The beauty is in the mess of it all
the purest moments
unravel
when ones treacherous walls
begin to fall

The source isn't angelic or heavenly
one can seem devilish or deadly
light emerges from the darkest of landscapes
one must find their faith
for the glowing ones
are dark glittering souls
Whom once fell down the depths
of a never-ending black hole

Looks deceive those blinded by the all encompassing white light
One must not be scared, one must let go of the fright

Appreciate the gloomy hours
dance in the heaviest of showers
inhale the scent emerging
from the rarest of flowers
For the beauty is in
the mess of it all

I lost myself
at the
emerald sea
currents pulled
me into the
depths
&
the chaos
set me free

With pursed
lips
electric red
like cherries
in the summer
I expressed
my disdain
for the loud
echoing
voices
that truly
had nothing
to say

I met a man
as strange as could be
trudging along
the
illuminated street

He reminisced
for the days
he would
part the gold sea
when his eyes glistened
for a girl
whom looked like me

His words
quite eclectic
&  electric
Eloquent indeed

His eyes
Pure & Sweet

Others may proclaim
Danger ensues
But darling I knew
The esoteric man
Was no different
From me

Drifting into the dark abyss with weary thoughts and blocked visions

I dream of a past that ceases to exist, one without the wrenching heartache & disdain from impure energies crossing over an unwanted threshold

I never asked the demons to cross over to my side, yet our hidden fears can manifest into the open air

I take a deep breath as I dive head first into the cold, crisp water and swim into the unknown

The water is shockingly cold, and my mind is shockingly clear and filled with ease

What lies ahead isn’t nearly as frightening as that which I’m swimming far, far away from

Not all worlds
Are meant to be
Explored

Not all fires
To be lit

We will not be
Rewarded
For every
Road we drove


But instead that
Which we
Walked away from.

The void can only be filled
for so long, until it expands

through the madness, I travel to you
all which binds me,
turns my stone cold
words
azure blue,
through the fire,
love is reborn
through my desire,
I repent for my scorn
If I was never lost,
I would not have you
daydreaming
of how you
turn my mind from black
to dark shades of blue
through the wilderness,
I travel to you

trembling
grasp
grazes
the flame
burn
myself
curse
his name
shadowed pain
embedded in
an
intricate palm
storm is brewing
before the calm

distant city sounds
invigorate my racing mind
italian cars race
in the  noir night
white powder
stains
  clear warning sign
chained to this
toxic wasteland
for quite some time
he spoke
cruel worlds
with a twisted tongue
words cut deep
wounded & stung
I
Should have known
from the start
what shines too bright
will always dim
those who lie also sin
there was no chance for me
to win
in the toxic wasteland
with him

what
shines too bright
will always dim
those who lie
also sin
for there was
no chance
for me to win
in the toxic wasteland
with him

Egyptian blue
gold in the veins
revelations hidden
beneath the
tree trunk of
eternal truth

When light pours
through the ravaged
wound, it heals
all it's beauty
and essence
in divine timing

Time is an illusion
as it binds
the soul
to the earthly
plane

let's transcend

A transient
love affair
like a
passing cloud
in the air
intriguing
sight
I mustn't stare
for he is
on a train
headed
nowhere

Lurking in my mind
are
disruptive thoughts
I may temporarily lose
but always find
these thoughts never
disperse fully
never diminish nor
dim down dully
reappearance of a lost train of thought
I held up the double edged sword
and fought
for
truths I was not ready to handle
blew out the
candle
smoke rose slowly
My god,
you are quite holy
darker thoughts
bring forward an inner truth
never entertain the uncouth

Down the road,
the river
escapes
me as it
no longer flowed

When it comes,
it comes
when it
goes, it goes
embrace
the universal flow



I bid it farewell
down the road
the river
no longer
flowed
when it comes,
it comes
when it goes,
it goes
that's just
the universal
flow

Casting spells
ringing church bells
boots of leather & diamond shells

Adorned
in the dusk
sought
by
the
night

stars dizzy my
melting mind as
the ground fails
to tether me
to the earth

Half in the earth
half in the ethers
never quite
here nor there
nor anywhere

Foggy glass-stained window
church upon a hill of abundance
Transcending space & time
A light slowly flickers on
Eternal shine
Love is never lost,
maybe just hidden

Awoke
from a pipe
dream
divine
god speaks
through my pen
in gold speckled
shine
quench
the thirst
of these
seeking
thoughts of mine

What isn't meant for you
will never truly be yours
It will slip through
the fingers
of a grasp
much too tight
for darling don't you
see
there is something
else in store

I fell deep down
with a wicked
frown
dirt
& blood
on my party gown

once again
I sat on the edge
of desire
sat much too
close
to the fire
flames
ablaze
in the blurry
haze
of lust & tumult
of the summer days

Those people
whom aren't
for everyone
those
are
my people

A stable
mind
may lack
the gold
mine
of inspiration
that
the
madness
dervives
from

His
moods
eradicate
my peaceful nature
shift so greatly
Like the moon
Waxing and Waning
Ever-changing
Never stable
I am not able
To keep up
pick me up
spin me around
Shortly after
I hit the ground
bruise my ego
bruise my Face
I can’t keep up with
Your moods
pace

be weary of
those whom  
speak kind words
yet
have cold hearts

Turn a rosy cheek
dismiss me softly
when I dance
with the devil
in the dusk
of night

Infernal  intent
mind was twisted
& bent
he calls out
Where art thou?
silence
as
I fell deep down
with a wicked
frown
dirt
& blood
on my party gown

Holy place of worship,
in lost paradise
I recite
an unknown verse
to an unknown choir
I've heard it once in a distant
dream
there's a lost highway I ride
all night