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SangaHmar Mar 2021
Today I failed my friend
Today my friend killed himself
Today I think back on words I shouldn't have said
Today I am filled with regret
Today I realise the importance of words,
Today I failed to save my friend

He always said he'd **** himself
But alas I was a fool and thought it was a joke
I'd sarcastically tell him he did not have the guts to **** himself
Then he had to go and prove me wrong
Today I wished I had acted different
Today I wished had I only said, it wasn't the end for him,
Had I consoled him with words of care
Maybe he'd still be here,and I'd still have my friend
But I am a fool at heart, stupid and blind to others
I will never forgive myself
But I promise I'll learn
I promise I won't fail anyone in life,
Not anymore
SangaHmar Mar 2021
Father time, father time
Tell me is it about to be my time,
Time for me feels fleeting
I can feel it in my very being
My end is coming soon
So father time, father time
Am I right? Am I right?
Am I to die tonight
Long and weary are my bones and body
I hope nobody minds me when I say
Finally to lay at rest wouldn't be so bad
Father time, will the hurt stop
When my time comes, will I sleep soundly.
SangaHmar Feb 2021
If time was a place,
I'd meet you there..
To see you one last time,
And say I'm sorry
SangaHmar Jan 2021
If only time were kinder
Then I would have met you under different circumstances
If only fate were as forgiving
Then I wouldn't be here writing my regrets

I will never be the person of your dreams
I have no misgivings about it
But I shall not lie so believe me when I say
It fills me with sorrow to come to terms with it
It would be a lie when I say I would be happy if you're happy
For just the thought of you with someone else kills me

But We have all to come to terms with the reality we are faced with
And I with mine
We can only be grateful for the chances we are given, for the moments we get to share with someone.
I hope someday this heart heals
I hope someday I get to forget you
If only forgetting memories of you were as easy as falling asleep
But in truth you've etched your presence in me
It's a blessing and a curse
I'm sad but I'm glad
I'm angry but I find comfort in it
This weird melancholic feeling
It's hurts well it hurts good

You'll never know how I felt
Because what you don't know can't hurt
And I don't want to hurt you
Because somethings are more beautiful for the reason they are unobtainable
And so I'll swallow my feelings forever if I have to
Even if it means I'll be miserable forever
Because hurting you and you turning into a stranger hurts too much
And I'd rather live with the regrets of holding the truth in
SangaHmar Dec 2020
Lie
We lie even if it's only a little bit,
So that we can somehow find a way to live with ourselves
SangaHmar Dec 2020
Still my heart,
And teach it to move on
It cannot overcome the past
Where fond memories of you were built on
My head is full of dreams of you
While my heart aches of sorrow
My absence is something you'd hardly ever feel
For I am certain you won't need me, not for an eternity
My feelings will never be reciprocated
And my heart will be left out to wither and dry.
I'll be alone for the rest of my life
I guess this is what it's like,
To die every waking moment inside
SangaHmar Oct 2020
Let me dance my fingers on the black and white ivory
Glancing once in while to see
You sitting close to me
With you staring out, watching the blue sky
Singing along to the movement of my fingers
With a voice as clear as winter
But sweet like the spring
You smile as my fingers glide across
Your smile brings the summer warmth
This moment this piano this song
Your voice your smile your eyes
Makes me feel lucky to be alive
Makes me feel like I'm in paradise.
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