hell,
Everybody is going to hell,
Viva la Revolution and **** America.

Idyllic families
Childhood prodigies
Standards set so high
An altitude they cannot fly.

P-R-O-D-I-G-Y!

High School rolls in,
For some reason they cannot win,
Lost faith in the Father,
Take those kids through slaughter.

P-R-O-D-I-G-Y!

Every word becomes a drone,
They begin taking the phone,
It doesn’t change anything,
So now they’re questioning.
“Do you respect me?”

P-R-O-D-I-G-Y!

“Not since you made me bleed”
It’s rhetorical, they don’t care.
They’re projecting, old dreams, it’s not fair.

P-R-O-D-I-G-Y!

Fast track all the way to graduation,
Barely made it with a lil medication.
Standards in the sky,
Rest In Peace, fly high.

Rolling in an empty ballroom,
Dressed up tight,
Black slacks and blue tie,
All the windows are boarded up,
The floor is littered with glass shards,
Wood planks and dead bugs,
I think I saw a couple ****** teeth too.

It's foreign. (Can't handle this!)
It's foreign. (Can't handle this!)
I'll scream. (Too many 👁eyes👁 watching me!)
I'll scream. (Too many 👁eyes👁 watching me!)

Free-floating cobwebs from the chandelier,
Ripped jacket and lost shoes,
This glass is really hurting me too,
Don't know what I'm hunting for,
Spiders crawl into the holes in the floor,
And also into the rips in my blazer.

It's foreign. 👁(Hello! Are you there?)👁
It's foreign. 👁(Come down to earth!)👁
I'll scream.👁(You're being dramatic.)👁
I'll scream. 👁(Just get more sleep!)👁

It's foreign.  (Can't handle this!)
It's foreign. (Can't handle this!)

This dread. 👁(Someone's outside?!)👁
This dread. 👁(My room isn't safe!)👁

I'm dead?! (He loves me more than ever now!)
I'm dead?! (........I let him.......)

Here we go again,
You and I,
Another round,
Can't see,
Through this,
Tiny window.

You said,
"Get the-"
I cut you off.

Here's to,
Your nonsense,
I'm 19 now,
Im over it.

Me and my bug juice,
Wander these pixel halls,
In a disguise,
To hide from curious eyes.

This dress I'm in,
Is too bright,
The seams,
Like to hurt my arms,
And the wind,
Brushing along my legs,
Make me feel icky.

Me and my bug juice,
Wander these pixel halls,
Keeping disguised,
To hide from prying eyes.

The sweat pants,
I befriended,
Books keep my mind,
Distracted from...


Me an d my bu g juice , (Daddy got it for me !)

Wand r these pix el halls , (Barely remember where it was ?)

Slowly d elirio s , (Don't make him mad , please ?)

I 'm try ing to be se ious . (Wasn 't trying to laugh , I promise !)


Me and my bug juice,
Wander these pixel halls,
Keeping disguised,
To hide from prying eyes.

I don't want to sound magic,
I just want to sound tragic.

I don't wanna be famous,
I just wanna make payments.

I don't want to become a jaded **** Jagger,
I just wanna be a ludicrously crazy ******.

I don't want to be the media's dogma,
I just wanna ****** all their ******* drama.

I don't want kids to look up at me,
I just want them to see the poison I breathe.

Don't cry when my phone goes dead,
See that last text, you read.

And feel that gut-dropping dread,
Run to the house, where I'm alone.

Then continue into the place,
To my face, all those words you droned.

I'm gonna spray some ******* mace,
I've had enough of tossing you a bone.

You're nothing but a testosterone injected zombie,
Get a new ******* hobby.

Kitten-hitting,
Depression-denying,
******* ****** crazy.

The past ain't what it used to be,
So now you won't let it breathe,
So now you're buried with your misery.

A deranged,
Left estranged,
Egomaniac.

Oh I'm never good enough for you,
Am I?
Oh just let me start my motivation up,
Just for you to feel satisfied!
When are you gonna realize,
That my life is not yours to define?

Well if it's just an excuse,
Then I won't bother explaining anything to you.

Sometimes I imagine you listen when I speak,
Instead of eyeing me up like candy,
And when you couldn't have me anymore,
You flayed my flesh and laid it out on the porch.

Do I look young?
Do I look fresh?
Am I a lamb who's legal to touch?
Do I look dumb?
Do I look plush?
Am I a lamb who's legal to touch?

Now I go to meet someone new,
But all I can hear is this fear,
That they'll have me only because,
I've got these wide, large eyes,
With a slim, slender physique.

Water me down, flower kid,
To a seed in the ground.

There's no such thing as wanting to die,
You're just a silly sad butterfly,
Plummeting gracefully from the sky.

Caught in this trap,
One made by my own hands,
At least that's what I tell myself,
Am I just a cog in a turning machine?

Ballerina come 'round,
Look at me in the face,
Drop your guard now,
Get out of this nightmare.

When my voice is so loud,
How do you not hear me speak?
When I tell you these words,
About the pain I have felt,
You only speak from the pain that you've dealt.

Everyone watches my mess,
Seeing as I continue to confess,
To the times that I committed crimes,
Crimes that hurt as I wrote these rhymes.

And so.
In a process of elimination,
From head to toes,
I found that my conscience was guilty,
A list is cannot write but only feel,
What if I said I wasn't sorry,
For once.

Everyone watches my mess,
Seeing as I continue to confess,
To the times that I committed crimes,
Crimes that hurt as I wrote these rhymes.

There's a place that I wanna go,
Somewhere that I've never gone,
Someplace that I wanna stay,
And leave this troubled place.

Here come the red lights,
Red hair and suit coat,
Laden in sinners blood,
What else would he be but bold.

Escape the body I feel,
Maybe I'll be on my knees,
Never ever breaking free,
Of the confines I write.

Here come the red lights,
Red hair and suit coat,
Laden with sinners blood,
Who else would I know.

There's a place I wanna be,
To exist and never leave,
Till my body dies and stuck there,
While I'm off in space without a fare.

The Exxon curb is my home,
For the next five minutes it is my own,
It's few feet of curb that I won,
By sitting and drinking my green tea.

This is my chrome golden lair,
Under heaven's blessed stairs,
Where the lights go out suddenly,
And I'm finding myself stumbling.

Don't have enough time to wander the city,
I'll be home by the time it's dark,
Cause I don't care except when you're calling me,
Please don't talk to me like that.

This is my chrome golden lair,
Under heaven's blessed stairs,
Where the lights go out suddenly,
And I'm finding myself stumbling.

Take a moment to remember,
Our coffee date in November,
The spark of a thought-lost ember,
In December, hold me tender.

Calligraphy note left neat on my chest,
Made me forget all about the rest,
I cannot believe that I'm not a pest,
Something of a strange little mess.

Don't forget we looked at the stars,
From inside of a cold foggy car,
Our toes so cold and so far,
I had to say that you got my heart.

Take a moment to remember,
Our coffee date in November,
The spark of a thought lost ember,
In December, hold me tender.

Calligraphy note, in my sketch book,
Every so often I'll take a look,
You're my love,
My dear,
The one who holds the hook.

And they're cunning in their ways,
They're not absent-minded plays,
Cause they'll get what they want,
Even if it means you've got to rot.

And what happens when the immortal is killed?
Where does the ghost stay when he's forgotten?
When does the tyranny fall at the hands of the innocent?
Why is everyone so angry at everybody?

Memories left to produce mold,
Power that a dictator will hold,
Jump to the creek and cry out, "please"
"Whoever will I be?"

And what happens when the immortal is killed?
Where does the ghost stay when he's forgotten?
When does the tyranny fall at the hands of the innocent?
Why is everyone so angry at everybody?

Show me where I began,
Now show me where I end,
I can't feel anything but the breathing,
It's rolling over my own shoulders,
Blades penetrate my ****** eyes.

Up down, round my stem,
Carve me up, carve me out,
In, out, scoop my guts,
Carve me up, carve me out.

I'm sitting on an abandoned fender,
Out on your front porch, I'm bending.
You're letting me see what it means to be,
All up inside all the misery that you feel inside,
Throw me away when my time comes nigh.

I hope that everything I know,
Will be turned into the snow,
To melt away into the gutter with my sorrow.

And if I'm able to face my soul,
Without wondering when I'll take a toll..

Tumbling down is skilled if anything,
So break my toes from the inside.

Everybody understands it except you,
Or maybe nobody really understands and you're just a lost soul like me.

Don't you dare call me cause you're just a *****,
Well, all I really do is doubt you.

Look for me,
In the speed,
Of the sunrise,
Photoscope roped,
Out my mind.

Well Champ,
You're a ****,
Don't pretend,
You're not sick.

Bought a flight,
To treat my oversight,
Fight because they're not right,
Outta here,
Definitely queer.

I'm so tired of all these ghouls at my door,
Trying to spin me around, my guts up in knots,
So then a week later I'll go to emergency care,
I don't wanna grow old,
But I don't wanna fear life anymore.

Delivery Driver is the game today,
I hope I'll keep it for tomorrow's sake,
Don't you wimp out on me dear ghouls,
Causr I'm sick of forcing you away.

I think its time I open my door,
Maybe let them in to talk it out,
And spare myself the grief of running out.

I don't wanna grow old,
But I dont wanna fear growing up anymore.

Under a moon unlike any other,
A blood red moon to stand your ground,
Face to face in front of a shadowed foe,
Toothy grin to scare your pants off.

Bow down,
It's the end,
No more to see,
No more to be,
Dont be a fool,
Don't be a hero.

Steely eyes glow through the dark maroon,
These city streets turned to ghost paths,
Not one to find a body or even bones,
Better know you're not going home.

Find me,
I'll be here,
If I have to lose,
If I have to bleed,
Don't call my name,
Don't call for help.

Keep them coming 'round,
Keep me entertained,
Keep the tensions high,
Keep my cheeks red as the sheets.

Compliment me,
Take me out to coffee,
Fall in love with me,
And watch me leave.

Keep them satisfied,
Keep me depressed,
Keep the music low,
Keep my sadness at the end of the bay.

They keep falling for me,
And I'm just not ready,
I don't understand,
Just what I've done right,
I just wish they could do the same to me.

Compliment me,
Take me out to coffee,
Fall in love with me,
And watch me leave.

Are we making the right mistakes?
Are we driving the wrong direction?
Nothing is certain but everything’s treasure.
Donuts and dinner to graveyard simmer.

Autumn stars and rising moon,
Rising stars and autumn moon,
I’m just so sick of feeling so blue,
You’re just so blue of feeling so sick.

There's a soul inside the reflection,
Ocean eyes that bring destruction,
A tsunami wave against his treasures,
Living on higher ground to avoid detection.

There's a boy at the end of the driveway,
He's telling me all about the Warden,
And how he's brought houses to ruins,
He's telling me to look out for my loved ones.

Through no fault but mine,
Ive eviscerated my hope from youth,
Do you believe my manipulative lies,
Cause I sure hope you know I'm telling the truth.

Who I am,
Is who you tell me,
Insult me and break these teeth,
My gums will bleed.

Goodnight,
Tomorrow is not my last day,
Though it'll feel like my first,
I'm sorry I'm so stubborn,
I truly don't mean you harm.

There's Iron in this water,
Falling through my throat,
Spilling on my chest,
Someone convince me,
That I'm enough.

Silly little daydreams,
Give me all this hope,
When I don't know,
Where I'm going to turn.

There's marker on my arm,
Faded off of my skin,
Staining at the last layer,
Someone convince me,
That dying's not next.

Silly little daydreams,
Give me all this hope,
When I don't know,
Where I'm going to turn.

Tingling fingers,
I know what comes soon,
They don't know though,
I suppose I should say something.

I know I'll be blamed,
Be shunned for ever feeling such a way.

Im not afraid anymore,
I could take a life and feel less weight,
Drop down dead to kiss a corpse.
You'd hate me if I told you.

I'm looking in a mirror right now,
Cowardly veins bleeding out,
From the back of a head to the frontal lobe,
Not much left to feel at this point.

I'm not afraid anymore,
I would take a life and feel good,
Drop down into a grave I made,
You'd love me if I died.

This is a problem I've told the home,
Yet they excuse it as my laziness,
So I guess I'll sit down on the grass,
Shoot some cans and then...


myself.