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SangaHmar Jul 2020
I no longer want to be here
But I'm too scared to die
I can't come to terms with life
Yet I can't do what is necessary to end it outright

I pushed the people I loved afar
I shoved people who cared away
I backed myself into a corner
Where my only company is despair
Maybe I thought it would hurt less for them
If they became strangers, instead of family and friends
SangaHmar Jul 2020
I'm sorry, i meant well
I never intended to hurt you, but I did
I thought I was only helping, I guess I was wrong.
I only meant to guide and help,
Not burn down what you had going on
If only i could go back
I would stop myself
From entering your life,
I'd steer my gaze off, and walk out of your life
It would have saved you from much hurt
And me from the guilt that chains me down
I thought I'd be the person to help others with their burden
But I was just a monster hiding in the dark
Everything I touch burns down and crumbles
I guess it's true what they say
The path to hell is paved with good intentions
I'll be going there now, this is goodbye
And even though late, if its worth any,
I'm sorry.
SangaHmar Jun 2020
I came to know the nature of people
And thus I became disillusioned.
SangaHmar May 2020
What is love?

I guess it's like the feeling of soft grass and earth on your feet
With the buzzing of bees and the songs of birds,
The flowers in bloom, painting places in colorful tones.
The time when the world awakens from death, It breaths life back to things, in the midst of the breeze of spring.


I reckon it is to feel the warmth of the sun on the tip of your skin, shining a great hue of yellow.
It symbolising the adventurous and daring nature of youth
The time of waking up into infinite potential,
I dare say tends to bring out in people the summer fun.


Maybe it's like the changing of leaves,
When they brown and fall of trees,
Painting the whole place orange
And it, marking the transformation into something new,
The fall marks life anew.


Or perhaps,
The time when all things sit still,
When all lies dormant
Winter to people seems harsh, frigid and cold
But people seem to forget,
For all things if to start over, must first end
And In winter lies the beginning of things, in it lies the promise of spring
SangaHmar May 2020
It's time to go,
Time to cast off the anchor that holds you
You have been stagnant in one place too long
Lying dormant, just hoping the past would change,
Questions of what if, and what could have been haunts you
It fills your head to the top that it blinds you
But It's time to open your eyes
and let go the shackles that bind you,
Time to get on the rollercoaster that only goes up.
Hope
SangaHmar May 2020
Tell me lass
And speak true
Tell me how one falls out of love with their other
Because to fall in is one thing but to fall out is another
To wake up to a numb heart
To unlove someone suddenly
Tell me, what you were feeling
Tell me was it easy, was it hard
Tell me what you felt, when you broke their heart
How did love escape from you
Did it gradually fade like a dimming light
Or was it lost quick and rapid like the tides
That the someone in your life became a complete stranger
How hard was it for you to sever
What you had between the two of you
Did past memories together make it harder
Or was it just easy all the same and smooth like butter
Forgive me for asking all this
Because the thought of it is perplexing, vexing
For many more would fall in love
Only to hit the ground and shatter
SangaHmar May 2020
I wish i could look at myself through your eyes,
To see if at all im wasting my time.
I hope you see me the way I see you
Because I'm scared I'd realise,
All this time, you were seeing me through different eyes.
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