He is not real
He is just a fantasy character
But when he was supposedly died
I wonder why did he choose the path of death?
When he could just leave and go on with his life?
Have his own family
Marry
Why did he choose to die alone?
Defending his country?
I judge him because he did not love

I thought the world revolves around love
But when I grew older
I realize now why he chose that path
Because there are things that love is  not enough
There are things you cannot just let go for the sake of love
But what is love anyway?

Even no matter how I observe
Love is still a mystery to me
Because I don't feel the need to sacrifice
And lose all my senses
There are things I am not willing to let go
Just for something new
Maybe he is the same
Even though I was relieved that there is a possibility that he is alive
That he disguised as someone else
Yet he still choose to remain alone
I used to question why
Now I understand why

Oh I dreamt of him my special someone
The one I'm supposed to be with for the rest of my life
Is it finally him?
He looks at me with that dazzling eyes
That perfect make up
He is far prettier than most girls
He is like a model oh hoh
When he moves with that long high heels
I cannot keep my eyes away

Uh. It seems like there is no need for explanation
it seems like he knew me already that charming smile
That melt an awkward and lame girl like I am
He said something but I could not hear as I focused my attention to him
But all I could hear is the word love
Oh hoh is it the one I'm gonna spend my life with?
He is so beautiful and when he transform back to his true self
He is too handsome and so hot
That black silky hair
Is it the one?
The man who is prettier than most girls

They did not know our beautiful bonding
Some people question why we are so close to each other
And why one is not jealous of the other
They did not understand that even true friendship cannot compare our beautiful bond
When I need help you are there with open arms like mother
When I want to say something no one can relate I can talk to you
When my mind is getting annoying worrying over stupid things that never happen you calm me down with your wisdom words
You shared my fantasy
We both love the same video games and you always suggest great anime and music
We talk a lot of things no one can relate to
We both get excited about cosplay events
And imagine we are in anime world
No one can match that beautiful bonding
You even help me to not feel alone and lonely
You are the half of me and I am never complete without you
They want to compare us they want me to get affected
But they know it does not matter
Because in the end, you will always pick me
In this world full of people
I know when you will have to choose among your friends
You always pick your sister
There are always you and me
No one else in between
Sometimes there are fight and insecurity
But that just pass by
Because what heart says is all that matters
And I always want the best for you
Because you are the best for me

Someone who will see through my disguises
And tell me it is not necessary to pretend
Love me for who I am
Not for the act I always play to others
Who will not feed me with compliments
For compliments are my weapon to protect thyself
And he will tell me it's okay for I love you for who you are
Take off the mask and be who you are
Someone who will not just ridiculously advice me
Without knowing that they are being fooled by my act
Someone who will find out the truth of who I am and my real personality

Just like my dear mother and sister
Who can never be fooled with my sweet words
Who will doubt the kind words I speak
For behind those words are lies
They will find the truth and impressed me
Like they are a mind reader
I want to end up with a man like them
I want to end up with a man like him

Someone like my mother who will tell me the truth
no matter how painful and bitter it is
One who will not lie to protect me
One who is deserving of my kindness and my respect
One who can see that my kindness to others
Is an act to protect me from the cruelty to the society
One who will tell me who I am and still believes in me

But how cruel reality is
Now that I found him
in That fateful 3 years ago
In a world that I can never be part of
For he is not Real,  a fictional character
A make belief
But it's okay as sad it seems
In my heart, he is always with me
Through bitterness and journey
Even though I continue to pretend and lie
He is still with me
Smiling with me
And always remind me to not go too far
For lies will destroy you, be true always
Even though I'm alone
But in my heart, he is with me