The beauty is in the mess of it all
the purest moments
unravel
when ones treacherous walls
begin to fall

The source isn't angelic or heavenly
one can seem devilish or deadly
light emerges from the darkest of landscapes
one must find their faith
for the glowing ones
are dark glittering souls
Whom once fell down the depths
of a never-ending black hole

Looks deceive those blinded by the all encompassing white light
One must not be scared, one must let go of the fright

Appreciate the gloomy hours
dance in the heaviest of showers
inhale the scent emerging
from the rarest of flowers
For the beauty is in
the mess of it all

I lost myself
at the
emerald sea
currents pulled
me into the
depths
&
the chaos
set me free

With pursed
lips
electric red
like cherries
in the summer
I expressed
my disdain
for the loud
echoing
voices
that truly
had nothing
to say

I met a man
as strange as could be
trudging along
the
illuminated street

He reminisced
for the days
he would
part the gold sea
when his eyes glistened
for a girl
whom looked like me

His words
quite eclectic
&  electric
Eloquent indeed

His eyes
Pure & Sweet

Others may proclaim
Danger ensues
But darling I knew
The esoteric man
Was no different
From me

Drifting into the dark abyss with weary thoughts and blocked visions

I dream of a past that ceases to exist, one without the wrenching heartache & disdain from impure energies crossing over an unwanted threshold

I never asked the demons to cross over to my side, yet our hidden fears can manifest into the open air

I take a deep breath as I dive head first into the cold, crisp water and swim into the unknown

The water is shockingly cold, and my mind is shockingly clear and filled with ease

What lies ahead isn’t nearly as frightening as that which I’m swimming far, far away from

Not all worlds
Are meant to be
Explored

Not all fires
To be lit

We will not be
Rewarded
For every
Road we drove


But instead that
Which we
Walked away from.

The void can only be filled
for so long, until it expands

through the madness, I travel to you
all which binds me,
turns my stone cold
words
azure blue,
through the fire,
love is reborn
through my desire,
I repent for my scorn
If I was never lost,
I would not have you
daydreaming
of how you
turn my mind from black
to dark shades of blue
through the wilderness,
I travel to you

trembling
grasp
grazes
the flame
burn
myself
curse
his name
shadowed pain
embedded in
an
intricate palm
storm is brewing
before the calm

distant city sounds
invigorate my racing mind
italian cars race
in the  noir night
white powder
stains
  clear warning sign
chained to this
toxic wasteland
for quite some time
he spoke
cruel worlds
with a twisted tongue
words cut deep
wounded & stung
I
Should have known
from the start
what shines too bright
will always dim
those who lie also sin
there was no chance for me
to win
in the toxic wasteland
with him

what
shines too bright
will always dim
those who lie
also sin
for there was
no chance
for me to win
in the toxic wasteland
with him

Egyptian blue
gold in the veins
revelations hidden
beneath the
tree trunk of
eternal truth

When light pours
through the ravaged
wound, it heals
all it's beauty
and essence
in divine timing

Time is an illusion
as it binds
the soul
to the earthly
plane

let's transcend

A transient
love affair
like a
passing cloud
in the air
intriguing
sight
I mustn't stare
for he is
on a train
headed
nowhere

Lurking in my mind
are
disruptive thoughts
I may temporarily lose
but always find
these thoughts never
disperse fully
never diminish nor
dim down dully
reappearance of a lost train of thought
I held up the double edged sword
and fought
for
truths I was not ready to handle
blew out the
candle
smoke rose slowly
My god,
you are quite holy
darker thoughts
bring forward an inner truth
never entertain the uncouth

Down the road,
the river
escapes
me as it
no longer flowed

When it comes,
it comes
when it
goes, it goes
embrace
the universal flow



I bid it farewell
down the road
the river
no longer
flowed
when it comes,
it comes
when it goes,
it goes
that's just
the universal
flow

An aching heart
a longing within
for a home
which I've never
known

If it comes
let it
if it goes
bid it goodbye
if it flows
follow the current
if it slows
be careful
not to drown

Gentle daydreams
set on fire
by fiends
flames engulfed
as I
tied my
own
noose
set myself
loose
caused
harm
as I
shot
poison
into
my arm

What is golden
can stay
that
which is gilded
will stray

I prance on your wooden
bed like a fawn in
the forrest of ephemeral desire

You sing to me a lullaby
in the distant landscape
where time melts
and ceases to exist

I heard heaven
is on earth
and the angels are
all around

For without your love,
I was once lost

Now I am Found

Any road
will take you there
when the destination
is unknown
but the yearning
burning
for freedom
exists
within

Casting spells
ringing church bells
boots of leather & diamond shells

Fret
no more
Lovely hours
are in store
for the dark
times
turn
into
gold mines
of inspiration

Between
who you
have been
and
whom you are
lies
eternal
possibilities
what if's
must be left
in the dusk

I pull myself apart,
I put myself back together

I let you tear me down,
I put myself back together

I let you consume me,
feel you consume me

You’re neither good nor pure,
I want it, all of it

Days pass, you have broke me
I put myself back together

I pranced
around
the revolving
sun
danced with
devils
who
watched
as
I came undone
I loved him
while he
held the
gun
lived
a million
times
in one

I inhale
his
serene
scent
I miss
the musk
of
you
you wreaked
of red wine
dimming
of my shine
& rough love
divine

Salty tears
drip on a night stand
of gold
for dreams of decades
past
I did sold
He was tall, rough, and
bold
I loved him more
he loved me
less
I shiver with memories
& from
the cold

More often
than not
the signs
will guide
you in the
wrong
direction
for life is
nothing more
than lessons
obtained

There is
one universal
truth
that truth
is that
the truth
and only
the truth
will
set
your soul,
heart,
and mind
free

It threatens
you
because
your
mind
can not
understand
nor
grasp
it fully

Awoke
in a field
of lilacs
dire
dreams
he unraveled
me slowly
at my seams
a man whom
believed
in
do by
any means
and I pranced
in the field
with
nomadic
fiends

I was an alchemist
of the night
turning
darkness
into
light
transmuting
my innermost
demons
in the
winter seasons